They say it's about the journey, not the destination. But have you thought about the promise of a starting point? A crossroad? The flicker of hope a choice gives you, the feeling of power surging through you veins no matter how disillusioned.
I've taken several trains in my life, never thought too much about it. But the platform? The cold bench which once seemed warm when I sat with you? Yeah, I don't think about that as much as I used to.
It's beautiful now, if you were wondering. The legs and the metallic armrests of the bench have served as an anchor for a creeping ivy to sustain itself. It could be a bougainvillea, I wouldn't be able to tell the difference. The only time I've paid attention was when I was picking one for you.
My father, when teaching me to calm my anxious mind, asked me to view myself in a black room with everything thought in my head- slowly pushing each one behind a closed door, clearing the space till it's just me. No matter how much I tried, I never got to the dark room. I was always left at the station, on our bench, with my last thought - your name.
Our fleeting forever, the starting point I'll always cherish because the journey continued despite my protests.
"I am what I think you think I am"
I heard this while listening to "on purpose" by jay shetty and it's been stuck with me ever since. Sometimes we become those versions of ourselves that we think other people might think about us. If someone ever called you intellectual you would feel great about it but now you would be scared to disappoint them so you would inevitably act like it. The problem begins when you start looking for that validation, when you want them to say it again just because it made you feel good. When someone specifically points out that you are selfish and you start to sabotage yourself.
The only person capable enough to validate you should be you, yourself.
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If you want, we can watch the moon together
Sylvia Plath // Fyodor Dostoyevsky
you don't have to show your scars to anyone to prove that you've fought a battle.
Ac mai bhi itna Sweat kr kaise leti hai aap?
my heart is made of baby pink velvet