World's Tiniest Update. C:

Ok so I've been seeing complaints about Book 7's ending by a few minority not only here, but from other platforms as well. While everyone is of course allowed to dislike something, let's tackle a few points:

Malleus deserved a harsher punishment

Everyone witnessed Diasomnia's moment. Everybody knew he accidentally killed Lilia. Everyone knows how much Lilia means to Malleus. So everyone knows that there's no punishment harsher than the eternal scar of accidentally killing your own father.

And that's not enough, because he lost majority of his power. THIS is his prolonged punishment. We should remember that his entire life revolved around being the strongest, so all of his foundation hinged on that. If you're an artist, it's like losing your dominant hand and having to relearn how to draw with your other. Except in his case it's like losing both his hands so he needs to learn how to draw with his feet.

While it's true that he's far happier now than he was when he was strong, that doesn't mean he won't go through so much suffering as a consequence. For 200 years. 200 years of being weak means he's not fit to be king; no Dark Fae will follow a man akin to a common Fae. His nobles will not respect him. He's now a very easy target, since he's not indestructible anymore.

This basically means he's currently a pretty decoration to Briar Valley. An unemployed trust fund kid. Random people will likely mock him or treat him like an amusing animal in a zoo.

Which means he will have to build his reputation from the ground up, against all odds, as a disgraced prince.

Malleus tried to kill x and x

No he did not. He genuinely thought he found a breakthrough and was doing the world a service by making immortality accessible to everyone. Remember that he used to be the strongest; he thought nobody was just capable of this feat until he did.

He was quite literally insane at that moment. When he did accidentally kill Lilia, he snapped to his senses and immediately reacted like a small child. He doesn't want to believe it, because he would never do something like that. He simply doesn't want to kill anyone-- what he wanted was the opposite: that nobody needs to die anymore.

Everybody left him off the hook so easily

We get a lot of scenes explaining this. Sure maybe for you their reasons are bullshit, but the fact is that this is a Disney story. He would never be executed. But the following are from different accounts from different characters.

There were actually very few injured, because even though he was insane in dragon form, a part of his morality was there and he unconsciously avoided hurting people as much as possible. There are more injuries that happen in Spelldrive than who Malleus injured, according to Epel.

For the rest of the student body, they were simply having the best dreams of their lives. Many compared to it an amusement park and want to experience it again.

The other overblotters tried to protest, but were reminded that they too almost killed people. Some were genuinely out to kill people while Malleus wasn't.

Most people on Sage Island are actually good people, unlike NRC students. They embody the values of Fantasia Mickey, where the apprentice was given a second chance instead of being exiled because he showed actual remorse.

He is entitled and thinks he's always right

Yes he's entitled. But that's part of his character. He thought he was right, insisted he was right, but when he was defeated and told otherwise, he accepted it wholeheartedly. He was the only overblotter who actually apologized in public, recognized he did wrong, thanked everyone for helping him, and swore he will become a better man.

He literally can't take back anything that's happened. Kicking him further will not achieve anything.

Why didn't he talk it out with Yuu instead of immediately jumping to overblot

He doesn't even understand that he's feeling something negative. Nobody taught him to recognize his own feelings. He was raised to be strong and independent, so his first instinct was to deal with the problem himself.

He can't even talk it out with Lilia and Silver; there was no way he could talk it out to a friend he just met that year.

His power literally hurts his surroundings when he tries to feel things. He's likely afraid of accidentally striking someone with lightning or drowning them in storms if he admits that he's feeling down.

He didn't know too much negative feelings could lead to an overblot. He was already out of his mind before he knew it.

There could be more but these are off the top of my head.

Today's stream is gonna be a bit depressing.

This week has been genuinely harsh to me and mom, but today we had found out that a lot of our things back at the old house I had mentioned before is officially gone.

I barely held it together after hearing that, but on stream I ended up getting emotional while explaining what happened.

Im sorry to everyone that watches my streams to relax and get away from your own harsh realities, I just needed to express my deep sadness of losing a lot of items i might never get back. Some that had been given to me by my dad, such as books and knives he used to collect.

I genuinely don't know what to do anymore and after this week, I don't think I ever will. Im tired. I just want to rest and stop fighting what is just a losing battle with life.

Currently on stream im just trying to do a quick edit on the minecraft vod on youtube and pulling up a video for chat to watch so you guys don't have to sit there and hear my sniffling the whole time.

Hopefully I can bounce back from this but we will see tomorrow.

Thank you for reading and in sorry for bringing down the mood on stream.

Puking and shitting

*waddles forward*

Once again, im gonna be a bit late to streaming tonight orz

Update

Hey everyone!

Sorry I've been absent for the past..what? a couple of months? Shit has just been happening so I haven't had time to stream, make a video, or even post anything orz

So to catch everyone up on what's been going on, my room is slowly getting destroyed by water.

So I'm still sleeping out in the living room since my floor is starting to warp like...really badly. So bad that I have to walk on the floor beams so I don't fall through my waterlogged floor. On top of that, the hole that the raccoon created is still not completely fixed. Me and mom had checked the room a couple of days ago and there’s some mold slowly growing on the ceiling not too far from the hole. So even if everything was fixed I still wouldn't be able to sleep in there.

A family member did come over to make a temporary fix for both the hole and floor about a month or so ago, but the temporary fix for the hole just fell off a day or two ago so now I smell wet installation every time I walk in.

On top of that, the water is spreading into the hallway and bathroom. So we have to watch our step everytime we go near my room or the bathroom least we will start to sink.

So I’m gonna have to pack my belongings and move them somewhere else least they accidentally get waterlogged, fall forward, or through the floor.

But there is some good news to share.

I never really said all of this out in the open like this but basically Mom had a heart attack about 3ish years ago, she had gotten heart surgery and what not but the surgeon fucked up somewhere cuz not only did she still feel pain from the surgery, but the bottom part of where they had made the incision never healed causing more problems. It’s been like this ever since she got the heart surgery. On top that, just recently an actual, honest-to-good wire that they had used to keep the ribs together became loose and had started to poke out of the hole that never closed on her chest.

We had been trying to get this fixed for the past 3ish years, yet almost every doctor we talked to didn't want to actually do anything and kept telling us to go to different doctors, plastic surgeons, or back to the original surgeon who did this to begin with. The main problem was that the original surgeon that had done her heart surgery in the first place had retired, the plastic surgeons outright said ‘we can't do anything until you talk to a heart surgeon,’ or another doctor didn't want to touch her in fear of a POSSIBLE lawsuit. ORZ

This was twice as frustrating since the closest hospital that treats this sort of thing is an hour long from our house, and my very easily motion-sick ass didn't help things either.

We had only just now found a doctor who could help take the wires out and clean her wound so it could heal properly and not cause any pain to her. I'm still unbelievably pissed that it took this long for an actual doctor to finally help us instead of sending us off on another wild goose chase that would last for actual months. Thankfully, everything went as planned, the doctor made sure to clean everything up. Right now, she's out of surgery and is catching some much-needed Z’s. We would have gone home today, but her right eye was hurting so badly that we opted to stay at the hospital overnight.

That's what has happened these past few months. Sorry if this post looks like the ramblings of a madman, I haven't had a a decent night of sleep these last couple of days so my vision is a bit blurry. >_<

Not done with editing the video, but the full Silent Hill one video had about 8ish hours worth of stream footage as a whole.

After cutting it all up, that has been shrunken down to about 2-3 hours worth.

Don't know when the vid will be done but at least I managed to get it shorter. My computer thanks me c:

Will be a bit late to the stream!

My computer is giving me so much sass today! >:T

Character Info: Blue Ghost

I think it's time to finally sit down and give out info about one of the main characters: Blue Ghost. :>

Info under read more.

Basic Backstory Info:

She grew up in a farmer/hunter family who all practiced witchcraft. She has an older sister, and two younger siblings, a boy and a girl.

She died during the first wave of Witch Hunts in Germany when she was 21.

She had been infected by the (then) unknown illness, the Flesh Disease, which amplified her rage at the injustice of the Witch Hunts.

Upon death, her body was controlled by the illness while her soul was trapped within it.

She was saved years later by two witches and an ancient dragon.

Her soul was transferred to a doll's body before she could turn into a vengeful spirit.

Her rage and the illness' influence were held back by the draconic runes the ancient dragon placed on the doll's body.

She then traveled and lived with the two witches that saved her.

Over the centuries, she tries to learn about where the illness came from and how it could even spread.

She finds out that there is a cult that worships the Old God that is causing the illness to begin with and that the cult is making the illness spread faster.

She finds out that she is one of the 'chosen apostles,' the Apostle of Wrath.

Of course, she stops the cult with the help of her other fellow witches and non-humans.

The old god is doing damage to the Earth, so she decides to use her personal magic to merge with the Old God to stop it for good.

She awakens from the cacoon 9 years later, fully merged with the Old God.

Physical Info:

Birthday: March 20, 1604

Death: November 10th, 1625

Age: 400+ years old

Alive Info:

Weight: 160 lb (72.57 kg)

Hair color: Dark Brown

Eye color: Gray

Doll Info:

Weight: Depending on the era. Her doll body has gone through modifications over the years that could cause her to be heavy or light.

Hair color: Black with hints of dark gray.

Eye color: No iris', blank milky white.

Scars/distinguishing marks: Black and white Draconic Runes that cover her entire doll body. Scar around her neck.

Abilities Info:

Magic:

All witches can learn all types of magic, but they all have one specific kind of magic that they get and truly master when they first unlock their magic. This is why titles are important.

Blue's personal magic is "Metamorphosis." This allows her to have anything go through a major 'transformation.' This can be both a metaphorical and a literal transformation.

She also has her sister's personal magic, "Crystallization." This is the ability to create any form/type of crystal in an instant and control it (ie making them float or even using them to lift something up). She obtained this after her death and consumed her sister's bones.

She has a large axe as well that she made longer using Crystallization:

Other abilities:

Even though she is technically a ghost, because of the Flesh Disease's threat, she cannot use the basic ghost abilities (fly, go through objects, possession, etc.) as she cannot leave her doll body.

Yet because of the Flesh Disease amplifying her hatred, she can go into a berserker-like state if necessary, allowing her to attack harder while at the cost of not being able to fully control where her hits land (and who her hits are aimed at).

After merging with the Old God, Ugogthanoth, she is no longer a ghost, but a creature that looks like a merge between a doll/human's body, black ink-like tentacles, and a butterfly. Because of this, she has three different forms: Her human form, her Apostle form, and her Old God form.

Her human form is just her normal doll look, while her Apostle form looks more like this: Apostle of Wrath (Blinded by Wrath)

Apostle of Wrath (Wrath Controlled)

While her Old God form is bigger than a planet and looks more like this:

Despite all of this, she stays within her doll body for her human form, but she can use her black tentacles by having them 'leak out' of her doll joints.

Weaknesses: If her doll body takes too much damage, she will be forced to shut her body down, causing her to lose focus quickly and not be able to use magic effectively. Not only that, but sand, snow, and water can all leak into the doll body, causing Blue to either sink and get heavy or have her joints freeze up and she will require maintenance.

Relationships:

Family: Her mother and father, Walburga Bauer (older sister), Ursula and Wilhelm Bauer (younger fraternal twins), and her butterfly familars.

Friends: Her closest friends are Mercutio Ferron (Witch of Fire), Zephyr (Witch of Gravity), and Knowledge Seeker (Ancient Dragon).

Acquaintances: The other group of witches that are investigating the Flesh Disease.

Enemies: The Wild Hunt. They are a large group of human hunters that hunt and kill witches and non-humans as they deem them all a threat to humanity.

That's all of the info on her for now. If I need to add anything else I will do so in the future. <3

Gonna be a wee bit late to the stream! Computer got updates but the damn thing is stuck on 100% installation :|

But we shall continue with our Twisted Wonderland watch party with book 4 so get y'alls snacks!

I need to post more on here lmao One of these days I will be stable enough to stream again, I wanna replay Goetia so badly. The music just keeps dragging me back in man, it is so melancholic and so good T0T Plus, I never finished it on stream, oops ''>w> Maybe I'll post stuff about the character's in Blue's story as well so people can know I'm still here lol I wanna show some off, like her close friends and Knowledge Seeker, but I still need to finalize their designs. orz I had just recently re-wrote one of their backgrounds so we'll see who shows up first lol