Undiagnosed Systemhood Is

it is genuinely bewildering to me that adult human beings do not know this but if you are mean to people they will not like you. like tbh they are probably also not going to like you if you are mean to other people but they are definitely not going to like you if you are mean to them. it doesn’t matter if you are funny or if you can use r/aita rules to prove that you are in the right. people simply do not enjoy being treated like shit.

Sometimes blurry means there's too many near front to figure out who is in control

Somtimes blurry means we don't feel like anyone at all

Sometimes blurry means we're someone, but they're new or unknown so we can't tell

Sometimes blurry means there's a mix of a few of us and it's easier to just say we're blurry

Sometimes blurry means we're so dissociated we can't process who we are at all

She placebo on my effect til I feel like something happened

Autistic brain really is like, "you have to overexplain so there is absolutely zero chance for misinterpretation"

I've been dealing with having some self-harming ideations lately and that brought to mind an aspect of it that I don't hear talked about much; the phantom pains. Often when I get triggered into a self-harming state, I can "feel" the spots where I would end up doing it. It's as though they are a precursor to it and by completing the act, it just makes visible the pain that was already there. I don't know how common this is, but I figured I'd bring it to light in case others struggle with it too.

[ID]

Panel 1: Kyra is clutching her head and Miss White asks her "What's wrong?" Kyra responds "I'm dealing with self-harm ideations again..."

Panel 2: We see a close up of her arms, her left hand is pointing at the spot on her right wrist, her hand is outstretched, but most importantly there are four dashed lines highlighted on her skin. She says "I can 'feel' where they would be. Like a phantom pain, there's nothing there, but my brain tells me there should be."

Panel 3: Kyra is hunched forward with her arms stretched out behind her, keeping back the looming Creature. She says "And then I have to contend with this A-hole egging me on. It's a rough journey."

Panel 4: Miss White throws her arm over Kyra's shoulder and they start walking. Miss White says "C'mon, let's go get you distracted for a bit." and Kyra says "Thank you. I[t] helps to know I'm not alone."

[END]

genuinely wild to me when I go to someone's house and we watch TV or listen to music or something and there are ads. I haven't seen an ad in my home since 2005. what do you mean you haven't set up multiple layers of digital infrastructure to banish corporate messaging to oblivion before it manifests? listen, this is important. this is the 21st century version of carving sigils on the wall to deny entry to demons or wearing bells to ward off the Unseelie. come on give me your router admin password and I'll show you how to cast a protective spell of Get Thee Tae Fuck, Capital

The calendar is a system where 12 wonderful headmates switch on a somewhat regular schedule.

we're kissing in the bathroom girl,

and I hope nobody catch us

. . . but I kinda hope they catch us.