Innocent-little-babydoll99 - Innocent Little Babydoll99

Older men's hands are the perfect jewelry on girls' necks.

just had a really funny but also depressing but also really hot degrading thought about myself and since im so bad at blogging regularly 😅 ill just share it

Its about how i seemingly always had this affection for strong authoritative and domineering cold hearted handsome men. Theres no real reason for it other than nature and how evolution made me (if it works that way haha)

When I watched Titanic for the first time when I was around 9, the man i was infatuated with and fantasized about being in the arms of and having long deep kisses with was the dark-haired handsome Italian guy that slapped Rose in that one scene, not Leo. I thought Leo was cute or handsome too but the other one made me breath and seriously gave me the first memory of feeling that kind of thrill that makes me gasp and my heart suddenly making a really long strong beat (or flash in my tummy) that stuck in my head when it comes to romantic or "man and woman together" fantasies

I mentioned this early experience re Titanic a while ago I think but it just came up to me again and I realized that all the woman objectifying degrading fuckdoll mysoginist blogs on Tumblr and the way they say "you're born to be a pleasure toy stress reliever for your man" must without a joke really really really be 100% completely true in my case. I'm not sure if I'm even trying to sexy talk or be horny but I have absolutely always felt drawn to strong domineering men who are posessive and cool and confident but also play with me and use me and manipulate me I WAS BORN THIS WAY. also I was NEVER abused or really had any traumatic experience to note, this is just how I am apparently and it must be in my genes or in my brain from the start when i came into this world

New Year, New You

Good girls play every day

Good girls rub their minds away

Good girls think with their clit

Good girls edge for hours

Good girls give in to their lust and let it control them

Good girls trigger others to relapse and play, to get themselves off

Good girls scroll through Tumblr to stay wet all day

Good girls worship porn and pleasure

Good girls buy new toys and lingerie to feed their lust

Good girls ache to please, serve and obey

Good girls brainwash themselves

Good girls goon themselves dumb

Good girls make themselves late for things because they can’t stop touching

Good girls do it all because edging feels too good to stop

Are you going to be a good girl this year?

I got diagnosed with bipolar disorder which i guess i could have figured out earlier since its kinda obvious thinking about it & looking back. Should i go for medication? My psychiatrist recommended ways to go but idk ive heard so much bad about SSRIs and antidepressants and so on and always thought they were bad and i dont want to feel like im losing my personality or identity perhaps? Im honestly unsure and scared of making a wrong decision that ill regret regardless what i do. I maybe will talk with my doctor more next week but wonder what people have to say. Can i quickly drop them if i change my mind or is it a long term commitment thing