Today Too I Don’t Wanna Live .

speak to me in eye contact and hidden smiles, words are overrated anyway 

It’s raining so hard

I m drenched in fear of losing

Losing myself to this darkness lingering behind the clouds

And silence behind the roaring thunder of the sky.

Today.

I hate being in that mood where nothing’s really wrong but nothing feels right either

I woke up at 3am ,

it was a really sad dream,

Filled with death and dispair.

Fell asleep again,

To dream a sadder one.

And the rhythm played,

Until it was time to rise from bed with the rhyme of morning alarm.

But my mind and body were unenthusiastic to conquer the world.

And I realised the reason for sadness which linger

Upon me all day.

Why after happy morning,

there are sad nights?

A Letter to: Him

Dear You,

I hope things are

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Like when you said you were happiest in my arms,

And it didn't hurt when you

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So hard in love for someone you didn't want.

Because let's face the

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You wanted to have utter control over someone,

But I wanted to keep my

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I didn't ask you to love me, I didn't want to stay in one place.

You acted like I was the one that hurt

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But you don't seem to remember all that I gave up:

The things I would have traded for a

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Of rest that you wouldn't allow me.

I want to stop it

I want to control it

Just want it to end

Maybe I can do that… maybe not

Whatever it is something will eventually end

Either of us.