When You Grow Up Being Excluded, Ostracised And Alienated By Your Peers And/or Society At Large For Reasons

when you grow up being excluded, ostracised and alienated by your peers and/or society at large for reasons that are maybe not entirely apparent to you (or the people doing it to you for that matter), you internalise this vague sense of Being Other to such a degree that it becomes an integral part of you, one that you cannot separate yourself from anymore, and that inevitably leads to you being stuck in always either devaluing yourself or others. because if you are so irrevocably different from Them (and all they ever did was make you feel lesser than) it must be that either they are right and you are exceptional in your worthlessness OR they are wrong and you are exceptional in your superiority – and if you can't prove the latter, it must the former. that is why self-loathing and arrogance are actually often siblings, they constitute a dichotomy of distinctness, born from necessity, but nonetheless harmful and limiting. if you want to heal you will have to set yourself free from the idea of some inherent difference in value between you and everyone else in the world. you should have never been made to feel that there was one in the first place