Hello! I sent this ask before but I’m not sure you got it. Can you pinpoint in the fic when exactly Dazai started climbing into bed with Chuuya to sleep? Was it ever sneakily alluded to in the fic? If not, can you tell us? Thanks!!
Hi! Sorry I took a while to get back to you
I had a section of Dazai's pov that dove into that topic in one of my earlier drafts of chapter 14, so I wanted to reference it to answer your ask...but because I went through several drafts (it was actually the part of the chapter that took the longest to write), I couldn't find it for the life of me 😔
And then I did (stashed in a completely different writing software of all places!) but then I couldn't decide if I should just fully flesh out that deleted scene or just vaguely reference it later down the line.
But to answer your question: it happens the night Chuuya falls asleep on the deck at the end of chapter 5!
Since the fic is mainly through Chuuya's pov, he doesn't suspect a thing so there's no hints he picks up on during the timeskip that happens after. The only instance we can see that something is up is when Chuuya asks Dazai in chapter 8 where he's been sleeping: Dazai avoids answering because by that point he's been sleeping in the same bed as Chuuya and he doesn't want to admit to it.
Do you, by any chance, have a pinterest board for the story? ♡´・ᴗ・`♡
Hi! I started working on one when I saw this in my inbox :D
There were only a few things I was able to pin, but I will continue to add more as the story progresses!
double black, a rare moment of peace
what’s your writing process like? (how do you plan, do you outline, etc.)
also, hope you’re feeling better soon!! :] 🫶
Hi!! Great question! Okay, I have a lot of thoughts but I’ll try to keep this short and coherent lol
So I start off with a scene or dialogue and think to myself how did this character get here and why? Everything that comes to mind I type into a doc, even if it’s just a word or two. Then that evolves into writing down what I would like to see play out like character interactions, certain settings, themes I’d like to explore, conflicts, etc. Once I have enough information down, I start piecing together a story and outlining it with bullet points of major plot points. I also make a chart with character information (their personalities, backstory, connections, etc.) Only after this is set up can I finally begin to write. (The brainstorming doc can get messy and I constantly add more things to it).
Sometimes a bullet point from the main outline can span a few chapters, so I break it up into more detailed sections and assign a chapter to it. Whenever I sit down to write a new chapter I make sure that I have at least a general outline for it and rough estimate of the word count. The next step is what takes me the most time because I tend to overthink a lot and end up rewriting scenes or deleting them altogether. However, it’s also the step I enjoy the most because even adding a sentence means I’m pushing the story forward! This is when the chapter outline comes in handy because if I ever get stuck on a scene or piece of dialogue, I can just skip ahead and come back to it later. My first drafts are always full of notes I leave as I write for future me to use as a reference for an unfinished scene.
I’d like to add that I also like listening to ambience music while I work but I always end up zoning it out or shutting it off when I get in the zone lol
Then comes the editing which I also love doing because it means I’m in the home stretch! By this point, if the chapter doesn’t already have a title, I make it a goal to come up with one as I read through it (this can be inspired by a scene or theme but it has to be important to the chapter. Oh and I also like to sneak in double meanings for them). After this is done comes the tedious part of converting everything into the format Ao3 uses, but again, doing this means I’m almost done :D and all that’s left is to copy it into the Archive and type up an author’s note (which by then it could be anywhere between 1am-3am because nothing beats late night writing!!).
Hitting the “Post” button never fails to make me nervous but it’s a feeling I look forward to!
Ohhhhh political science? That’s so cool! I actually thought you were a literature major lol. To be honest, I was planning to choose it too, but after seeing my sister struggle with it—she’s majoring in it as well—I changed my mind. I was like, Nah bro, I’m not doing that ദ്ദി(ㅠ﹏ㅠ) But she’s really passionate about it, so at least that’s good for her. It is a really interesting major though.
Also, I hope you don’t overwork yourself—make sure to take breaks. Take care!
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Literature was my first option! But after I discovered this field, I decided to go down this path instead.
Sending positive vibes to your sister because I know the struggle lol
I'm done for now though! I'll be sure to make the best of this break :D
Take care too <3!
is there a chunk of writing you’re extremely proud of?? like a paragraph, sentence, etc. that you wrote and you went damn bitch i did that
i love your writing and i’m curious to see what parts stand out to you as the author
Oh great question! I recently had this feeling when I went back to read the story up until this point (it had been a while since I had due to the hiatus) and I had a lot of "wow, how did I do that??" moments lol. I guess I can say chapter 7 gave me that feeling the most with Chuuya's internal dilemma, the action, and the reveal! I remember I spent a long time planning it out and circling through a bunch of drafts to get it right.
Oh! And I'm also proud of the fight skk had in chapter 10 and the buildup behind it because I remember sitting in front of my keyboard after that and going: okay now, how am I going to make them make up?? And then BAM, I figured it out!!
Then there's this scene too:
Ahhh help I just noticed you have the "angst with a happy ending" tag on your story. How angsty are we talking about? Should I prepare myself ?
You're amazing btw
See my first instinct was to answer this with a "don't worry, it won't be too bad!" response but then I started thinking about it and well...
Dazai's backstory, once it's fully fleshed out, will definitely fit that category and then there's going to be some events later on that hmm...
I'm a sucker for happy endings though! No matter what, there will be hope at the end of the tunnel so just remember that <3
As I went into the unknown, I found myself
And when the seas took me, I went down with the ship.
“My youth was only a dark storm, crossed here and there by bright suns”
(C) Charles Baudelaire
ma jeunesse ne fut qu’un ténébreux orage, traversé çà et là par de brillants soleils (c) charles baudelaire I keep posting my old art
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love the pirate aesthetic that's just "belts in every conceivable place where a belt shouldn't be"
fake ass idgafer. I saw you gazing off into the distance like you were looking at something far away, something no one else could see but you