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Having hobbies, connecting w others, laughing and smiling and dancing and having a good time, reaching out in place of turning inward, being in love w a person and my friends and the world, nourishing my soul and heart and mind, eating good food, being part of this world—all these things really are so much better than digging my own grave and trying to make a home out of it

You know what is fucking raw and beautiful ?? When Hozier sang “and the sights were as stark as my baby and the cold cut as sharp as my baby and the nights were as dark as my baby and half as beautiful too.” He didn’t compare his lover to other things he compared other things to his lover because to him his lover is much more, is the point of reference. Starker, sharper, darker and much more beautiful and I cry when I think about that

'going insane before an exam' core

"I am fond of lovers but I cannot love, I am too far away, am banished,"

—Franz Kafka, from a diary entry wr. c. January 1917 featured in "Diaries"

and maybe i am a little bit in love with all of my friends. how could i not be when they place their whole heart in my hands and trust me to carry it safely home? lazy days spent in comfortable silence, tearful nights spent giving each other a reason to live. the exhilaration of learning your little quirks melting into a future where i know you better than the lines on my open palms. mutual understanding to be forever gentle with one another. inside jokes that follow me long after you've gone, reminding me to slow down and laugh a little more. your eyes are the lens through which i can see the world with love. your embrace is the shelter under which i find strength to continue on.

i've just rewatched dead poets society and for a favourite movie it sure does a lot of damage on my mental state

A Beautiful Red Flower ~ Karolina Grabowski

One of my favourite pop culture useless pieces of information that I know is the fact that trends in horror movies can tell you about the general fears of the world at any given time in cinematic history.

i just reread most of my favourite quotes from different books and it made me emotional so now i feel the need to love and understand someone unconditionally and write poetry for them

my first favorite hobby is yapping. second is being extremely quiet and not talking ever at all ever.