Vent

Vent

I find it funny how throughout the 4 years of depression(idc if it's severe at this point), I have not killed myself yet. I've been called a devil, satan, greedy bastard, little shit, filly pig and more, was constantly being compared to my 12 year old cousin, been hit multiple times for forgetting to do my homework(they used a shoe or a thick wooden spoon), forgotten at some point and not once have I decided "Fuck this, bye world".

I literally got bitch slapped right in front of my classroom by my grandmother, some students were laughing at me and giving me nasty looks but I did decide to jump of the buildings?! If it wasn't for my friend, I would have been long gone.

Vent

I'm very much aware that someone is going through something worse that my situation but I just needed to write/type out my feelings

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1 year ago

So in my Checkpoint AU, Mesa is not referred to/known as "Mesa", he's referred to/known as "The Ancient". Odd villain name [I know] but hey, who cares? Nobody knows how he looks like

Only Steve and the Cosmic Princess know his real name and appearance.

But why only Steve and the Cosmic Princess? Why not Austin or Billy? Maybe Chris?!

Well… if Austin where to find out, they would have told everyone

AUSTIN: HEY EVERYONE! The Ancient's name is Me…

STEVE: MADE UP! Thanks Austin for telling us this information!

AUSTIN: But I wasn't gonna say that…

STEVE: Yes you were, now please leave and go play with Jellybean.

AUSTIN: Okay!

If Billy where to find out, he would threaten him, e.g:

BILLY: If you don't do [insert whatever], I'll tell the whole world your identity!

MESA: Why the hell is an 10 year old doing in DMs? Aren't you too young for Instagram?!

BILLY: Uhh…

If Chris where to find out… well, it would be bad is just that due to Mesa's physical appearance [My AU! Remember!]… He'll try and be "Mr. Smarty Pants" and explain why he looks like that.

CHRIS: The reason why his/her/whatever they are has black and white hair is because of Poliosis! The lack of pigment in his/hers/theirs hair turned it white, 50/50 of his hair lacks colour, that's why it's white! It's completely harmless though…

STEVE: (interrupting Chris) Chris… my wonderful boyfriend… can you shut up please🥺. My boyfriend is very self-aware about his condition and if he where to hear you comment about his hair, he'll dye it all black and I don't want that. Please stop your yapping session ^w^.

CHRIS: Well okay and… what do you mean "boyfriend"?!

STEVE: I'll discuss it later…

So you can imagine…


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11 months ago

I CHANGED MESA'S DESIGN!!

I absolutely hated and despised his old design so I changed it.

I CHANGED MESA'S DESIGN!!

Honestly better if you ask me.


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8 months ago

My first time using Clip Studio Paint

My First Time Using Clip Studio Paint

I suck at drawing on Clip Studio Paint, I'm going back to Ibis Paint X

My First Time Using Clip Studio Paint

Also, irl me (oh god, I never realised I was this ugly)


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1 year ago
kudocat - Sleep Deprived Retard [✖TOMMIE✖]

It is 10:02 pm where I live which means and this is where the status of the petition on Change.org is at. There is less than 48 hours left until KOSA is introduced to Congress. So please for the love of God sign the petition! Tell your local Congressmen and Senator to vote no on this bil!

Sign the Petition
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STOP THE KOSA
7 months ago
kudocat - Sleep Deprived Retard [✖TOMMIE✖]
3 months ago

which one of u was going to tell me that tea tastes different if u put it in hot water?

4 months ago

*SLOWLY BACKS UP*

*SLOWLY BACKS UP*
....

....

@kudocat I know this is you...

1 year ago

🔪

I'll get killed?!

That mf who killed me is gonna get haunted

your 12th emoji is how you'll die

☕️

8 months ago

If you're not pregnant...

@artist-des3ns1ty IS PREGNANT?!

OMG

:0

Your fifth most recent emoji is what your soulmate thinks about you

1 year ago

I even took the time to edit their heights

I Even Took The Time To Edit Their Heights
I Even Took The Time To Edit Their Heights
I Even Took The Time To Edit Their Heights
I Even Took The Time To Edit Their Heights
I Even Took The Time To Edit Their Heights
I Even Took The Time To Edit Their Heights
I Even Took The Time To Edit Their Heights

I'm currently drawing The Cosmic Princess, Rocco, Mr. Peterson and more.

(Yes, I bothered to draw my AU Mesa in the Checkpoint art style.)

I think I might post it on #fan art

So if my Checkpoint AU, Mesa is not referred to/known as "Mesa", he's referred to/known as "The Ancient". Odd villain name [I know] but hey, who cares? Nobody knows how he looks like

Only Steve and the Cosmic Princess know his real name and appearance.

But why only Steve and the Cosmic Princess? Why not Austin or Billy? Maybe Chris?!

Well… if Austin where to find out, they would have told everyone

AUSTIN: HEY EVERYONE! The Ancient's name is Me…

STEVE: MADE UP! Thanks Austin for telling us this information!

AUSTIN: But I wasn't gonna say that…

STEVE: Yes you were, now please leave and go play with Jellybean.

AUSTIN: Okay!

If Billy where to find out, he would threaten him, e.g:

BILLY: If you don't do [insert whatever], I'll tell the whole world your identity!

MESA: Why the hell is an 10 year old doing in DMs? Aren't you too young for Instagram?!

BILLY: Uhh…

If Chris where to find out… well, it would be bad is just that due to Mesa's physical appearance [My AU! Remember!]… He'll try and be "Mr. Smarty Pants" and explain why he looks like that.

CHRIS: The reason why his/her/whatever they are has black and white hair is because of Poliosis! The lack of pigment in his/hers/theirs hair turned it white, 50/50 of his hair lacks colour, that's why it's white! It's completely harmless though…

STEVE: (interrupting Chris) Chris… my wonderful boyfriend… can you shut up please🥺. My boyfriend is very self-aware about his condition and if he where to hear you comment about his hair, he'll dye it all black and I don't want that. Please stop your yapping session ^w^.

CHRIS: Well okay and… what do you mean "boyfriend"?!

STEVE: I'll discuss it later…

So you can imagine…


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Sleep Deprived Retard [✖TOMMIE✖]

"Crazy? I was crazy once. They locked me in a room. A rubber room. A rubber room with rats. And rats make me crazy…"

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