I Tried , I Really Tried .

Nothing ever ends poetically. It ends and we turn it into poetry. All that blood was never once beautiful. It was always just red.

Kait Rokowski

“i’m not a violent dog, i don’t know why i bite” had me SOBBING

I love people who know my tasteee

sometimes i feel so drained that i don’t even have the energy to get out of bed and i just stay there rotting and looking at the ceiling for some sort of i don’t even know what.

“i’m not different, am I?”

i’m never gonna recover myself from watching Wes Anderson movies and i don’t want to either, it feels like a sharp knife where you’re reflecting yourself like a mirror but also like a warm hug that says “i understand the way you feel”.

~homework tips~

establish a workplace- clean your desk, line up your materials and make sure you’re working in a clean, organized environment

light a candle- have soft, cozy lighting! a sweet-scented autumn candle will definitely help :)

have snacks- a warm drink and some healthy snacks are always good when you’re getting work done

eliminate distractions- put your phone on do not disturb and make sure to put away any other distractions

write a to-do list- having a visual reminder of the work you have to do will ensure that you don’t miss anything. as you get working- cross off the tasks you finished

listen to a non-distracting playlist- this time of year i love listening to vintage autumn music! it just fits the whole vibe and makes homework/studying very fun :)

take breaks- when you really feel burnt out, take a break- walk around, take some time off, then get back to work

stay mindful- if you feel yourself getting distracted, do a quick meditation. remember WHY you’re working hard, WHY you’re studying. this will help you self-motivate

build a routine- once you find a routine that helps YOU study, stay with it. for example, i like to keep the lighting soft, open my windows, close my door and listen to music while i work. i never take breaks, but my approach will obviously be different, because we all learn differently.

Girl I find you as the most interesting person I ever knew.

The likes and dislikes you shared with me. The insecurities you let me know. The voids that made you feel imperfect. The health that kept you deteriorating. The tears that instantly rolled down your cheeks. Those little things of me that made you smile. The regression you felt after harshing me.

Everything of this is interesting to me.

Everything of you craves to be known.

Everything of you deserves to be everloved.

SUMMER DEPRESSION THERES SO MUCH TIME TO QUESTION MY LIFE