“Ten Years From Now, Make Sure You Can Say That You Chose Your Life, You Didn’t Settle For It.”

“you are still learning. you are still changing. you are still growing. breathe. you will find your way.”

— Unknown

I feel tired always as if my eyes is asking for rest, my mind is constantly thinking,I feel completely blank as if I am dead inside, sadness is like on and off

And tht became a biggest problems of mine

I talk too much when I like someone.

“Maturity is learning to walk away from people and situations that threaten your peace of mind, self-respect, values, morals and self worth.”

— Unknown

“A book can teach you, a conversation can assure you, a poem can seduce you, a genius can inspire you but only you can save yourself.”

— Anthony Anaxagorou

Even the wounds that you were certain had

been healed seem to be torn apart and cut wide open again. You will feel

small and insignificant but all at the same time unbearably heavy.

Love in the way you don't want anything in return

Love in the way you just want to be there

Two Ways to Unbottle Emotions

1 .Talk to Someone

Issue: When you talk, you're often asked, "What happened? Why are you sad? What's the reason?" But do you have exact answers for all of these questions? Most of the time, no.

2. Cry It Out

Issue: Crying too much leaves you feeling exhausted—so much so that it weakens your body, making it difficult to even move.

And what does this lead to?

"Bottling up the emotions."

And what does bottling up emotions result in?

"Mental exhaustion."

With no solution, this condition spirals into:

"Impending doom."

And the deadly fallback solution?

"The end of everything "

Well the question is "why are you sad when you get home??"

People say, stop thinking about things that pains you. It's your time at home with your parents, enjoy , have fun, spend time with them.

Well I am sorry , I tried but I can't. I ain't that person even after several trials. I am not trying anymore .

I am home. In my space where I can breathe , I can talk without people judging me. I am alone with my vulnerable self. I am sad, trying to feel my pain.

I am feeling things deeply. If I am going through something that is uncomfortable or painful or hard, I am allowing myself to dive into those emotions or allow myself to numb them. I don't wanna kill my pain through television or spending time with friends or Instagram. I chose not to protect myself from pain because it demands to be felt . Pain demands to be felt . Coz I feel it will show up in other ways if I do not deal with it now.