I Loveeeee Seeing Paintings Of Men Where Its Clear The Artist Just Absolutely Loved Men. You Know What

i need to read 5 more books till the end of the year but i honestly can't decide what to pick next. i want to read slowburn but it's never done as i like in books and when i think of it, i realise that i don't even want to read romance. i can't decide on genre and on author and on anything at all because nothing just feels right for me. i want something poetic but it's hard to find poetry that would actually speak to me. i can't trust recommendations because it always feels off and i don't even trust people's opinions anymore. why is it so hard? why do i need to read a hundred books to find the one that would feel like it sees my soul?

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going insane over this song

i never ever said it to anyone but no one here knows me so i feel like i can talk about my sexuality questioning and after thinking about it for a few years and changing my opinion a thousand times i feel like i'm homosexual and panromantic and maaaybe also like demiromantic or greyromantic ? something along the lines.

i just reread most of my favourite quotes from different books and it made me emotional so now i feel the need to love and understand someone unconditionally and write poetry for them

and like how do i even know if im aromantic or i just set impossible standards for people that no one would ever meet and see myself as entirely undeserving of love and affection

in my city there's going to be a music (and not only music ig) marathon where you can spend the entire night at the conservatory and listen to different performances of all sorts like music and theatre and maybe even dancing so i am going even if i spend my last money on it

ok so i'm choosing what to read next and the choice lays between 3 books: one of them is a play and the other two are like 1000+ pages long and one is, as people say, is extremely traumatising and i really can't decide

— Richard Siken, from Littany In Which Certain Things Are Crossed Out