AKUSAIMONTH 2015: BERSERK Day 19: SET C - “Crush My Heart”
The first thing I felt was a stinging pain carved in my face.
I touched my cheek with a shaking hand and so the second thing I felt was wet and sticky and warm and it suddenly made me taste iron on my lips.
The third thing I felt was breathing. My own, deep but burning in my chest, and that of another, calm, below me. Another. Another person.
I tried to wipe away the blood from my eyes and moved to lift myself up. It was hard, my whole body felt heavy, but I managed to prop myself up on one arm. And there you were.
Breathing, motionless. I stared at your face. Alive, but unmoving. I tried to say your name, but nothing came out, my lips wet with blood but dry anyway and my throat numb. I didn’t know how long I hovered over you, but it was the realization that I was dripping blood onto your face that finally made me sit back.
I didn’t know why I was bleeding again. I didn’t know why I was lying on the floor or why you were there (asleep? unconscious?). But I realized I did know where I was. My breath started to hitch and I felt my stomach clench as I recognized the room where we had lost our hearts. Where you tried to save me, where I gave in anyway, my heart taken from me and my face carved.
Why were we here?
Did this mean… that it was … over?
Was I... back…? Was I …
Was I me again?
Sometimes as a Nobody I had tried to imagine how it would feel when my heart would be returned. I thought I’d feel relief or maybe even happiness. But in reality all I felt was pain and grief and a horror I couldn’t even place but that gripped me so tightly it blocked out everything else. When tears finally came I didn’t stop them. They burned in the cuts on my cheeks, but I barely felt it. I sat next to your unmoving body and I wept for the first time in years, until finally someone came rushing into the room, screaming your name and taking both of us away.
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Welp, guess you just unlocked the Secret Sketch I Didn’t Think I’d Upload Anywhere Ever™:
(This is completely based on that one line of Zavier’s theme song Homemade Dynamite. Which is also why Danny wears a t-shirt. Which is sad, because I love victorian era clothing.)
You know, if Tara Sim didn’t want me to ship these two, she shouldn’t have let Danny push Zavier against a window. Or have Zavier obsess so much about Danny. Or better yet, not have them interact at all. I love and adore Danny and Colton’s relationship, and if they don’t have a happy end together, I’ll probably riot. But I’m so down for this OT3. I mean, the only interaction between Zavier and Colton I got so far was like five lines during which Zavier was an absolute ass and still. (I love him. How can one person be so brilliant and so utterly dumb at the same time. I love him so much. I fear, we’ll have to share custody over him, because he’s my son too.)
So, tl;dr I think you will have a hard time scaring me off. ✨💪
I’ll make sure to check the other blogs out too, once I’m done with Firestarter! Thanks for the suggestions! And thanks for the warm welcome! 🙈
omg, good blog!!! I can't follow you right now, because I haven't read Firestarter yet (have to wait another week before I can get it) and I am very afraid of spoilers, but I just want you to know that you are very much appreciated!
Hey, anytime!! Welcome to the fandom ❤️❤️ A dew fair warnings about my blog… I’m an avid Hellhart shipper (Danny x Colton x Zavier), which will make more sense the more you read. I also love Zavier and post excessively about him but—he is my son.
I am so happy that we have a new member of our steampunk family though, and I will try my best not to scare you off!! 😄
If you’re ever looking for other good Timekeeper blogs, @dannys-left-arm @incorrect-timekeeper @x-pixiewitch-x @festus-is-deprestus and the author herself, @tarasimauthor are all wonderful. We’re so happy to have you!! And we all love your beautiful artwork 😘
So, I had been wondering about a ship name for these two. Maybe NightWeight, after their surnames. Or Jorsa, like a mixup of their first names.
Turns out, we’re apparently going with their callsigns. So, SpinFace is it.
Honestly, this is simultaneously the best and the worst name ever and I love it.
I know people claim there’s no romance in Brandon Sanderson’s Skyward, but that’s not true. It’s just the most amazing and realistically written rivals to friends to lovers slow burn I’ve ever seen.
Honestly, I just love Jerkface and Spin with my entire being.
That's what happens, when I've got nothing to do at work.
New avatar! Plus a coloured version - AND the unwanted norted version, that happened when I accidentally activated all layers except the blue one (which included the skin layer copy I had). Ironic.
You know, I’ve got so many favourite characters. Quiet a few characters I feel a certain connection to, in whom I recognize a part of myself … and still Saix is special. Not like he’s got a special place in my heart, but more like he is my heart. I’m never going to escape this guy ever again in my whole life.
“Seems like you’re suddenly part of this, Blue Prince.”
Because the name "Blue Prince" made me laugh too hard. (And because "a long day" sounds very exhausting.)
To you, keybladess It's your fault after all. xDD
And goodbye year of Xion. :) I wish everyone of you all the best for the new year, may it be healthy and successful and full of joy!
Ira suffers so much, he feels an immense guilt over his actions, still he carries on, because he knows (was led to believe) that this is the only way to save the world. Of all of the Foretellers, he's the most selfless. He consciously acts against his personal believes and wishes in order to fulfill the higher goal. He can’t even allow himself to feel anymore, because he knows, it’d break him.
… I wish he had someone who was there for him and gave him strength when he needs it. It’s so sad to see him like that.
Let me face my fears.
(Isa’s new hair colour looks like space and I love it.)
AKUSAIMONTH | 2018 Day 1: Dawn & Dusk
“But you'll never be alone, I'll be with you from dusk till dawn.“
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Dia (she/her); I draw because I love it ✨ Enjoy your stay!
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