hoenat

hoenat

19!! She/Her

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hoenat
5 months ago

𝐧𝐚𝐯𝐒𝐠𝐚𝐭𝐒𝐨𝐧

she/they ! 8teen . call me A !

𝐧𝐚𝐯𝐒𝐠𝐚𝐭𝐒𝐨𝐧

bnha ↓

izuku x reader [innocent religious boy is corrupted by you .]

bnha x reader [masked men get their chance to ruin you .]

what song they'd fuck you to [bakugou, kirishima, denki, sero, shoto, izuku, shinso, and tamaki]

dabi x reader [you're his personal ashtray .]

dabi x reader [toxic ex-bf! dabi hcs]

keigo x reader [pre bf! and bf! keigo hcs]

denki , sero , kirishima , katsuki x reader [getting ran through .]

iida, shoto, izuku x reader [getting ran through .]

katsuki x reader [twt link .]

katsuki x reader [he’s gone(?)]

kinktober [katsuki bakugou]

jjk ↓

what song they'd fuck you to [gojo, megumi, itadori, yuta, inumaki, and nanami]

gojo x reader [he loves mocking you .]

nanami x reader [daddy! nanami hcs /// healing daddy issues]

itadori x reader [delulu itadori hcs]

kinktober [nanami kento]

aot ↓

what song they'd fuck you to [eren, jean, and armin]

hq ↓

what song they'd fuck you to [hinata, kageyama, tsukishima, nishinoya, sugawara, iwaizumi, oikawa, atsumu, osamu, suna, bokuto, akaashi, kuroo, and kenma]

kenma x reader [enemies to lovers, some drabbles]

nishinoya x reader [daddy! nanami hcs // healing daddy issues]

kinktober [hinata shoyo]

fairytail ↓

what song they'd fuck you to [natsu, gray, gajeel, jellal, and zeref]

blue lock ↓

what song they'd fuck you to [bachira, isagi, sae, rin, nagi, and reo]

bachira x reader [pervert! bachira hcs]

sae x reader [punishing you for giving him a hickey .]

kinktober [bachira meguru]

sk8 the infinity ↓

reki x reader [ruining him .]

demon slayer ↓

tanjiro x reader [twt link .]

hoenat
6 months ago

things to do before doing something stupid πœ—πœšΛšβ‹†

Things To Do Before Doing Something Stupid πœ—πœšΛšβ‹†
Things To Do Before Doing Something Stupid πœ—πœšΛšβ‹†

have a scrumptious snack and a tea or coffee

take a nap (if time allows)

open a window and walk around the room once

sit in silence for 7 minutes to ponder

does it contribute to the plot??

eat a raw vegetable

look outside until you see a bird

consult the council (two friends and your mom)

do your hair and brush your teeth

draw a bunny (send me a pic while you're at it)

my insta @ malusokay

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7 months ago
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7 months ago
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hoenat
1 year ago

Romantisize your Life

Romantisize Your Life

🀎 Declutter your space

🀎 Don't look at the phone in the morning

🀎 Do your affirmations of gratitude

🀎 Remember, you are the main character

🀎 Create a playlist thats gonna be the OST of your life (if you want grab mine, it's called Stargirl Playlist)

🀎 Choose to be present

🀎 Do things that make you happy every day

🀎 You are the most important person in your life

🀎 Enjoy your food

🀎 Surround yourself with carefully picked people, those who inspire and value you. set clear boundaries with people who are not up to your standards

🀎 Don't be afraid to be alone, make yourself company

Romantisize Your Life
Romantisize Your Life
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1 year ago
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1 year ago

be busy. busy not checking messages. busy reading those books you never started or finished. busy having a good night of sleep. busy taking care of yourself and your skin. busy moving your body. busy helping your community. busy reflecting on your life and what you can improve. busy doing things aside from the capitalistic viewpoint of β€œproductivity.” busy slowing down.

Be Busy. Busy Not Checking Messages. Busy Reading Those Books You Never Started Or Finished. Busy Having
hoenat
1 year ago

girl exorcism⋆.ೃ࿔*:ο½₯πŸŽ€

Girl Exorcism⋆.ೃ࿔*:ο½₯πŸŽ€

i've been seeing this popping up all over my feed and i wanted to make my own and add some things in my own girl exorcism. all credits to @flowerflowerflo ✨

PHYSICAL ;

take an everything shower so that u can feel like a completely new person

do a face mask for lustrous skin

Girl Exorcism⋆.ೃ࿔*:ο½₯πŸŽ€
Girl Exorcism⋆.ೃ࿔*:ο½₯πŸŽ€

do the more meticulous beauty regimens such as getting ur lashes done, teeth cleaned, or a professional facial/dermatologist appointment.

follow along with a pilates youtube video or go for a run

schedule a massage appointment

floss and use teeth whitening strips (oil pulling too)

sleep for 8+ hours a day

MENTAL ;

start saying ur affirmations again everyday if u fell out of it

write in ur journal/healing journal religiously (weekly)

do some daily meditation for soundness of mind

rewatch videos from the wizard liz’s youtube channel to give urself a wake up call if u feel u need it

let urself cry if u need to (release)

analyze the positive and negative aspects of ur behavior and reevaluate ur mindset to keep urself sharp

PERSONAL ;

do a deep cleaning of ur space because a clean space = a clear mind

clean beneath ur bed

clean things that u use daily but forget to clean (ur electronic devices, door knobs, water bottles and things of that sort)

DIGITAL ;

delete apps that u no longer use and are taking up unnecessary space

change the theme of ur phone

clean out and go through your emails

organize ur pinterest boards

create and delete playlists

hoenat
1 year ago

to live is to love

I think about how hayao miyazaki said that love is two people inspiring each other to live. and to live doesn’t just mean to be alive. living involves finding beauty in the simple moments of being. so to inspire someone to be in awe of the simplicity of living? that’s special

hoenat
1 year ago
Birthday Boy πŸŽ‚

Birthday boy πŸŽ‚

Birthday Boy πŸŽ‚
hoenat
1 year ago
౨ৎ ⁺ . Hello This Is Dolly πŸŽ€πŸ§πŸ¬ .ᐟ

౨ৎ ⁺ . Hello this is Dolly πŸŽ€πŸ§πŸ¬ .ᐟ

…you have landed into dollies interlude! πŸŽ€β­οΈ

౨ৎ ⁺ . Hello This Is Dolly πŸŽ€πŸ§πŸ¬ .ᐟ

Hiii im Dolly i usually post law of assumption + manifesting and songs recommendations but usually i just post about things i love!!

⭐️ im 4teen

⭐️ im black

⭐️ african american / soulaan

⭐️ ace and omni!!

ive been shifting for about 4-5 years now and im only been into loa for about a couple months!!πŸŽ€

Likes: Sanrio,plushies,roblox,blankets,fashion,bratz, monster high,barbie,my little pony,tiny alien mofu mofu,korillakuma,newjeans,kara,wonder girls,girls’ generation,tokyo revengers,magical girls anime,hime gyaru,cloud e sky,art,pink and gold,sweet treats,sweet smelling lotion and soap and kpop and jpop and i love to read books from when i was younger,i like manga,i love hair bows,fizzy cherry soda,im black,i love licca-chan dolls,powerpuff girls,lalalopsy,my scene,strawberry shortcake and pinkcalious, hello kitty,mocha,charmmy kitty,honey cute,my melody and sweet piano are my favorite sanrio characters!! πŸŽ€πŸ§

Masterlist!! πŸŽ€πŸ§

౨ৎ ⁺ . Hello This Is Dolly πŸŽ€πŸ§πŸ¬ .ᐟ

Law of Assumption! ⭐️

β—œ π“ˆ’ ݁ β‚Š it’s your own journey !!

| π“ˆ’ ݁ β‚Š never let 3rd parties shake you

| π“ˆ’ ݁ β‚Š dissatisfied with the old?? stop repeating it!!

| π“ˆ’ ݁ β‚Š have fun with manifesting!!

| π“ˆ’ ݁ β‚Š what does it mean 2 actually ignore the 3D?

| π“ˆ’ ݁ β‚Š break the cycle

| π“ˆ’ ݁ β‚Š everything is in your favor!!

| π“ˆ’ ݁ β‚Š rationalizing loa (boo)

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š Dolly nd Honey’s Collab !! πŸŽ€πŸ―

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š live in imagination !

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š do it for yourself!!

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š you’re the only power !

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š Limitless star !!⭐️

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š feel your feelings !

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š it’s already yours !

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š yes or..? YES!!

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š ignoring the 3d

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š you are god

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š you have ur sp

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š Build-A-Boyfriend!

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š its really so easy!

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š you can leave whenever you want

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š why pretend to be anything less?

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š you can leave whenever you want!

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š wdym theres no movement?!

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š it feels good to just give it to yourself

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š you’re always in control

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š you’re not bound to one life

Affirmations!! ⭐️

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š what competition?

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š its my scene

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š princess syndrome

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š shifting vaunt

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š I,Candy

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š I am the god of my reality

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š pink glitter fantasy

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š you’re everything he’s just ken

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š i am a god

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š you’re my chemical hype boy

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š specific person affs

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š if you wanna pretty

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š imagination life is your creation!!

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š its a dolls world

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š pink sugar

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š the world is my playground!!

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š sharpay evans !!

Shifting Realities!πŸŽ€β­οΈ

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š stop leaving room for failure

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š unique drs you can shift to

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š shifting made easy

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š my dr’s pt1

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š angel express 999 pt1

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š my dr’s pt2

Misc !!πŸŽ€β­οΈ

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š some fun things 2 manifest bc ur limitless

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š fun way 2 live in the end

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š some things you can manifest

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š some super cute things 2 manifest

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š β€œillogical” things im gonna manifest pt1

Doll Talks ! πŸŽ€β­οΈ

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š manifesting rant

The Advice Column!🫧

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š Advice coloum Issue No.1 πŸŽ€β­οΈ

| π“ˆ’ έβ‚Š Doll Tips ; Being the New Kid!! πŸŽ€β­οΈ

The Glow up Diaries!

πœ—πœš ݁ Λ– coming soon ! - ⭐️

Summer Sweetie ! πŸŽ€β˜€οΈ

πœ—πœš ݁ Λ– coming soon ! - ⭐️

Dollies MP3!

πœ—πœš ݁ Λ– Dollies pink mp3.

πœ—πœš ݁ Λ– GLITTERATION! πŸ’«

πœ—πœš ݁ Λ– songs from my playlist!

πœ—πœš ݁ Λ– SLUMBER PARTY

πœ—πœš ݁ Λ– Song RECS!!

Dolls confessional!

πœ—πœš ݁ Λ– coming soon ! - πŸ’«

౨ৎ ⁺ . Hello This Is Dolly πŸŽ€πŸ§πŸ¬ .ᐟ

Dni criteria : racist,transphobic,homophobic,anti Semitic,sexism,pro isreal,islamophobic,fat-phobic,basically all the dni criteria,€d blogs,kink or nsfw blog,old men,creeps,ddlg (ur really gross),18+,ped0s, and basically anything thats mean,gross and weird dni!!

hoenat
1 year ago
I'm Baaack

i'm baaack

hoenat
1 year ago

INS AND OUTS FOR 2024 β€§β‚ŠΛš β‹…πŸΈ

INS AND OUTS FOR 2024 β€§β‚ŠΛš β‹…πŸΈ

Ins β€§β‚ŠΛš β‹…

β€’ Running

β€’ More studying

β€’ Have regular morning/night routine

β€’ fixing my posture

β€’ think before talking

β€’ consuming green tea, matcha, coffee

β€’ Take Photo digital camera (create a photo journal)

β€’ Saying no

β€’ Having BEDTIME !

β€’ 2014 tumblr girl

β€’ Reapplying lipgloss every 10 mins

β€’ Rewatching early 2000’s teen shows

β€’ READING

β€’ Goodbye kisses

β€’ Letting it go (no revenge)

β€’ More culture g

Outs β€§β‚ŠΛš β‹…

β€’ Compulsive shopping

β€’ Procrastination

β€’ Overthinking

β€’ Being influenced by micro trend

β€’ afraid of posting on instagram

β€’ stop wasting money on food

β€’ thinking about the past

β€’ waiting on something good to happen

β€’ Situationship

β€’ Ghosting everyone when things get bad

β€’ Minimising yourself to make others feel more comfortable

β€’ Caring what people think

hoenat
1 year ago

It-Girling 101 :

you are a goddess, act like it

you have to be confident

you are beautiful, smart, talented and so much more. there’s nothing wrong with acknowledging that and being proud of that. if you don’t hype yourself up, who will? take those selfies, say your self love affirmations in the mirror, wear your cutest clothes that make you feel prettiest! you are the sh!t , don’t let anyone make you feel less than, ever

be proud of everything you do, even the β€œsmall things” because everything you achieve is an accomplishment, nothing goes unnoticed

speak up for yourself! if you don’t like something or how something is going then let it be known! don’t let anyone take your voice from you

stand strong on your beliefs and don’t let anyone sway you

you have to respect yourself

learn how to say β€˜no’ to things that don’t feel right to you, even if it may hurt someone else’s feelings

prioritize your needs and wants! you deserve to be happy, comfortable and have the things you desire

set healthy boundaries and stick to them! have a mindset of, people will respect me and my limits or they won’t be in my life at all, period!

don’t just date or be friends with anyone. surround yourself with people who treat you right, who don’t call you out of your name, who are kind to you, who are gentle with you, who care about your hopes and dreams, who won’t put their hands on you, ever! people who don’t make you feel bad about yourself, people who love you unconditionally, someone who will never treat you like garbage, someone who won’t belittle you

treat your body like a temple and only be with someone romantically because you really want to and have feelings for them and not because you feel pressured to or you think you deserve less than

you have to treat yourself like a prize because you are a prize! don’t forget, the way you treat yourself is how other people will treat you. so walk with pride and make sure your standards are high always πŸ’“

 It-Girling 101 :
 It-Girling 101 :
hoenat
1 year ago

im obsessed with the idea of being stuck in a time loop with izuku. at first you have no idea that both of you are in this time loop in the first place but as you begin to go mad trying to change the outcome of this life, he begins to notice you. small odd details that no one wouldve notice had it been any NORMAL person. At one point he just straight up asks if your in this time loop with him. YES finally someone to talk to without the repeat dialouge from days old past, which was actually just a week ago. you begin to grow closer, fleeting touches here and there. Soon you start to date, afterall he is the only person in the universe who understands what your going through. When he dies on a mission you simply kill yourself to reset the timeline and start fresh again, clean slate. With the never ending possibilities of the infinite universe, you can do anything. Have sex while skydiving, have sex anywhere and everywhere without worrying about the repercusions. he always wants to be the hero for this world, every. single. time. but you know better than that, you know it would be a waste to be a hero every reset. you become the biggest supervillian fighting against your lover, unbeknownst to all the other heroes and students. right at the climax of the fight, you and deku standing face to face, everyone watching. you kiss him, hard. you fall to the ground viciously attacking each other with your lips. he reaches up and grabs your breast, soothing your hard nipples. all onlookers are shocked, they cannot understand why this is happening but katsuki is DEF sporting a hard boner seeing these mortal enimes go at it.

anyways ill probably expand on this idea in a more coherent way soon cuz i cannot stop thinking about this, also wrote this in english and health class and its a wonder no one saw me. sorry for my bad spelling im kinda fucking dumb

hoenat
1 year ago

i think izuku starts to sniffle and gets teary-eyed a little bit when you overstimulate him or cockwarm him for too long.

and it’s kind of funny because he’s this big and immensely strong hero who is able to manhandle you however he wants β€” he certainly has more than enough power to do so, obviously β€” but at the same time, he’s also… somewhat pretty and delicate?

like, every muscle in his body is straining as you continue to sit on his lap, unmoving despite the fact that his fat cock is nestled deep inside your pussy, making him appear so, so male, but then you glance at his face and his lashes are long and thick as they repeatedly flutter to try and blink the tears away, and he looks at you with what you swear are hearts in his eyes.

his skin is flushed, rising in temperature with the prettiest shade of pink and is mostly smooth to the touch despite the battle scars that adorn his body. his cheeks are round, his hands are warm and his hair is fluffy even as a bead of sweat dribbles down his temple when you give him one slow, painfully deliberate β€” and just as teasing β€” roll of your hips.

he’s kind of like a bunny. a bunny on steroids, if you will.

hoenat
1 year ago

your guide to manifesting your desires in 2024.

Your Guide To Manifesting Your Desires In 2024.

i have manifested getting into my dream college, straight As every semester, visiting NYC, and a HUGE glow up (nourished hair, clearer skin, beautiful body, pretty face, emotional intelligence, baddie mindset, and supportive friends + family) in 2022. here's all the things i did that worked for me! i understand everything does not work the same for everyone, for example i find visualization fun and easy to do while affirming, even though natural to me, seems like work to me so i use it as an aid to fuel my visualization. i have had bad mental health days but i persisted in my desires regardless because i know i always get everything i want.Β 

Your Guide To Manifesting Your Desires In 2024.

1. understanding yourself and your thought processes:

this is not necessary for you to manifest what you want but it helps in creating self-awareness in the long term. i used to overthink a lot (manifested it away) so i affirmed and visualized during any free time i had, and eventually my doubts faded away. even if they pop up sometimes, i'm just like meh that's not true and brush them aside. for me, processing all my complicated emotions is essential to me because i get to know my patterns and start working on changing them. it does not matter what triggered them, you've to live with them for the rest of your life if you don't feel them and let them go.

2. discovering new things:

you should get out of your comfort zone. there are thousands of things in the world you haven't experienced. desires can change and you aren't obligated to stick to this one dream when something else lights up the fire inside you in the present. i had the dream of living in NYC for a long term but I became more open to DC, LA, Philadelphia, and other cities after visiting them. i have explored new hobbies too and they've become an important part of me now. being adaptable is important!

Your Guide To Manifesting Your Desires In 2024.

3. never settle:

a dream might be small for someone while the same dream might be unattainable for someone else. it's all about persisting in your desires and making them seem attainable to your subconscious. you don't have to lift a finger to manifest, so why aren't you being stubborn about what you want? why are you settling for less when you deserve to have so much more? don't settle for bread crumbs when you can have a WHOLE DAMN LUXURIOUS MEAL.

4. self-concept:

the qualities i find most attractive in a person are communication, efforts, dedication, honesty, and loyalty. so i start affirming for those qualities in myself! i embody them by telling myself, "i am dedicated, honest, and loyal", "i am irreplaceable and unforgettable just because i exist", "i communicate and put in efforts for the people who have the greatest in mind for me." we love people who are secure in themselves and so, we naturally gravitate towards them. i don't care if someone has a pretty body or a pretty face. if they have the drive to succeed in what they're doing and they're giving me princess treatment, i'd immediately fold. it's the inner qualities that stay in the longer term (though you can forever be ageless and youthful, but to complement that you need a beautiful mind and heart - those make you more attractive).Β 

Your Guide To Manifesting Your Desires In 2024.
hoenat
1 year ago

a list of everything ive manifested and what i want to manifest

having alot of friends + also having at least one best friend (in short never being lonely)

people always approaching me first

not living with desired people

instant appearance changes

instant weather changes

very very pretty almond doe eyes and long eyelashes

a puppy

oddly specific tiktoks to pop on my fyp

being "popular" in school

having big boobs and a big butt naturally

being a semi big submaker

my face shape (younger me listened to round shape face subliminals but i had a thin one before)

alot of mcdonalds

bigger prettier lips

alot of sps coming back because i believed in the saying "they always come back"

revising something completely and there being no evidence of it ever happening

long breaks off of school (i feel like since i was listening to ALOT of "cancel school" subliminals b4 the corona break and i've had so many breaks off of school)

soft pretty 3a/3b hair

alotttt of compliments

being seen as very attractive in my own eyes and other ppls

being alot of ppls comfort person everyone tells me they enjoy my company

being right abt random things

manifested alot of things for my old friend

constantly passing classes knowing damn well i didn't do any work 😭 went from a 34 to a 92 doing absolutely nothing

all my teachers liking me enough to bump my grades to passing even if i did nothing in their classes

strangers always being nice to me all the time

people being obsessed with me (i don't recommend manifesting this 😭) 

being lucky in gamesΒ 

immediate weight loss

having 300+ absences when the county's limit was 10 a semester and never getting in trouble for it

moving out of housesΒ 

being spoiled by people irl and online simply for being attractive

ppl texting me immediately after i think abt them

being able to manifest fast in generalΒ 

having a high pitched cute voice

+ other tiny things

what im current manifesting

being extremely rich + living in a mansion

knowing how to speak Spanish, Korean, and French

revising any trauma I've experienced

desired baby pictures and childhood memories

having no anxiety and never overthinking

being everyones type + being like kokomi teruhashi

revising that i have close childhood friends

butt length hair

having no body hair

having a vivid imagination

4.0 gpa + perfect attendance + being naturally smart + being good at math

hazel eyes with mostly green

a cat and a pink bird and a bunny + my current dogs but they're all going to be babies and get along well (also manifesting that ik how to manage all of them)

being shorter

desired parents + only one sibling

a lot of rich love interests

desired body and face

old friends coming back

being a huge submaker like roy

bringing certain family members back to life

im manifesting this by affirming and listening to subliminals because thats what i prefer

hoenat
1 year ago

Jay.. im so tired…

I’ve been officially in LOA tumblr for 2 years now.. I was a sophomore in college when I first found out about law of assumption and now I am a senior, for the past two years i’ve literally been through it ALL.. I’m talking divineangelbee in late 2021, the very first post on the vo*id.. her getting exposed.. self concept era.. void concept era.. 3 days challenges era.. a&p vs states era.. outbreak of nondualism era.. I should be appointed as the historian of LOA tumblr community at this point tbh..

I am just so.. tired. Especially with my graduation approaching and me being filled with so much anxiety and fear because when I was a sophomore, I had more time to β€œfail” y’know? I had more time to learn and fail and pick myself up again.. no problem. But now?.. not so much. I don’t have that much hope or excitement for LOA anymore. What made things even more worse for me is that my GPA started plummeting gradually since last year because I don’t have any motivation or drive to do something I don’t love. I don’t desire to be at college or to be studying but I don’t know what to do anymore.

I want my dream life, I decide I have it, I fulfill myself and then, poof! Everything is gone as soon as I have to deal with my 3d responsibilities. I don’t know how to maintain the fulfillment of my desires when I am forced to study for hours about subjects I absolutely hate and stressing about stupid exams when I am fulfilling myself to have an absolutely different life. I can’t push myself anymore, I’m literally tearing up writing this.Β 

I’m so sorry if this comes across as venting.. but I literally need your advice so bad. I trust you immensely. I gave you a summary of my last two years to help understand when I’m at emotionally and mentally so that you tailor your advice accordingly if you (hopefully) decided to answer this.

you're being double minded.

you're seeing the 3d as something separate from you + something that's out of your control. that's why you're tired. that's why you think you're going to fail. that's why you're waiting for it to change instead of accepting the change being done in imagination.

i sympathize with you with how many years you've been in this community + the college thing, because i'm currently a sophomore (in the 3d, anyway). however, deep down, i've already accepted the fact that i am who i want to be already in imagaintion.

the 3d literally doesn't even matter to me anymore. it's just me. so if i change within, of course it's going to change on the outside. i'd be lying if i said i didn't get bored or impatient or annoyed at the 3d, but somehow, i always naturally reminded myself that my desired state is who i really am, so i feel fulfilled. obviously, we all want the materialization, however it shouldn't be our main focus. fulfillment is.

internalize this: you will never change the 3d if you don't change your identity.

you're not creating anything. not in the 3d, or in imagination. creation is finished. your only obligation is to persist in your new state. that's all. and if you want to experience your desire, imagine it until you feel fulfilled and move on. time literally doesn't matter, because anything can (and will!) change in an instant. plus, speaking from experience, you're having too much fun in imagination to begin with to even notice how much time has passed ( i was so sucked into my imagination thought it was a wednesday when it was a monday.... )

of course, we're human, our conditioned brains causes us to wonder and dwell on the how and when, when those are irrelevant. all that matters is who we're conscious of being right now.

imagination is the only reality, and if you're imaging being your desired self, your manifestation is completed. the end. if you can imagine yourself being it, you already are it in imagination. you can't experience something outside of a state because you can't imagine being something you never accepted to be who you are to begin with. and it extends to the 3d as well! if you think about being a dog once, are you gonna be a dog in the 3d? NO! you're human, its obvious. of course you can't be a dog, that's not your identity. it's not your state. it's not your experience.

manifestation is basically just a practice of faith towards yourself. our human body is so limited, that we ultimately have no choice but to turn to imagination and trust who we're being in there. how do you know that molecules are reshuffling as we speak? you don't. and you don't need to. all you need to know is that you're already living in your end goal and accept it!

the 3d really doesn't matter, you can use the void state craze as an example:

if someone is lying on their bed, and they're using their 3d brain to "get into the void", despite the fact that they're not identifying with the fact that they're already there, their 3d actions are (pun not intended) void!

it's not what you're doing that "sabotages" your manifestation, it's what you're currently identifying as. this is why people can interact with their 3d and still got what they want.

there is nothing to GET. there is nothing to WAIT FOR. there is nothing to CREATE. YOU JUST NEED TO ACCEPT YOUR DESIRED STATE AS YOUR CURRENT IDENTITY AND STOP GIVING RELEVANCE TO THE 3D!

however, if you are that concerned with "time", here's a neville quote I really like.

"the bible gives it as three days; the duration is three days for response in this world. if i now assume i am what I want to be, and if i am faithful to it and walk as though i were, the very longest stretch given for its realization is three days."

by realization, he doesn't mean the time it takes for the 3d to change. he meant the literal definition of it: realizing that you already are who you desire to be as your true identity. your state becomes something obvious to you, since you already KNOW that's who you are. then, when your 3d inevitably reflects that, you're happy, but not surprised!

πŸŽ€ to summarize:

worry about what you're currently identifying as, not what you're doing in the 3d.

you want the feeling of your desire being yours, so give it to yourself by accepting that you already do.

APPLY, APPLY, APPLY!! just for these 3 days.

manifestation is based on self - trust. trust your identity and keep going back to it. not because you have to, but because you know that's who you truly are.

everything is happening BECAUSE of you, not TO you.

imagination is the only reality, and states are just identities which you experience within imagination. assume your desired state and see everything fall into place.

imagine when you feel like experiencing it.

satisfaction = acceptance.

take the 3d out of the equation. it's literally irrelevant. you know what isn't? your current identity.

the law works like this: assume it in imagination -> 3d reflects it. it's as easy as picking a new identity, accepting it as who you are, trusting it, knowing it, and then it's your reality.

and most importantly:

BE THE CHANGE.

hoenat
1 year ago

study like elle woods

Study Like Elle Woods
Study Like Elle Woods
Study Like Elle Woods

introduction:

elle woods is one of my favorite inspirations for studying. she's stylish, confident, feminine and smart all rolled into one. plus she doesn't change for anyone- when she sets her mind to a goal she's determined and pushes herself.

@ichorsuns <3

in class:

find motivation. elle had a clear goal, she wanted to go to harvard. and when she had that goal that was what she focused on and put her energy towards. to be motivated you need to know WHY you're working so hard and what you're trying to achieve.

take cute notes. not even sure if this is really an elle thin but just make note taking fun! make it look cute

dress up. ofc u don't have to dress up super fancy for class but ik that personally i enjoy wearing cute clothes and doing my hair for school. it's just fun :)

studying:

make cute flashcards. flashcards are really effective for studying, and also they're kinda fun to make.

review with a highlighter. get a pink highlighter to go over what you need to review. idk its just a cute color.

put studying into your routine. even if you have to switch locations up or study while working out, just make sure that you get time to study a little everyday.

overall mindset:

stay focused on your goals. when elle decided she wanted to go to harvard she was serious about it. she spent months studying for law school admission test!

study a little everyday. like i said earlier, spend about 15-20 minutes (whatever works for you) to review what you learned in class everyday. even if you don't have an upcoming test or quiz it's always good to do regula studying.

make meaningful conections. the best way to get information into your long term memory is connecting what your studying into your own life. i know that in the courtroom elle uses her knowledge of perm maintenance.

ignoring what people say. so many ppl thought elle was dumb and in my own life fake friends from my old school laughed & made jokes when they found out i'd gotten into ap chem at my current school. it's so easy to feed into this negativity and get caught up on other people think about you, but put your energy towards what is productive and healthy. you don't need to prove yourself to anyone because ultimately there will be people who doubt you no matter what you do.

conclusion:

overall you just need to have a goal and be determined to be like elle, while also staying true to who you are. embarrasment and failure is always on the path to success- so keep your head up and keep working hard even when things go against you. :)

hoenat
1 year ago

πŸŽ€πŸ’–Y/N IS THAT YOU ? πŸŽ€πŸ’–

-Kill your old self & create a better version who is free from negativity

πŸŽ€πŸ’–Y/N IS THAT YOU ? πŸŽ€πŸ’–

πŸŽ€the old me who relied on others for validation is gone forever . The old me with self destructive habits and negative thoughts will never be seen again

πŸ’–i love myself way too much , I'm immune to self hatred or self doubts . Being insecure is impossible for me

πŸŽ€im not a victim of circumstances or 3d . I control them , not the other way around

πŸ’– I prioritize myself . I put myself always .

πŸŽ€Im independent and don't depend on anyone or anything .

πŸ’–The old me is gone now ..and I will never go back to the toxic and unhealthy cycle of negativity

πŸŽ€i don't dwell on negativity

πŸ’–I don't spiral coz the circumstances or the 3d anymore

.πŸŽ€Jennie kim , wonyoung , Alexa , Zendaya , Jia , IU , nayeon ?????? Who are they ??? I'm the only IT girl .

πŸ’–Im always chosen no matter what . I'm loved and precious .

πŸŽ€Im healed from my past experiences .

πŸ’–Im capable of everything and anything

.πŸŽ€Im a girls girl , I'm a boss in a man's world ( credits to destiny Rogers >3 )

πŸ’–im so hot , I'm so cool

πŸŽ€im a complete new person with a perfect self concept. I know what I want , I'm the girl / guy who has it all .

πŸ’–My subconscious has been reprogrammed

πŸŽ€i only entertain favorable thoughts

πŸ’–im consistent with persisting.

πŸŽ€i don't get easily influenced by others and don't allow anything or anyone to get to me

πŸ’–im not miserable or jealous, why would I be ?? I'm living my dream life and have everything that I want or need .

πŸŽ€No one can block my manifestations

πŸ’–My mental health is perfect just like me >33

πŸŽ€I don't settle for less .

πŸ’–im the best of the best , I'm Y /N

πŸŽ€ being the best at what I do , that's sounding on brand ( credits to typagirl )

πŸ’–im completely renewed as a person . I let go of my old self

πŸŽ€πŸ’–Y/N IS THAT YOU ? πŸŽ€πŸ’–
hoenat
1 year ago

β‚ŠΛšβŠΉ α°” Princess treatment affirmations౨ৎ β‹†ο½‘Λš

β‚ŠΛšβŠΉ α°” Princess Treatment Affirmations౨ৎ β‹†ο½‘Λš

I always get treated like a princess. People can't help but treat me amazingly simply because of my mesmerizing beauty alone. Even strangers break their backs to make me comfortable. People do everything to satisfy my needs. I don't need to lift a finger. People call me all of my desired nicknames like "princess", "dollface" etc without me even having to ask. I love that I get treated like a princess! People constantly offer to carry my bags for me. They even ask to carry ME. They never get bored of doing things for me. My smile alone is enough of a reward. People do whatever they can to talk to me, be around me, look at me. I only attract high value, chivalrous men. They treat me like the royalty that I am. I constantly get spoiled with gifts. People give me exactly what I want. Everyone is always catering to my needs. Friends, family members and other desired people are continously taking care of me. They truly treat me like a princess. And why wouldn't they? Nobody can resist a face as cute as mine. I get protected because of my dainty and feminine aura. Everything I do is just so princess-like. I exude femininity, elegance and confidence. People pamper me in all sorts of ways. They use my love language to please me. Everyone can't help but love me. I'm adorable, extremely kind and just overall perfect. I easily captivate the hearts of those around me. People truly admire me and they make it a point to show me. My SO treats me like a princess in a fairytale. I get carried, kissed on the hand, sent love letters. I have many friends. Everyone wishes to befriend me. I always get invited to the best parties and events. People love to be around me because of my amazing personality. I never have to get my hands dirty, there's always plenty of people willing to do it for me. They do whatever they can to make me feel good. OMG, I keep getting compliments. People stop whatever they were doing just to tell me how wonderful I am, even strangers. I just keep getting compared to princesses and angels! Everything about me can't help people but think of a princess. I am soft and delicate. People take care of my worries for me. I life the ideal princess life! People will go out of their way to please me. They'll do everything for me. I am a real life princess and get treated accordingly.

hoenat
1 year ago

he’s so weird. i need him to cum in me

hoenat
1 year ago

random things to manifest.. bcz you can

every time you take out gum everyone doesn’t start swarming over you literally asking for gum every 2 seconds

special talent of being able to tell people’s (and yourself) undertones

always finding clothes in your size

meeting your soulmate

lucky girl syndrome

hair never gets greasy

nails never break..

being good at every single game you play (even when it’s your first time)

fast reflexes

finding money out on the street every single day

lips never get crusty (and i stand by this)

always being right at everything

a pretty voice huhu

being able to sleep fast (need)

always entering the void state

period cramps don’t hurt like hell

every book you read has your desired ending

being able to read real fast

photographic memory

chores take a blink of an eye to do (for you)

amazing at everything

YOU DON’T SWEAT.

you never smell

always think before you speak (needdd)

subliminals work instantly

and overall manifest instantly

Random Things To Manifest.. Bcz You Can
hoenat
1 year ago
Caitlyn Siehl, What We Buried; From "A Letter To Love"

Caitlyn Siehl, What We Buried; from "A Letter To Love"

hoenat
1 year ago

See yourself being perceived by others in this light bc you already are such a remarkable beauty to witness

See Yourself Being Perceived By Others In This Light Bc You Already Are Such A Remarkable Beauty To Witness
See Yourself Being Perceived By Others In This Light Bc You Already Are Such A Remarkable Beauty To Witness
See Yourself Being Perceived By Others In This Light Bc You Already Are Such A Remarkable Beauty To Witness
See Yourself Being Perceived By Others In This Light Bc You Already Are Such A Remarkable Beauty To Witness

Pov : everyone who sees you says this about your looks

"Omg you're drop dead GORGEOUS 😍 "

"HOW are you so pretty 😭😭 what's your secret"

" you're literally the prettiest girl I've ever seen I'm not even kidding"

"Your eyes are so mesmerizing wow😍 ..I'm in love"

"U have the most perfect lips"

"Ur eyebrows are always on fleek"

"I love how long and thick ur eyelashes are"

"You're so beautiful I'm obsessed"

"Ur skin is literally FLAWLESS"

"I'm convinced you're a real life goddess"

"I looove ur hair it looks so healthy and soft and luscious "

"How are u even real? U look so ethereal and out of this world!"

"Ur beauty has me daydreaming and writing poems"

"Ur beauty alone leaves an unforgettable mark on everyone"

"I can't fathom how pretty you are"

"Everything about u is perfect, like youre unbelievably stunning"

"What's it like being the most beautiful girl in the world?😍"

"U have this kind of beauty thats so captivating, haunting and addictive to look at"

"I love ur stylee u always look so chic"

"You're such an eye-candy I could look at you forever"

"Ur face is literally my desired face, ur beauty is the standard"

"Girl I would kill to look like u"

"Ur beauty leaves me speechless everytime, how do u have that effect?"

"I don't think anyone who looks at u can resist falling in love w you"

"Has anyone ever told you how powerful your beauty is? Like it's dangerous how beautiful u are"

"Do you model? U literally have the body and looks for it"

"I love ur fashion sense , u give off IT girl vibes"

"Stop looking at me with those siren eyes 🫠"

Pov : people say this behind your back

"She's def the kind of girl who steals all the attention with her beauty when she walks into a room"

"Y/N had a huge glow up, she keeps getting prettier everytime I see her"

"She looks so stunning in pictures but wait till u see her irl its even better"

"I genuinely think she's the prettiest girl in existence"

"There's something about her beauty thats so hypnotic it sticks in ur mind"

"My heart starts beating so fast when she looks at me. Her beauty makes me nervous"

"Have you seen Y/N? she's the prettiest around here"

"She has that kind of beauty that everyone wanna copy"

"She's naturally beautiful like she doesn't even try"

πŸ’ŒπŸ’ŒπŸ’Œ

Let me know if u want more like this πŸ’«

hoenat
1 year ago

wake up.

wake tf up right now. arent you sick of not feeling how you want to feel??? not looking how you want to look??? not being who you want to be? WAKE UP. stop complaining, stop complaining about not seeing movement about things not going your way etc. its okay to be in unfavourable circumstances, that's not your fault. but you have control. you have the power to change them in an instant. so get up and start acting like the most powerful person in the universe yk why? because YOU ARE. stop being like "oh nooo i'll wait till a full moon i'll do it tomorrow" shut your goofy ass up time isnt an excuse to not have your dream life. so youre here now and you're thinking, "what do i do?" what have you learnt??? AFFIRM AND PERSIST. do what makes you feel fulfilled and trust that you're doing everything right. even if youre doubtful keep persisting.

loass sayings that make it click for me

your subconscious doesn't have eyes.

the 3d is a mirror. your thoughts must move in order for the 3d to move.

manifesting is instant. the moment you decide that it's yours, it is. the 3d has no choice but to conform to your desires.

the only thing stopping you is you.

if you want it, you can have it.

what are you waiting for? start acting like you have everything you want. no limitations!

hoenat
1 year ago

AWEEEEEE

β˜… β€” i’ve never known someone like you. (glue song 🀭)

β˜… β€” synopsis: random things that include dating them!!

β˜… ft. izu, denki, sho, sero, shinsou, jirou, ochako, toga

 β˜… β€” I’ve Never Known Someone Like You. (glue Song 🀭)

izuku β€” patching him up after training/ a fight, study dates, cooking with him, holding hands in the halls, smiling all the time, him blushing over the littlest things, matching pajamas, #1 hype man, glancing at each other in class, good morning and good night texts.

denki β€” his head in your lap as you play with his hair, painting his nails, drawing hearts on his hands, listening to music in the kitchen, facetiming all night, matching onsies, doing his eyeliner, going to n arcade and beating him at every game, whispering and giggling in class.

shoto β€” telling each other all your problems, admiring how pretty you are in class, best friends to lovers, stargazing, flustered at any physical affection you give him, painting with him, moving your hair out of your face for you, cheek kisses.

sero β€” teaching you to skateboard, getting fast food at 1am, having his arm slung over your shoulder, movie dates, laying on the roof together, giving you his jacket when your cold, hugging you from behind, doing facemasks together.

shinsou β€” gossiping at 5am, annoying you to get your attention, being protective over you, sneaking over to his dorm, sarcastic nicknames, cooking for you, playing video games all night, messing with his hair.

jirou β€” listening to music, holding hands, teasing each other, her doing your makeup, being flustered around you, teaching you guitar, painting her nails, late night phone calls, wearing her band shirts, concert dates, dragging her out of bed, cuddling.

ochako β€” watching studio ghilbi movies, small pecks on the lips n cheek, giving her gifts, always checking up on you, being taller than her, study dates, best friends to lovers fr, her being flustered over everything, walking around the city at night.

toga β€” her doing your hair so you can match, deep n long talks on the roof, going to the convince store at 3am, gushing over how cute and pretty you are, being gentle around you, hugging you 24/7, patching her up after a fight, constantly reminding you how much she loves you.

hoenat
1 year ago

ive never understood that when you have a problem the only way to get rid of it is not identifying with the problem and letting yourself be, but then what will actually take care of that problem? how is to let yourself be? is it to recognize you’re not the body-mind?

Ive Never Understood That When You Have A Problem The Only Way To Get Rid Of It Is Not Identifying With

read this first part

i spent like 5 minutes looking for a 4dbarbie post that fits your question, but the thing is they all do. i could put like 10 posts here, but that's not helpful. i need you to act from the understanding and see what happens.

(world includes body and mind too)

world is just thoughts in mind

mind is not real

so, world is not real in the way that you think it is

it seems real

so problem not real

are you gonna allow a thought to filter natural perfection? this happens when you identify with it

try it and see. take attention away from anything you want. remember to be honest with yourself, so many times you can be like "I've moved on" but you actually haven't.

hoenat
1 year ago

LISTEN UPPP. And listen up good.

all the questions in my asks are the same worded differently. so i'll make a long post answering multiple points

The idea that there is a world outside of yourself is just your thought that there is a world. Body dies, alright? It dies. And with no one, no senses to perceive a world, the world goes as well. Both poof, both disappear.

YOU still exist. Can you imagine not existing????

Even when body, which is matter, goes, who you think you are (the personality) still stays. Here's how I know, not just from my documentation:

Before I discovered manifesting, back in 2019, I had a very poor sleep schedule, it was like 9-10 in the morning, I haven't slept all night, mentally I was wide awake but my body was so exhausted it felt so heavy on me. Mentally I was completely fine, so I had a hard time falling asleep. But I did. Or so I thought. Because as soon as I did I found 'myself' above my body, looking down at it. Reminder, I had no experience with spirituality, I watched a series about astral projecting in the past (Through her eyes on Netflix) but I won't say I believed it, or even contemplated that I could do it. Obviously when this happened none of my thoughts went to astral projection. I panicked so hard, if I had a body I would have been having 10 panic attacks a second and hyperventilating. I thought I was dead. That was my first thought. I was dead. I went from my bedroom to my parents, desperately calling for my mom, but no one was home, it was 10AM, weekday in the summer, and both my parents were at work. I was afraid to leave my parents room and go outside the house, because 1) my screaming was inaudible, even though I WAS screaming "MOM save me" with everything I had πŸ˜† 2) nobody could see me, i couldn't even see me, i was not even a cloud, i was nothing, how could anybody interact with me? 3) i was scared that if i went much farther away from my body, outside, then I would be abandoning it & really make it disappear since I was nowhere around it. What I did was go back to my bedroom, scream my name in my face telling myself to wake up. It didn't work, 'I' didn't hear me either. So my next action plan was to give myself CPR. I had no body, but what other choice did I have except attempt at resurrecting myself? I went full in, wanting to push whatever weight I had (none) onto my chest, and I... plunged. I was in the body again, wide awake now, shaking like a leaf and ready to cry. I was so panicked, I had a hard time believing I was actually alive. I was looking at my arms still unsure if I was dreaming or awake. I texted the only friend I knew I'd find up at that hour to confirm that they were getting my texts and I was real. I did start crying when I started explaining to them of how I "dreamed" I was dead. I had no other way to explain it to myself, let alone another person. That was the scariest experience of my life. I was afraid to go back to sleep. I kept my friend up with me for longer than an hour just talking to me so I could come back to my senses. I was legitimately afraid that if I close my eyes and fall asleep, I'll lose my body again. That I would die for real now. Then I settled to this being "another chance" (lol now) and I swore I'll fix my sleeping habits (because they lead me to death LOL again)

If you want more technical info on my experience with astral projecting: I could see but not as clear as I see with my eyes. The images were blurry but not blurry enough to not know where I was or what I was seeing, but blurry enough to not be able to tell if the body was breathing, hence the extra panic. (I've read that the more you do it, the better it gets and you end up seeing normally/clearly) You can check out Bob Monroe's journey with astral projection if it's something you're interested in. I can only explain it as floating in the air, I could go down or go up, change the perspective of my sight in whichever way I wanted. Body is on the ground so you know, perspective is quite limited from it. My angle was from above but I had a wider range of perspectives.

Back to the point, body dies. Personality is left. You are left with 'yourself'. But what is 'yourself' is only an idea you made up about yourself. An idea that you were born, had this body, developed this personality, and that is you. What're you gonna do now when there's no world and no body to interact with? Why stay like this when there's no one to know what you were before? You stay like this because you're attached to this personality. But being like this in nothing will get boring, eventually, so boring that you will be willing to lose this you have now to be something/someone else because it's the only entertainment you have. So you become another person, and another, and another... so many you are attached to none any more and they're just experiences YOU want to have. WELL WHO IS YOU IF YOU CAN ADD ANOTHER PERSONALITY ONTO IT?

Free will and "real" life

The free will of the character is so limited it's none. The extent of Ada's free will in making decisions goes "Yeah, I'll break up with Joe and get with Rowan. Rowan is a better fit for me because my personality is this and his is that and we go well together yada yada" Who's to say Harry wouldn't have been an even better fit, but she had no choice because she only knew Joe and Rowan. TRANSLATION: character only makes do with what it has. It's all it can do. Making choices in a play you're a part of doesn't change the overall destiny (Have you ever played any of those 'choose your story' games? They give you the illusion that the choice you make alters the character's life, when in reality most is decided already and you're making no dent in the plot). And yes, it's true that I can change the beliefs Ada has, therefore alter the plot (what manifesting mostly is), but it's a very hard process, conditioning an already extremely limited and conditioned thing. I can change her destiny only if I manage to change her beliefs (which are usually very strong and egos are very stubborn). Past is remembered all the time so whenever I try to make a change in her thinking the reasoning part of her brain goes "But HOW can I suddenly be lucky when all my life I've had bad luck? It's just very hard to believe." And it is, and she is right. And then you think you're weak minded for not being able to do it.

Listen. Your brain is a very limited thing. It stores memories and habits of this body and that's all it knows.

Mind (is synonymous with consciousness!) contains all, every conception, but identifies itself with one in particular for the duration of the play. The brain is the mind of that character, and all the character knows.

BLIND FAITH IS STUPID.

If Vanessa isn't naive or easily trusting, that girl is never gonna take some stranger's word for it that she can change her life by thinking she's gorgeous and powerful all of a sudden. She will try and try (to recondition herself and do what she's been told that works) but she doesn't really believe because she doesn't see it so nothing comes of it. Changes are small, mindset might be better (she may be overall happier depending on the amount of reconditioning of her brain she managed to do, or she goes insane and her mental health is even worse because she's always finding things to change with herself, trying and trying and trying in this never ending cycle of being better, doing more). Basically, Vanessa is doomed either way and she has limited power even when she thinks she's the shit. "Trust in God, I AM, your higher self!", "Have faith and it will work!" Well, I, as Ada, can't. I am very stubborn you see. I can't believe in waiting bringing me stuff about. Who's this higher self anyway, why is it making me wait and have faith? What's this law with its blind faith, except remastered religion?

Enough. What you are, you see. You are Vanessa or Lara, okay, you are because you believe you are. And you're right! It's true, you are, your eyes are working fine and your life might be hell 😍 what do you have to lose if YOU CHANGE YOUR MIND and think "What if I wasn't?" Streams and floods of better ideas of what you could've been/could be come through, don't they? "That's so nice if it were trueπŸ₯Ί" Alrightie then! That must be the solution, no? Not be Vanessa? Well how do I stop being Vanessa? How (the big HOW!!) do you know you are Vanessa except by your belief that you are Vanessa? πŸ€·β€β™€οΈ To know a different thing you must stop thinking this one is true first? "Got it, it's not!", "But even if it's not me I am seeing her life and her 'reality'?", "I am unaffected by the events now, but how do I stop seeing them?" Are you, though? You sure it has nothing to do with you anymore? Fine I'll take your word for it ☺️ Now start thinking you're a different thing. BUT THE SAME EVENTS OF HER LIFE HAPPEN?! Really, how so? World has no standing except for your thought of it, be honest with yourselves, not me. I'll reenact what you're doing.

"Ada, your depression is not real. Your house is not real. Your parents are not real." "Yes, they are, I see them!", "Don't invalidate my experience, I have TRAUMA😠" that's how the convo goes. Then you get disinterested in the convo, "Alright I'm tired of your problems, not me". And you feel lighter, you feel better. You soothed your mind for the time being, there's no big feelings now that you don't identify yourself with her...

For a while, because then something happens and you still believe it's there and it's real and you have to somehow deal with it. You're back confusing the 'you' with Vanessa. "I'm seeing the parents and the world again, that must mean I did it wrong?" I need to ask, seek more. Where do I go from this? WOULD YOU CARE WHAT HAPPENED NEXT, SEEING THE SAME WORLD TOMORROW, IF YOU REALLY DISBELIEVED VANESSA IS YOU OR YOUR BUSINESS? WOULD YOU CARE, I ask you.

"I don't care... but what do I do next, I'm lostπŸ₯Ί"

"Of course I care!!! I want a better life!!!" Who's you?, you go back to the beginning of the post again, you especially read it five times more actually.

To answer the first:

Think what you want.

Past doesn't come up anymore, memories don't come up anymore after you've ignored - detached yourself enough. They just don't. You can think freely now about being something different. If you can't, don't get mad, don't blame, only know that the one that's doubting isn't you, so the doubts are totally fine to be. They'll be for a while and then they dissolve too, because by ignoring, not getting involved - you forget. And by forgetting not only do you free up so much mental space, but possibilities of what can be become unnumbered.

All you are doing is becoming lucid. Becoming able to control the dream. You won't be able to, unless you step out of it. That is, stop thinking this story you tell yourself is true. You won't be able to get mad, sad, or even frustrated at whatever is playing in front of you, because to be involved to this extent you have to think you're it, it's an actual thing "you" are going through. That's not to say you'll become an emotionless robot (the only thing unlimited abt you guys rn is your worries, so much that i have to address them in advance), but that you will feel your emotion in the present and not remain mentally scarred by it forever. You will be able to say "alright, no more" when you've had your fill of crying, being angry, throwing a fit. Emotions won't be able to rule you anymore, right now, they fully do. You are their prisoner. Your ego dominates you so completely.

When Vanessa is no longer all you are, you'll be able to 'change reality' the way you change the film in a video projector. You'll be able to have as much fun in the play as you want to, change it when you no longer want this one specifically. The emotions of the character are fun and welcomed, because they no longer imprison you, there's the background of love to it all - that once you gain, it can't be lost, it's ever present.

That being said, please stop asking me questions about fulfilling or persisting, they're from another planet in this state.

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