Just Had A Really Funny But Also Depressing But Also Really Hot Degrading Thought About Myself And Since

just had a really funny but also depressing but also really hot degrading thought about myself and since im so bad at blogging regularly 😅 ill just share it

Its about how i seemingly always had this affection for strong authoritative and domineering cold hearted handsome men. Theres no real reason for it other than nature and how evolution made me (if it works that way haha)

When I watched Titanic for the first time when I was around 9, the man i was infatuated with and fantasized about being in the arms of and having long deep kisses with was the dark-haired handsome Italian guy that slapped Rose in that one scene, not Leo. I thought Leo was cute or handsome too but the other one made me breath and seriously gave me the first memory of feeling that kind of thrill that makes me gasp and my heart suddenly making a really long strong beat (or flash in my tummy) that stuck in my head when it comes to romantic or "man and woman together" fantasies

I mentioned this early experience re Titanic a while ago I think but it just came up to me again and I realized that all the woman objectifying degrading fuckdoll mysoginist blogs on Tumblr and the way they say "you're born to be a pleasure toy stress reliever for your man" must without a joke really really really be 100% completely true in my case. I'm not sure if I'm even trying to sexy talk or be horny but I have absolutely always felt drawn to strong domineering men who are posessive and cool and confident but also play with me and use me and manipulate me I WAS BORN THIS WAY. also I was NEVER abused or really had any traumatic experience to note, this is just how I am apparently and it must be in my genes or in my brain from the start when i came into this world