I Literally Have NO Idea. Have I Tasted Cilantro? Yes, And I Did Think It Tasted Absolutely Awful. But

Sometimes I wonder a lot about why the people who did my autism assesment scored me high enough to be just below the criteria for autism, cause I thought I nailed that silly test.

Then I remember that I described the feeling of happiness as cold water running down my spine, and maybe they weren't so wrong after all...

(I still stand by that description tho, not my fault they aren't able to see it that way)

Cas meeting his early seasons self and telling him not to wait, and to stop following heaven and start following his heart, to not waste the little time he has left doing things for heaven or keeping his feelings to himself.

Telling him that there is happines in saying, not just in having

I- I got Winchester Derangement Syndrome... What do I DO with this information???

let me diagnose you with an illness they made up for supernatural

I'm rewatching supernatural (as one does) and I'm at the scene where Cas beats up Dean for the Angel Tablet. I'm trying to get my flatmate to come be moral support for me, (it is 2:30 AM) but she's refusing. What the FUCK is the point in having a flatmate with a fucked up sleep schedule if they can't come support you through your ship fighting???

Decided to redraw one of my OLD destiel drawings

Baldur's Gate update:

Started what I thought was a dark urge play through. Made my character and walked around making dar choices. Then I figured I was gonna try playing as Karlach for a lil bit, so I went to the character creator and looked at the companions. And then I saw the Dark Urge just chilling there. And I told my friend I was very confused, cause there wasn't a character called the dark urge in my playthrough.

That's when she broke it to me tjat when people said they had a Dark Urge playthrough they were playing AS the dark urge, not just being evil

Anyways, I had to start over on my own Dark Urge journey

I really enjoy playing video games, and am usually quite okay at it, but I for some reason am completely incapable of doing them correctly. Let me explain.

I usually aim for 100% completion in all games I play, which in turn tends to make me accidentally do things in the wrong order. In addition to this I am slightly stupid and fuck up a lot, so here are some of my best moments:

1. Skyrim: was gifted the game by a friend who loves it and was immedeately hooked. After having played non stop (apart from school) for about two weeks, my friend asked me what my favorite shout was. My response? "What the fuck is a shout??" I'd played the game for two whole weeks and just casually not gotten to that quest yet. I had the quest in my log, but I was running around doing other things, also killed a few dragons and had to go back later to be able to absorb their souls

2. Stardew valley: Played the game till I got tired of it, 100+ hours. Put it away, and then realized that romance is a thing in the game. I did not have a single hint of romance in my play through lmao

3. Baldur's gate: I during the entire thing with the thieflings in the glade I somehow fucked up enough to kill every single person there, causing me not to have the thiefling party and not get the Halsin quest. I did not realize there was another solution to that problem until halfway through act two.

I also managed to enter the goblin camp the wrong way, so I entered through the exit. During this I somehow killed Halsin. Then as I exited the camp I got the pop up for the Halsin quest, and then immedeately after a pop up saying the quest was over

4. Assassin's creed: when I play open world games I usually try to do every side quest etc I can before continuing with the main quest. In the ac games you also have a neat question mark for everywhere you haven't been. So any time I entered a new a new area, I'd loot everything. This caused me to get an inventory FILLED with quest items I did not have the quests for yet. Also ended up with a lot of quest items I never got to use after finishing the game

5. Horizon forbidden west: I did not realize there were areas of the map you needed a flying creature to access, so before unlocking said creature I was going around trying to explore every single location. Somehow also managed to glitch my way into one of the places that could "only" be accessed by flying. (I jumped like a million times till I managed to angle it correctly so I was able to jump into a tree and then jump the fence that way)

Also feel the need to mention that I do not own a sense of direction, and this is often revealed in the way I play games. I have a bunch of examples, but let's do the one where I tried to play breath of the wild.

I entered into a room. Straight ahead was a very obvious opening for where to go next, but I wanted to make sure I didn't miss anything in one of the corners. So I walked around the room, "oh look! A secret door!" I opened said door, expecting a smaller room with some loot in it. What actually happened? I walked back outside...

That's all I can remember for right now, but there is most likely a BUNCH more

Was really nervous about doing badly at my heart thingy today, so when the nurse placed all the electrodes and hooked me up to the machine I pulled out every trick my 6(?) Years of synchronized swimming taught me of controlling my heart rate and made it as low as I could

I am thankfully not very skilled at this so hopefully it didn't mess up my results

I was also completely topless in front of a stranger so my heartrate was likely a lil bit elevated from that

Best Winchester Brotherly Bonding Scenes

That face-touching thing they do to each other to see if they are alright. And sometimes they aren’t. It’s kind of like a command to say - open your eyes and look at me so I can be sure you are okay. Except that 6th one, which is just pure love. 

I have peaked.

Update: said cat apparently also loves caramel pudding

I made pizza and ended up with a bit too much ham, decided to give it to my cat. She ended up eating some of it but wasn't really too interested, she ended up leaving quite a bit of it.

What did she find that she absolutely loved and I physically had to tear her away from? Arugula... you know, the green kinda bitter kind of salad. She absolutely loves it.

The cat in question: (her name is Hiro)