Are the societal standards bothering you or some people’s standards ?
really, no one should have to change their core unless it’s rotten or infested with pests.
I really don't know honestly I can't pin point one person here. All my life I have heard enough about how selfless I am and maybe some of them even think I am dumb but well I couldn't care any less. But every time I choose myself or take decisions for me the very same people make me feel like I have committed an arson. Double standards maybe? And that is why I don't like hearing it again and again. So well I am fine with choosing myself because every time I choose someone above me it just gets heavy for them? Idk? So they leave mostly or I try not to put myself in a position to get abandoned which clearly means not opening up to them. Idk If that makes sense to you but yeah.
Sylvia Plath // Fyodor Dostoyevsky
—Sylvia Plath, "Apprehensions"
Sometimes it feels like a lie to call myself a poet --
The world is a gorgeous, ethereal place --
All I've ever done is, do my best to use what little words I have to tell you what my eyes have happened to see, and, what my heart has happened to feel.
I'm just another of life's many plagiarists --
Stealing experiences for myself and pretending they're words born from my soul --
So what's the term, then, when the universe's machinations bring me across someone like you, and my heart is filled with so many words that I could write a thousand novels?
A poet?
A thief?
Or simply a woman with a mind, taken, filled to the brim by chance, with desire, need, and affection?
"Could you even describe the warmth of a glowing moon?" V. Rue, 2025.