I Should Not Be Depriving Myself Of Sleep Because Of The Fact That Our Education System Is So Fucked

I should not be depriving myself of sleep because of the fact that our education system is so fucked after a single day back - I had my first panic attack since we last left school, I had a sensory overload and when teachers saw me in the hallway during both of these they all ignored me completley instead of stopping the, on the brink of tears, child punching themselves in the wrist over and over to stop themselves from punching the wall.

We were off for barely a week and I've been happier than ever sleeping a good 7-9 hours a night learning latin and guitar, researching different types of frogs and it made me realise that not only is school completely composed on a bullshit system made for factory work before child labour laws even became a thing it's also killing our curiosity I mean I attend about half as much school as say any of my friends and they are all less bothered about intresting things (to me at least) around the world and is completely done with school along with having even more anxiety problems then I do.

I, the person who has panic attacks usually on a weekly basis, is one of the less anxious people in my class t

Most people have either given up completley or they've destroyed themselves becoming perfect there are 2 others in my class that don't come to class as much as everyone else aswell and again they're more curious about how the world works and generally happier. School is so detrimental to our mental health the idea of having to get ready to actually go back there in 5 hours makes me feel physically ill and that I might pass out from hyperventilating because I'm afraid; I can't deal with the "regular" school schedule, no one can anymore and it needs to be abolished.

Just.... please??