He Thought Gojo Would Stop Him :

He Still Drinks Tea Like She’s Watching :

Levi drinks his tea like Kuchel is watching.

Like someone, somewhere, will be disappointed if he rushes it. If he forgets to do it right. The first time you notice it, you think it’s just another one of his quirks—like the way he folds his cravat with military precision or the way he flicks his wrist when cleaning blood off his blade, like it’s not even worth a second thought.

But then you realize it’s something else entirely. A ritual. A quiet, fragile thing, stubbornly existing in a world that never stops breaking.

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You don’t ask him about it. Not at first. You just watch.

He boils the water himself. Even though there are lower-ranked soldiers who could do it, even though he has more important things to do. He lets it sit for exactly the right amount of time before pouring, never a second more, never a second less. And when he drinks it, it’s with the kind of patience he never seems to have for anything else. Like it’s the only thing keeping him tethered to the present moment.

It isn’t until months later, when you find yourself in his quarters during another sleepless night, that you finally ask.

“Do you actually like tea, or is this just another one of your obsessive habits?”

He doesn’t look up from his cup. Just takes a slow sip, the steam curling against his face like something alive. “Tch. What kind of stupid question is that?”

You shrug. “You treat it like a religion.”

A beat of silence. He sets the cup down carefully, like it’s something breakable. When he finally speaks, his voice is quieter than you expect. “It’s not about the tea.”

You should have known that already. With Levi, nothing is ever about what it seems.

You don’t press him, but after that, you start drinking tea with him. Sometimes you talk. Sometimes you don’t. But there’s a kind of understanding in the silence, in the way the both of you sit there, letting the world exist around you without demanding anything in return.

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One night, after a long mission that left more bodies than survivors, you’re sitting across from him when he finally says it.

“My mother used to drink tea.”

You almost miss it. The words are quiet, as if they might disintegrate if he speaks them too loudly. You wait, letting him decide if he wants to continue. He does.

“She never had much, but she’d always make time for it. Said it made her feel… I don’t know. Like a person.”

You think of the stories you’ve heard. The brothels, the underground, the kind of life that doesn’t allow softness. And yet, she had this. A small rebellion against the world, steeped in hot water and patience.

Levi exhales sharply, like he hates that he’s saying any of this. “It’s stupid.”

“It’s not,” you say immediately, because it isn’t. And he must know that, somewhere deep down, or he wouldn’t be holding onto it so tightly.

He doesn’t say anything, but he pours you another cup. You take it, letting the warmth seep into your fingers.

In the months that follow, you start noticing it more. The way Levi treats the ritual with the same respect he gives to his blades. The way his hands are always steady, no matter how many deaths he’s carried that day.

The way he closes his eyes after the first sip, like he’s remembering something he refuses to forget.

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One night, when the weight of existence feels unbearable, you find yourself saying, “Tell me about her.”

Levi doesn’t look at you, but something in his posture shifts. “She was too good for this world.”

You nod.

Wait.

“She had this way of looking at people. Like she already knew how much they were going to hurt her, but she still wanted to see the best in them.” A humorless chuckle. “Fucking Foolish.”

“Sounds familiar.”

He shoots you a look, but you just sip your tea, unbothered. He doesn’t argue.

There’s a long pause, and then, softer,“ She deserved more."

You wonder if he means himself, if he thinks he wasn’t enough. You wonder how long he’s been carrying that with him, how many times he’s tried to outrun the ghost of a woman who gave him everything and got nothing in return.

You set your cup down, leaning forward slightly. “She’d be proud of you, you know.”

He tenses. Like he wants to reject the thought outright. Like he can’t allow himself to believe it. But he doesn’t tell you you’re wrong.

The tea cools between you, but neither of you move. The world outside keeps turning, keeps bleeding, keeps taking. But in this moment, at least, Levi lets himself exist in the quiet. Lets himself have this.

Like Kuchel is watching.

Like she never really left.

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Greetings, Dreamers and Readers 🌸✨

I’ve always found comfort in the smallest things, much like Levi does with his tea. For me, it’s the little tokens from my mother. I still use her hair clutch sometimes—it's not just an accessory, it’s a way to feel close to her again. I also keep her old metal pocket makeup mirror, not just because it’s practical, but because when I look into it, I see her, looking back at me through the reflection. It’s almost as if she’s still here, in the way I inherited my face from her, in the way her eyes shine through mine.

I think that’s the beauty of Levi’s ritual. It's not just about the tea, it’s about finding a way to keep the ones we’ve lost alive within us, through the smallest, most personal acts. I hope you feel that same quiet comfort in reading this, like you can find a moment of peace amidst the chaos, even if just for a little while.

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If any of you have had experiences with loved ones who’ve passed, I’d love for this space to be a safe haven. Sometimes it’s hard to speak the words aloud, but here, you can share them without judgment. Let’s make the comments a place where we can remember, heal, and connect. You’re never alone in this.

✨ Bye and take care, Hope you all have a good day ✨

“I Could Fight God” Energy

Gojo Satoru would fight a god.

Not out of spite. Not for revenge. Not because he had something to prove.

He’d do it because if something stronger than him existed, he’d have no choice but to challenge it. Not for the thrill—though he’d pretend that’s all it was. Not for the spectacle—though he’d make sure it was a damn good show. No, he’d fight because if there was something out there more powerful than him, then maybe—just maybe—he wasn't alone.

And that would be a relief, wouldn’t it?

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You don’t think about it much at first, not until one night when the two of you are stretched out beneath the stars, watching the world spin on without you.

“If you met a god,” you murmur, voice barely above a whisper, “what would you do?”

Gojo doesn’t even pause. “Kick their ass.”

You huff a laugh, half-asleep. “That’s sacrilegious.”

“Nah,” he says, grinning. “Sacrilegious is letting them think they’re untouchable.”

You turn to him, raising a brow. “What makes you think they aren’t?”

And that’s when you see it—just for a second. The way something flickers behind his glasses, sharp and searching. The way he tilts his head, considering, before he says, “What even is a god?”

“A god.” He gestures vaguely. “What does that even mean? Something more powerful than us? Something beyond human understanding?”

You nod. “Pretty much.”

He hums, closing his eyes like he’s weighing the thought in his mind. “So what’s the difference between them and me?”

And that—that—makes you stop.

Because the thing is, Gojo is untouchable.

You blink. “What?”

Because the thing is, Gojo is untouchable. He is unknowable. He walks through the world like it was made for him, like nothing could ever truly reach him, and most of the time—nothing does.

When Gojo Satoru moves, the universe rearranges itself to accommodate him.

It’s not arrogance. It’s not even confidence. It’s just fact.

And that’s terrifying.

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“You’re not a god,” you tell him, but the words feel weak the moment they leave your mouth.

“Maybe not,” he says easily.“But what if I was?”

You shiver. Not because of the question itself, but because you don’t know what would be worse:

A world where Gojo Satoru was a god, or a world where he wasn’t.

Because if he was, then everything was exactly as it should be. The balance of power, the way the world turned, the weight he carried alone—all of it was simply the natural order of things.

But if he wasn’t—if he was just a man, just another human among billions—then all of it was unfair.

Then the weight was too heavy. The world was too cruel. The burden he carried was never meant for one person, and yet, he had been given it anyway.

You think, that’s why he’d fight a god.

Not to prove his strength. Not to claim some divine throne.

But to look them in the eye and demand to know why.

Why him?

Why this life?

Why was he born into a world that could never hold him, onto a path he could never stray from, into a role that would only ever leave him alone at the end of it?

“Would you win?” you ask, voice softer now.

Gojo exhales, stretching his arms behind his head. “Dunno,” he says. “Guess there’s only one way to find out.”

But he’s lying.

Because he already knows the answer.

Because he’s been fighting gods his whole life. The gods of fate, of destiny, of inevitability. The gods who decide who lives and who dies, who gets to stay and who gets ripped away. The gods who made him the strongest, and then cursed him to bear that title alone.

And the worst part?

He’s been winning.

Every. Single. Time.

You watch him, the way he stares up at the sky, expression unreadable, like he’s waiting for something. A sign. A challenge. A reason.

“Satoru,” you say, barely above a whisper.

He turns his head toward you, a slow, lazy motion, and grins. “Yeah?”

You want to say something. Want to tell him that he doesn’t have to fight anymore, that he doesn’t have to keep proving himself, that you see him, even if the rest of the world never will.

But you don’t.

Because you know he wouldn’t believe you.

So instead, you shift closer, just enough for your shoulder to brush his, just enough to remind him that he isn’t as untouchable as he thinks.

And for the first time that night, he stops looking for a god to fight.

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Greetings, Dreamers and Readers 🌸✨

Okay, listen. I know how scandalous and borderline blasphemous this sounds, but honestly? If Gojo Satoru ever met a god, I genuinely think he’d try to throw hands. Not out of arrogance (okay, maybe a little), but because, deep down, he’s got questions. Real, human, aching questions. The kind that keep you up at night, staring at the ceiling, wondering why you exist the way you do.

Like—why him? Why this? Why was he born so strong that he can’t ever live normally? And if there is some all-powerful being pulling the strings, how does he get up there and demand some damn answers?

Honestly, imagine being so powerful that you could challenge the gods themselves. That’s some Greek mythology-level tragedy right there. Like, Gojo is basically Achilles if Achilles had Infinity and trauma instead of a weak ankle.

Anyway, what’s your take on this? Would Gojo actually win, or would he finally meet something bigger than him? Drop your thoughts in the comments—I’m way too invested in this theory now.

✨ Bye and take care, Hope you all have a good day ✨

The Things He Never Forgets

Sukuna does not remember the faces of the men he has killed.

They blur together, indistinct, insignificant. A thousand screams, a thousand lives, all reduced to echoes lost in time.

He does not remember the first time he tasted blood.

Only that it was warm. Only that it tasted like power.

He does not remember the last time he spoke without cruelty.

Perhaps he never did.

Perhaps he was born sharp-edged, made only to take, to destroy, to rule.

And yet—

Sometimes, something shifts.

Something rises unbidden, uncalled for, unwanted.

A scent, a sound, a fleeting phrase spoken without thought.

And suddenly, he is somewhere else.

Suddenly, he is something else.

Something before.

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It happens on an evening like any other.

The fire is low. The air is thick with the scent of whatever you’re cooking, something simple, something forgettable. He is not paying attention. He does not need to.

Until you hum.

A tune, quiet, absentminded. A fragment of something old, something small.

And the world lurches.

Because he knows it.

Not the song itself, but the shape of it, the feeling of it. The way it pulls at something he does not remember storing away.

The air changes.

Sukuna does not move. He does not react. But his fingers twitch, curling just slightly where they rest.

It is nothing.

It is nothing.

Except—

His mind betrays him.

A flicker. A glimpse. A place he does not recognize, a life that is not his.

Or perhaps it was.

Once.

Long ago.

Before he became a god. Before he became a curse. Before his name was spoken in fear and reverence and hatred alike.

He does not remember.

And yet his body does.

The way his shoulders tense, the way his breath slows. The way he knows that if he reached out now—if he closed his eyes, if he listened just a little longer—

Something would come back.

And he is not sure he wants that.

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"Why did you stop?"

Your voice snaps him back.

He blinks, sharp and immediate, as if tearing himself free from something he does not want to acknowledge.

"You were humming," he says, and his voice is too even. Too careful.

You tilt your head. "Did it bother you?"

He scoffs, the sound rough. "Hardly."

A lie.

Because he does not forget things.

Not like this.

Not in ways that matter.

And yet, when he closes his eyes that night, long after the fire has burned down and silence has settled over the room,

The tune lingers.

It settles into the quiet spaces of his mind, the places he does not look too closely at.

And for the first time in centuries,

Sukuna remembers something he never meant to.

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Greetings, Dreamers and Readers ✨🌸

Sukuna having an internal crisis? Maybe. Or maybe I’m just delulu. Who’s to say?

But honestly, music is one of the most human things there is. It lingers. It carries. A song from centuries ago can still be sung today, and I feel like that’s the kind of thing that would get to him. Maybe not in a way he’d ever admit, but in that quiet, unwanted way where he finds himself listening when he doesn’t mean to.

And that line—what is immortality if not a curse? To be left behind when the other part of you is gone?—I swear I’ve read it somewhere before. It sounds like something that should be carved into a tombstone or whispered by some tragic figure who’s lived too long. (If you remember where it’s from, tell me because my brain is blanking.)

But yeah, completely agree with that sentiment. Who the hell wants to live forever? Tom Riddle was as stupid as he was good-looking.

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Anyway, let me know what you think! I’d love to hear your thoughts on this one. Feel free to comment or send ideas—you know I love them.

✨ Bye and take care, hope you all have a good day ✨

The Quiet Kind of Tired :

You meet Nanami Kento on a Tuesday,

which feels exactly right. Tuesdays are the most unremarkable days of the week. Nobody romanticizes a Tuesday. You don’t expect to fall in love on one.

You’re working overtime again, elbows deep in paperwork that means nothing, for people who care even less. He sits across from you in the break room. Neat suit. Tired eyes. He drinks his coffee black, like he’s punishing himself.

You say something cynical. He doesn’t laugh, but the corner of his mouth twitches. That’s how it starts.

No grand gestures.

Just a quiet understanding between two people too tired to pretend they’re okay.

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Dating Nanami is like walking into a room already cleaned.

Everything in its place. Emotion folded tightly into polite responses. He takes you out to dinner every Thursday. He walks you home. He buys you flowers—carnations, not roses. Clean, efficient, not too sentimental.

He doesn’t talk about his past. You don’t ask. You’re both adults. You both understand that talking about certain things doesn’t make them easier.

Still, some nights, when the city is too loud and you’ve had one glass of wine too many, you look at him and think—

I am loving a man who does not know what to do with softness.

And he looks back at you like you’re made of glass he’s trying not to break with his silence.

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You love him anyway. Not because it’s easy. But because he never lies to you. Not in words, at least.

He tells the truth in smaller ways. When he takes the side of the bed closest to the door. When he holds your wrist instead of your hand, like it’s easier to let go that way. When he texts, "I’m sorry, I’ll be late tonight,” and you don’t ask why.

Because you know the answer:

He is always late for himself.

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You don’t realize how tired you’ve become until you stop recognizing your own voice. You speak less. Smile less. You don’t cry—you just compress.

Like your feelings are cargo in a suitcase too small.

Nanami doesn’t notice. Or maybe he does, and he thinks it’s something you need to handle alone. That’s the thing about him—he believes in self-reliance to a fault. As if needing people is something shameful. Something weak.

You once told him you wanted to take care of him.

He said, “That’s not necessary.”

You didn’t offer again.

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The silence grows slowly, like water under a door.

You tell your friends he’s “steady.” You tell yourself it’s enough.

But you start watching couples on the train. Not the loud, annoying kind. The quiet ones. The ones who lean their heads together. The ones who speak without speaking.

And you think—I want to be chosen without hesitation.

With Nanami, you are always chosen… responsibly.

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One night, you come home early from work. He’s already there, standing in the kitchen in a white dress shirt with the sleeves rolled up. He’s slicing something—methodical, perfect. His tie is loosened. His hair slightly messy.

He looks tired. Not in the dramatic, cinematic way. Just… tired in the way people look when they’ve been carrying everything alone for too long.

You drop your bag by the door and say, “You know you can talk to me, right?”

He pauses. Doesn’t turn around.

“I don’t want to burden you,” he says.

There’s no malice in it. No edge.

But God, does it hurt.

You say nothing. Walk to the bathroom. Close the door gently.

You stare at yourself in the mirror and wonder when you started mistaking restraint for kindness.

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You dream of him leaving. Not out of cruelty. But out of quiet, inevitable decay.

You dream of growing old beside him and never once hearing him say, “I need you.”

You wake up gasping.

And when you roll over to look at him, he’s still asleep, face turned away from you, hands folded like he’s praying.

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You don’t break up. Of course not. That would require a climax, and your relationship is built entirely on anti-climax. You just… let it fray.

There’s no cheating. No screaming. Just unspoken questions hanging like fog in the room.

You start eating dinner separately. You stop saying I miss you because he never said it first.

And he—he grows even quieter. Like he knows you’re drifting, and he’s letting you go in the only way he knows how: respectfully.

You wonder if he thinks that’s love.

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One day, he comes home to find you sitting on the floor, reading a book you’ve read before.

He looks at you like he wants to say something. You wait. He doesn’t.

So you say it for him.

“I’m tired, Kento.”

You’re not crying. You’re not shouting.

You’re just stating a fact.

And for the first time, he looks… afraid.

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He sits down beside you. Not too close. But not far.

“I never wanted to make you feel alone,” he says.

His voice is low. Honest.

You nod. “I know. But you did.”

There’s a long silence.

Then—

“I didn’t know how else to be.”

And you believe him.

You love him.

But you also know that love is not enough when it has nowhere to land.

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You don’t leave that night. You fall asleep on the couch, your back to his.

But something shifts. Not fixed. Just acknowledged.

And sometimes, that’s the beginning of something. Sometimes, it’s the end.

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Later—weeks later, maybe months—you’ll walk past a bakery the two of you never went into. And you’ll think about how many moments you both passed up in the name of being sensible.

How many soft things you gave up because he didn’t know what to do with them.

You’ll still love him.

But you’ll also understand: some people were taught that needing is dangerous. That showing pain is failure. That asking for help is weak.

And it is not your job to rewrite that for them.

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In the end, you loved a man who refused to be held.

And that is the quietest kind of heartbreak.

The kind that doesn’t end with a scream.

Just a sigh.

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The First Time He Saw an Office Job, He Thought It Was Freedom :

Nanami Kento thought he understood what freedom was.

It wasn’t some grand concept, not to him. It wasn’t rebellion or escape or even peace. It was something quieter, simpler. It was the absence of exhaustion, the absence of endless blood and death. It was the choice to walk away from a world that took and took and took until there was nothing left.

So when he saw his first office job, he thought—maybe this is it.

Maybe this is what it looks like.

No more curses. No more blood. No more endless nights wondering if tomorrow would be his last. Just a desk, a paycheck, and a life that belonged only to him.

It seemed Clean. Orderly. Safe.

He was wrong, of course.

But at the time, it was the only thing that made sense.

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He never had the illusion that he was a hero.

Gojo could talk about justice, about duty, about responsibility, but Nanami? Nanami knew better. He knew that none of it mattered, that the work they did wasn’t noble or righteous. It was just survival. Just a job that needed to be done.

And he hated it. He hated the way it made him feel, the way it carved pieces out of him. He hated the way his hands never felt clean, no matter how many times he washed them.

But the most of all, he hated was how it was all expected.

How no one ever really questioned it.

How this was just the way things were.

So when he looked at that first office building, at the neatly pressed suits and the fluorescent lights and the steady, predictable rhythm of it all—he thought, This is freedom.

Because wasn’t that what freedom was? The ability to walk away? The ability to choose something else?

He thought so.

For a while, he really did.

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The thing they don’t tell you about freedom is that it’s not the same as peace.

The office was quiet, yes. Predictable, yes. But it was also empty.

There was no blood, no curses, no constant fight for survival. But there was also no meaning. No purpose. Just an endless series of reports and meetings and numbers that meant nothing.

And at first, he told himself that was fine. That this was better. That this was what he chose.

But some nights, he’d wake up gasping, hands clenched, body tense, as if expecting a fight that never came.

Some nights, he’d find himself staring at his reflection in the office bathroom mirror, wondering why he felt like a ghost in his own life.

Some nights, he’d wonder if he had made a mistake.

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The day he walked away from the office was quiet.

No dramatic goodbyes. No second thoughts. Just the simple realization that this wasn’t freedom either. That maybe freedom didn’t exist at all.

But if he had to choose—between an empty life and a painful one—he’d at least choose something that meant something.

And so, he went back.

Back to the blood, the exhaustion, the endless cycle of fighting for a world that would never change.

Because maybe it didn’t matter what he wanted.

Maybe it never did.

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Nanami Kento never believed in freedom. Not really.

But when he died, he thought—at least I chose this.

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Greetings, Dreamers and Readers ✨🌸

My sweet, sad bbg Kento… I love him so much it actually makes me angry. Like, imagine being Nanami Kento. You do everything right. You work hard. You try to be practical. You just want a simple, decent life. And what does the world give you in return? Absolutely nothing. No peace, no freedom, not even the illusion of rest. He carried all that weight, all that exhaustion, and for what? For a world that chewed him up and spat him out like he was nothing.

To the people who hate Nanami… meet me in the parking lot. We gotta fight. Right now.

Honestly, I’ll probably write an AU one-shot where he actually gets to retire in Malaysia, eating all the good food his heart desires, because he deserves that. I don’t care what canon says. My man should have been sipping on some tropical drink, watching the sunset, alive.

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Anyway, hope you liked the one-shot! Feel free to comment and share your thoughts—I’d love for some Nanami worshipers to come together and mourn this man properly.

✨ Bye and take care, Hope you all have a good day ✨

—Nothing Special—

Nanami doesn’t believe in doing things halfway. Not work, not fights, and certainly not meals.

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It’s something you notice early on, the way he approaches cooking with the same quiet precision he applies to everything else. No shortcuts, no half-hearted attempts. Just careful, deliberate movements—measuring, chopping, stirring, tasting. He doesn’t rush anything, and there’s something almost meditative about the way he works. Like cooking is one of the few things in this world that make sense.

And yet, every time he sets down a plate in front of you, he shrugs it off with a casual, “It’s nothing special.”

Which is, frankly, insane.

Because Nanami’s cooking isn’t just good—it’s absurdly, unfairly good. The kind of good that makes you reconsider every meal you’ve ever had before. It’s balanced and flavorful and just indulgent enough to make you wonder if he missed his true calling.

He didn’t, of course. Because as much as you hate to admit it, he is a good sorcerer.-Even if you’d much rather see him somewhere else, somewhere safer. Somewhere with a kitchen instead of a battlefield.

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“You know, most people don’t just whip up a three-course meal on a random weeknight,” you tell him once, staring down at the plate he’s just set in front of you. “This is not ‘nothing special.’”

Nanami exhales through his nose, unamused. “It’s just a simple meal.”

“Nanami, there’s saffron in this.”

He barely reacts. “I had some left over.”

“Of course you did."

It’s a pattern, this quiet form of care he offers. He doesn’t say much about it, doesn’t expect praise or gratitude. But you see it in the way he portions out the food, always making sure your plate is full before serving himself. In the way he adjusts the spice level just enough to match your tastes. In the way he always, always makes sure there’s something comforting on the table after a particularly rough day.

You don’t always call him out on it. Sometimes, you just let it happen—this wordless, steady kind of love that he insists isn’t anything grand.

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But one night, after a long, exhausting day, you sit down at the table, take one bite of his cooking, and blurt out, “I think you love me more than I love you.”

Nanami pauses, chopsticks halfway to his mouth. Raises a brow.

You gesture at the food. “This is ridiculous. This is devotion. And I—what? I just show up? I sit here and receive all this?” You shake your head, overwhelmed. “It’s embarrassing, honestly. I need to step up my game.”

For a second, he just looks at you, unreadable as ever. Then, very quietly, he says, “You do more than you realize.”

And maybe it’s the exhaustion talking, or maybe it’s just the way he says it—calm, certain, like an undeniable fact—but you find yourself falling silent. Because when Nanami says something like that, you believe him.

The rest of the meal is quiet. Easy. And when you finish, setting your chopsticks down with a sigh, Nanami gives you a look and says, “So? How was it?”

You meet his eyes, dead serious. “Nothing special.”

The corner of his mouth twitches, just barely. But he doesn’t argue.

He just gets up, takes your plate, and starts cleaning up.

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Greetings, Dreamers and Readers ✨🌸

You know, I’ve been thinking—maybe cooking is a love language. My younger Bhai (cousin brother), for example, is an absolute menace most of the time (as younger siblings tend to be lol)

But when he’s in the kitchen, he always makes something for me too. Not in an overly sweet, “look how much I care” kind of way—more like a casual, “I was already making food, so here, take this” way. No big declarations, no dramatic gestures, just... an unspoken understanding.

Which, honestly, is kind of unfair. Because while I can barely cook to save my life, this little brat could probably become a chef if he wanted to. 😭✋

Meanwhile, I struggle to flip a half fry egg without cracking its yolk. Life is cruel like that. 🗿

But anyway—maybe food is one of those quiet ways people show love. No grand speeches, no poetic confessions—just a plate of something warm, made with care, set in front of you without a word. Feels very Nanami-coded, doesn’t it? lol

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What about you guys? Do you express love through cooking? Or does someone do that for you? Let me know—I’d love to hear your stories! 🎀

The Strongest Man and His War with Sleep :

Sleep is a mercy he cannot afford.

Gojo Satoru has never been good at resting.

It’s not just about the nightmares—the ones that creep in like thieves, whispering names of the dead in his ears. It’s not just about the fear—that if he lets go, if he closes his eyes for too long, the world will crumble without him watching.

No, it’s deeper than that.

Sleep is vulnerability. And vulnerability is something the strongest man alive is not allowed.

So he doesn’t sleep. Not properly. Not often.

Instead, he runs himself ragged, burns his energy down to the wick, pretends exhaustion is something that only happens to other people. He hides behind laughter, behind endless motion, behind the overwhelming force of his own presence.

Because to stop—to be still—means to listen to his own thoughts.

And there is nothing more terrifying than that.

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You notice it, of course.

The way he’s always moving, always talking, always shifting from one thing to the next like silence might swallow him whole. The way he rubs at his temples when he thinks no one is looking. The way he leans against doorframes just a little too long, like standing upright is a battle he’s barely winning.

"You don’t sleep, do you?" you ask one night, watching him sprawl out on your couch like he owns it.

He grins, too wide, too easy. "Who needs sleep when you’ve got these?" He gestures vaguely at his eyes, like the sheer force of his existence makes him immune to basic human needs.

You roll your eyes. "That’s not how bodies work, Satoru."

He shrugs, lazy, dramatic. "Maybe yours."

You don’t press the issue. Not yet.

But you see the way his hands still for a fraction of a second. The way his smile flickers, just briefly, like a neon sign struggling to stay lit.

And you know.

You know that beneath all that brightness, beneath the godlike arrogance and the infuriating charm, there is a man running on borrowed time.

A man who is tired.

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When Gojo does sleep, it’s not gentle.

It’s not peaceful, like in movies, where lovers rest entangled in soft sheets and morning light. It’s not slow and dreamy, where sleep comes like a lover’s touch, warm and welcome.

No.

When Gojo Satoru sleeps, it’s like something in him collapses.

Like a puppet with cut strings. Like a body giving out after carrying too much for too long.

It doesn’t happen often—not really. But when it does, it’s as if his body is making up for years of neglect in one go. He sleeps like the dead.

No amount of shaking, nudging, or even yelling will wake him. You’ve tried. Once, you even held a mirror under his nose to make sure he was still breathing.

(He was. But it was unnerving, seeing him so still.)

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"You should go to bed," you tell him one night, watching as he leans against the counter, eyes half-lidded.

He smirks. "What, you worried about me?"

You don’t bother answering. Instead, you grab his wrist, tugging him toward the bedroom.

"I don’t need—"

"Shut up, Satoru."

Surprisingly, he does.

He lets you drag him, lets you push him onto the bed, lets you pull the covers over him like he’s something fragile, something worth protecting.

And when you card your fingers through his hair—slow, soothing, like a lullaby made of touch—he doesn’t protest.

His breath evens out. His body melts against the mattress. And before you can even make a joke about it, he’s gone.

Fast asleep.

Completely, utterly, unmovable.

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Gojo Satoru, the strongest man alive, is impossible to wake up.

You learn this the hard way.

You try shaking him—nothing.

You try calling his name—still nothing.

You even flick his forehead, the way he does to others—but he doesn’t so much as twitch.

It’s honestly a little terrifying.

It’s like he trusts you enough to completely let go.

Like, in this moment, in this space, he believes—just for a little while—that he is safe.

And that realization sits heavy in your chest.

Because Gojo Satoru is not a man who allows himself to feel safe.

Not with the weight of the world on his shoulders.

Not with the ghosts of the past clawing at his heels.

Not with the knowledge that the moment he closes his eyes, something else might be taken from him.

But here, now, with you—he sleeps.

And that means something.

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In the morning, when he finally stirs, stretching like a cat in the sun, he blinks at you blearily.

"You let me sleep," he murmurs, voice thick with something you don’t quite recognize.

You hum, tracing lazy patterns on his wrist. "You needed it."

A pause.

Then, a quiet chuckle. "You didn’t try to wake me, did you?"

You don’t answer.

Because if you admit how hard you tried—how impossible it was—you might have to admit what that means.

Might have to admit that Gojo Satoru, for all his power, is still just a person.

A person who gets tired.

A person who needs rest.

A person who, in the end, just wants to lay down his burdens—if only for a little while.

And somehow, impossibly, he’s chosen to do that with you.

So instead, you smirk, flicking his forehead in revenge.

"Don’t get used to it, Satoru."

His laughter is bright, easy, filling the room like morning light.

But when he pulls you close again, burying his face in your shoulder, you think—maybe, just maybe—he already has.

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The Tragedy of Gojo Satoru:

( Being the Strongest Means Dying Alone)

They call him the strongest. As if it’s a blessing. As if it’s anything more than a curse dressed in praise.

Gojo Satoru walks through Jujutsu Kaisen like a myth that got stuck in a man’s body. Limitless, Six Eyes, a bloodline older than reason. He’s the kind of person stories exaggerate—only, with him, there’s no need to exaggerate. He is the exaggeration. Power personified.

But there’s something no one tells you about being a god.

It’s cold up there.

And nobody stays.

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The Cage That Shines Like Heaven :

There’s an irony in Gojo’s existence that the story never says out loud but bleeds through every panel he appears in: he’s not just the strongest sorcerer—he’s the most trapped.

He can do anything. He can beat anyone.

He just can’t save everyone.

He couldn’t save Geto.

He couldn’t save Riko.

He couldn’t save himself.

And that’s the thing, isn’t it? When you’re the strongest, everyone assumes you’re fine. That you don’t need help. That nothing touches you. That you’re floating above it all, untouchable.

But Gojo is not floating. He’s sinking.

Under expectations.

Under grief.

Under the knowledge that he could destroy the world in a heartbeat, and yet—somehow, he still wasn’t enough to save the one person who asked him to choose love over duty.

Satoru walks around smiling like a boy who never grew up, like the world still has color in it, like he doesn’t hear the echo of Suguru's voice saying “You’re the only one who ever understood me.”

He understood. And he let him fall anyway.

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Power As Exile :

Power isolates. That’s something people like to romanticize in stories—“with great power comes great responsibility” and all that. But they never talk about the quiet horror of it. The silence.

Gojo is revered. Worshipped. The entire jujutsu society depends on him the way a city depends on electricity: blindly, constantly, without gratitude.

But nobody really knows him.

They know his strength.

They know his sarcasm.

They know the way he walks into a battlefield like God just clocked in for work.

But not his grief. Not his loneliness. Not the way he stands in that empty white cube (the Prison Realm) for nineteen days with only the sound of his own thoughts—his own regrets—for company.

You realize something, watching him. Being strong doesn’t make you invincible.

It just makes it harder for people to admit you’re in pain.

And Gojo is in so much pain.

But who would believe that?

The strongest sorcerer in the world?

The man who can rewrite physics?

Cry?

(That’s the tragedy. People only want Gojo to be strong. Not human.)

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Suguru Geto And The Ghost That Never Left :

All great tragedies have a ghost. Gojo’s is Geto.

They were twin stars. Heaven and earth. The two most powerful jujutsu sorcerers of their generation. But while Gojo kept choosing the world, Geto stopped pretending he could live in it.

Geto fell. And Gojo let him.

Not because he didn’t care. But because he believed in the system more than he believed in the ache between them. He believed power could fix things. Could save them. Could protect the next Riko.

He was wrong.

(Geto’s death wasn’t just a loss. It was a mirror shattering. The first real crack in Gojo’s limitless reality.)

And when they meet again—Geto’s body desecrated, taken over by a puppet with a smile like a scalpel—Gojo doesn’t fight. He reaches out. Gently. Like he’s touching the ghost of a future that could’ve been.

And what does he say?

*“At least… curse me a little at the end.”*

That line. That line.

The way it aches. The way it strips him bare.

Gojo doesn’t ask to be forgiven.

He asks to be hated. Because even now, he can’t forgive himself.

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The Empty Center :

For all his power, Gojo Satoru is a man without a center.

He has students. He has duty. He has power enough to rewrite reality. But he has no home. No constant. No love that stayed.

He’s funny, flirty, dramatic. He fills every room with light and noise. But all of it—all of it—is scaffolding. A mask. A distraction.

Because once the battle is over, the students are asleep, and the world is quiet—he has nothing.

(Nothing but a memory of a friend who walked away and a world he promised to protect, even as it devoured everything he loved.)

And maybe that’s why he’s always smiling. Because if he doesn’t laugh, he might shatter.

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The Irony Of Salvation :

Gojo believes he can save everyone. He wants to. He trains his students with real care, not because he loves the system—but because he wants to break it. Fix it. Undo the rot from the inside out.

But the system he wants to destroy?

It’s the same one that made him.

And the thing about systems like that? They don’t let you win.

Not without bleeding.

Gojo isn’t a hero. He’s a consequence. A byproduct of everything the jujutsu society created and condemned. They made him a weapon. They crowned him king. And now they expect him to keep smiling while the whole kingdom burns.

He is the cage and the prisoner. The God and the Sacrifice.

And when he finally dies—if he dies—it won’t be in glory. It will be in silence.

(A myth swallowed by the machine that birthed him.)

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And Still. And Still. And Still—

And still, he smiles.

And still, he teaches.

And still, he hopes.

Because Gojo Satoru, for all his sorrow, believes. In people. In his students. In a world where things can be better.

And maybe that’s what hurts the most.

That the strongest man in the world is still just a boy who wanted to protect his friends. Who believed he could carry everything if it meant no one else had to suffer.

But no one can carry that much alone.

Not even Gojo.

Especially not Gojo Satoru.

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They’ll say he was the strongest.

They’ll say he was untouchable.

They’ll put his name in textbooks, his techniques in archives.

But no one will say:

He was tired.

He was lonely.

He was trying, God, he was trying.

That’s the real tragedy of Gojo Satoru.

Not that he died alone.

But that he lived that way, too.

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Greetings, Dreamers and Readers ✨🌸

this one took a weird kind of toll on me.

not in a dramatic way, just… quietly exhausting, yk? like i sat down to write about gojo and somewhere in the middle i realized i wasn’t just writing about him.

i think the thing that gets me is—everyone calls him a god. The Strongest. The Honored One. The Chosen. Yet… the people closest to him still die. Still slip through his fingers like he wasn’t even holding them.

and i can’t help but wonder how many times gojo's thought, “am i really a god?” or worse—“if i’m not, then why would god make me like this?”

no mortal should ever be handed this kind of power and still be expected to carry that much grief.

to smile like it’s fine. to protect everyone except the ones that matter most.

it’s almost cruel, honestly.

like he’s not god’s favorite child—he’s god’s favorite toy.

anyway. that’s where my brain’s been lately.

not to be that person but yeah, school’s started and life’s been kind of heavy so maybe this meta feels a little different. more tired. a little sharper around the edges.

still, i’d really love to hear your thoughts. if it resonated or if you felt anything while reading it.

i write because i love these characters—because i want to understand them, not just worship them.

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so yeah. feel free to drop a comment or scream with me in the tags.

✨ Bye and take care, hope you all have a good day ✨

: The Language Of Flowers :

"People trust what is beautiful, what is soft. But flowers can poison, too." – Lily Calloway

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"When I was little, my mother told me that good girls are loved, and bad girls are left behind. But I watched the world, and I learned—good girls get nothing. Smart girls take everything."

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Tucked away in the heart of Birmingham, Calloway’s Garden is a charming little shop where the air is thick with the scent of lilies, violets, and roses. People walk in for fresh-cut flowers, never questioning why some bouquets come wrapped in whispers and secrets. A flower shop is a good place for business—the real kind. The kind no one talks about.

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"She’s a liar, but a useful one." – Thomas Shelby

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Lily Calloway is not the woman people think she is. A social butterfly, warm and disarming, she knows exactly what to say to make people lean in, listen, trust. But beneath the charm is a mind that sees, calculates, and survives. She’s not cruel—cruelty is too messy, too blunt. She prefers subtlety, making people think they’re in control when she’s already three steps ahead.

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Theo Carter : He was her brother’s best friend. Now he’s hers. He came back from the war when Charles didn’t, and she doesn’t know if she keeps him close out of loyalty or something heavier.

Janifer Smith : Her partner-in-crime, her best friend, and sometimes the devil on her shoulder. They are two sides of the same coin—one soft-spoken, the other bold, but both dangerous in their own way.

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Tommy Shelby?— She respects him, and he sees potential in her. But she knows what men like him do to people who get too close. And Lily Calloway? She wasn’t made to be anyone’s pawn.

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Writer’s Note:

So, this is my first-ever OC, and honestly? I have no idea what I’m doing, but we’re rolling with it. Lily Calloway has been living in my head rent-free for weeks, so it’s about time I let her loose into the world. She’s manipulative but not cruel, charming but not harmless, and definitely not the kind of woman you want to underestimate.

I’ll probably be dropping the first chapter in 2-3 days (if I don’t get distracted by life ). I have the whole story outlined—25 chapters, slow-burn, morally grey choices, and a whole lot of drama. So, if you’re into that, stick around.

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Also, I’d love to hear your thoughts on Lily! Is she giving femme fatale or just a girl trying to survive in a man’s world? Maybe both. We’ll see.

✨ Bye and take care, Hope you all have a good day ✨