June (jolly Jraining)
june (jolly jraining)
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really had to force the jalliteration (jmastermind ji jknow)
also, before anyone tells me that the title doesn't make sense
yes it does.
sorry for the lack of posts in may, it was a mess and nothing was very new from april so i thought it wouldn't be very notable to write about.
this month has been a whirl wind of events. most notably, i applied and got into a summer residential at the University of South Wales, i'm afraid because of my parents and their safety concerns, i won't be able to attend. i also got tickets to an open day at a film school in London! whether or not i'll be able to attend in July is still quite unclear.
i also went on a bus and travelled outside of my own city for the first time, which was super, super stressful but also really exciting! even if it was a village only 20 minutes away, the friend i was supposed to meet slept in that day and had me bawling on the empty street before grabbing the first bus i saw and hoping i was going the right way. another friend from mosque ended up taking me out to try Baskin Robbins (their chocolate brownie fudge ice cream is to die for)
if there's anything i'm going to always remember from this month though, it has to be my first time at the theatre to see WICKED! at The Apollo Victoria.
I can't even begin to describe it, every detail was on point, the staging felt so real it was surreal, it felt more like a movie than a live performance with all the effects and fantastical props (especially the Wizards giant puppet) and costuming (the emerald city costumes were my favorite) the *minor spoilers* love triangle was very unexpected when it was first introduced, I like how perfectly the narrative fit with the original story of The Wizard of Oz instead of twisting it. Defying Gravity gave me goosebumps. if i had to have one complaint, it would be that the crowds cheering didn't let me catch every word.
After the show was over we got to have our own little qna with the main ensemble, i can't remember everything off the top of my head but the two parts that stuck with me were the answers on starting their careers and being constantly rejected at first. Fieros actor had said "it's not rejection, it's redirection" and the actor for Glinda saying that everyone has a thing "let's say yours is wearing pink, even if you get rejected because of that keep doing it, you'll eventually find someone else who loves wearing pink too". She had called it a weird analogy afterwards, but it was on repeat in my head and pink happens to be my favourite color to wear so it felt a little special coming from someone so cool.
that same day we got to walk around London and all i can say is that I've never felt so at home. well, until next time! Amina
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thoughts while watching euphoria (pt 2)
23:22 - 22 Jan 2022
SPOILERS
- kats a shitty friend, like come on girl, you can literally hear maddy crying and you blow her off so you can give snakebite guy (who you’ve met like once before) head?
-fuck
nate
jacobs
(further explanation isn’t necessary)
- also another thing i noticed is in nates little monologue about traits he likes in women, he strays away from anything masculine - forcing himself away from anything that could pertain to his sexuality
- the parallels between nate and his dad are disturbing as fuckk
, the scene where he met jules as tyler gave me chills, like when he stuck his finger in her mouth??LITERALLY the same words and tone. meeting maddy at the motel too.chills.
- zendaya is amazing, like so so amazing
- to clarify about the unrealistic portrayal of teenagers, i am not referring to the drug culture, i mean the way they talk, dress in school, kat is a fucking camgirl and in highschool. yes, drug culture is prevalent among teenagers almost everywhere and euphoria puts it centre stage, if i had one thing to comment about it though, fez is a bit too caring to be rue’s dealer, letting her into his house, paying for the fentanyl..so on so on. - want to see more of lexi, her position as cassies sister and rues childhood friend makes her very interesting. we’ve just started ep 5 bitchhhh, its almost midnight though, so post tmrw. ~Amimi
if you're not obsessed with anything weird and niche please try harder. stop going outside for a while. consider getting weirder about the things you already like
update: kinda late but oh well, exam was alr but not as good as i wanted - at first i was really distraught but then i reminded myself of those supposed literature nerds who write Scrooge/Marley fanfics on ao3 and how failing literature meant i was definitely not one of them :D
English teachers, You either did something incredibly right or incredibly wrong when teaching A Christmas Carol in GCSE English because there is 34 works under the tag Jacob Marley/Ebenezer Scrooge on ao3. A few of them are tagged with references to GCSEs.
me who hasn’t posted in an annoyingly long time
sorry bois, bros, girls, people, guys, cats, dogs,otherkin and aliens - i’ve been more focused on school and mosque lately - especially with ramadan - i’m gonna try and make posts bi-weekly and que stuff up so my 42 besties have something to work with lol feeling kinda shitty and wanting to squeeze something and watch the life drain out of it’s eyes - Amimi
2am, sweater weather, french, books, pastel flower patterned curtains, a moonless night, warm candlelight, artwork tacked onto walls, materials strewn across the floor, grey furry rugs, white furniture with silver hardware, 3 white walls and a single sage green, antique jewellery boxes from my grandma, memory box on my bedside table, rings and chokers, earrings and necklaces, nail files, jade rollers, makeup brushes, matte lipstick
I hate it when your parents are like “I know you better than you know yourself!” Like no you don’t
april anxiety (among additional activities)
Thursday 23rd April 2023 - 7:32pm
Alliteration! so stuffs gone down this month lol!!! i'm not doing so well right now but i think collecting my thoughts and letting 52 people read them is a fun way of coping. i'm really behind on school work, like half a year behind due to constantly being ill. if i don't catch up i was told i might have to sit AS-Level Sociology (40% of an A-level) which means in turn that i'd have to stay in school for an extra year sitting another subject not of my choice. they want a meeting aswell which really really really can't happen currently, i don't have school equipment but hopefully i can pull through?!?!?! idk maybe things will get better soon until next time! Amina
ps - this has been sitting in my drafts and its now june... idk how that happened
key studying tips
- revision guides, revision guides REVISION GUIDES! did i mention revision guides? trust me on this, i was failing science recently and my brother gave me a bunch of his old revision guides since he’s off to uni and they help sooo much. ask your teachers about material in your subjects, flag it down in your revision books (i do this with those lil neon sticky notes) and study, study, study (reblogged a post or two on learning material for those who may need it - indirect recommendation from stalking my friend @mohkomx) revise, rinse and repeat (make sure to takes breaks inbetween!) - going hand in hand with revision guides, studying from books, it reduces screentime and is just better for your eyes mind and health in general (plus i find i remember way more from books then from reading from my laptop?) - music in the background, best to use plain stuff like lofi since i tend to find stuff with lyrics distracting (i listen to lofi livestreams on youtube) or plain piano - here’s my favourite list of songs!. if you’re from a noisy household like me, invest a pair of noise blocking headphones but don’t blast music, keep it at a medium-low sound level -last but not least, notes are key, minimalist, highlighter-freak, whatever you are make sure you take proper notes and keep them neat. imagine you’re taking them for someone who’s life rests on your very nice note-taking shoulders. reading back on them really does help. til next time! Amimi
