"good Things Come To Those Who Wait Around"

throwback to the one time I wrote two male best friends- Matthews and Izumi- in a war-prone world with impending doom and Matthews turned out to have been a spy from the enemy nation all along, but then he betrayed his country three chapters later cuz he had begun caring fr about Izumi.

And did i tell that Izumi almost punched him but then realized he couldnt even raise a fist at that face and broke down crying.

then the Matthews dies under the meteor to save Izumi.

And the final conversation was supposed to be like, Matthews in Izumi's arms imagine.

"Maybe in another life, we could have been something more." Matthews lets out a short laugh which turns to cough.

"More than enemies?"

"More than best friends."

Izumi stares, unblinking. "You already are. You always will be."

BUT MATTHEWS EYES ARE CLOSED NOW, IZUMI REALISES. SO DID HE HEAR THAT? OR NOT? but izumi breaks down crying anyway, repeating 'you always will be' over and over again.

And yea, it took me a hot minute before writing that scene to realize, "wait, this lowkey gay."

got into tears of themis so bad recently but too broke to buy foreign merch, so diy we go:

Bad lighting x)

VOLUME 5 MOMENTS THAT I ADORE (HUALIAN MY BELOVED) (ft. TINY HUA CHENG!!!!!)

1) Xie Lian watched him in a daze, not speaking a word.

Hua Cheng frowned slightly. “Your Highness, you…” Suddenly, Xie Lian’s free hand reached out and pinched Hua Cheng’s cheek. Hua Cheng’s eyes widened as his face changed shape from the entirely unexpected squishing.

“…Gege!”

Xie Lian laughed. “Ha ha ha ha ha ha…sorry, San Lang, but you’re too cute; I can’t help myself. Ha ha ha ha…” Hua Cheng was speechless.

2) Hua Cheng clasped his hands behind him. “Yes. I’ve endured this for too long. I can’t wait any longer.”

Just as he finished talking, Xie Lian slipped his hands under Hua Cheng’s arms and lifted him. He raised him high in the air and laughed.

“It’ll be such a shame! I won’t be able to pick you up like this once you’re grown again. I’d better hug you as much as I can right now. Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha…”

3) Xie Lian held Hua Cheng even tighter, and his hand smoothed his hair.

4) Hua Cheng reached out and lifted Xie Lian’s chin. “His temper is certainly nice, but mine is bad. No one but me can touch the things I love.”

5) “Try touching him, I dare you,” Hua Cheng warned frigidly. “Do you think I would so easily allow you lot to touch my heart’s dearest treasure?”

6) Only a single “ha” had left his lips when Xie Lian flung out his silk bandage; it whipped out so hard that Pei Ming was almost sent flying. He only barely dodged with a backward leap.

“Your Highness, just how deeply do you treasure Hua-chengzhu? Can’t even take a joke?”

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Ps. I LOVE PROTECTIVE XIE LIAN.

Reading Jane Austen and thinking, 'woah. Fresh breath, the way she writes romance. Love as not just an emotion, but a choice. Kindness being the most precious qualities.' And then realizing her stories are centuries old.

Her works were way ahead of her time. They understood what most people still fail to grasp these days. Just. Timeless.

Reading volume 4 of Eighty Six and I cannot help but share the quotes/moments that bring me immense feels. Damn this angst. (In no particular order.)

1]

"You don't have to do this anymore. You have no sins to atone for. No one's condemning you, so please stop--stop trying to bear a cross that doesn't exist."

~Shin to Lena.

2]

"We wouldn't do something as pathetic as hanging ourselves just because our deaths were predetermined, nor would we sit idly by, counting the days until the end. If we have to die, we'll live each day without regrets-always smiling in the face of death. That was our one and only form of resistance. "

-Shin.

3]

"Leaving such things as they are even when you know they’re wrong is tantamount to supporting them."

-Lena.

LOUDER for people in the back 👏

4]

'“Those kids, they aren’t strong. They simply understood that they had to be strong to survive, and in the process of trying to become strong, they instead cut off anything that made them weak.”

It wasn’t that they weren’t hurt. It was that they hurt so much they had to cut off anything that allowed them to feel pain…?'

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In conclusion? I should have started reading this piece of art earlier. The LNs are amazing.

Friendly reminder that gender, sexuality and your fashion sense absolutely do not have to reflect each other and are things IRRESPECTIVE OF EACH OTHER.

You can absolutely be comfortable with your she/her pronouns, with being a woman and still choose to have a masc presenting fashion sense. You can be completely cool with your assigned gender and still cross dress.

Feeling pretty? Floral? Gay? Hella boyish? Like a princess? A drag queen? A white swan or a black crow?

Go for it. Absolutely go for it!!

PS. If you are a minor and stuck in a rather unaccepting environment, please don't let go of yourself or your identity, but keep yourself safe. College will be better. Growing up will make this aspect easier. You will move out. Wait for the financial independence and then go for it!! <3

finished reading PnP and now i officially hate all the literary references that modern romances (like The Fine Print) make to PnP. Like no. Darcy was not a cold-hearted, empathy-devoid asshole like your male lead, maam. He was a little awkward, obstinate, prideful and *successfully* reflects that by HIMSELF and works on himself, not just to get the girl, but because thats what good men do.

Seriously, the only modern PnP reference i like anymore is probably like, good omens or something.

link click withdrawal is hittin hard rn, ill just try consuming something else to escape

Started reading tgcf today and im already 200 pages in 🥹

Here are some of moments that made me go 🤭😏