If You're Not Obsessed With Anything Weird And Niche Please Try Harder. Stop Going Outside For A While.

HELP, all the tiktoks about the new dahmer series made me rediscover my AHS phase, and i'm telling you the GRIPPP evan peters has on me rn is even tighter than when i used to cry myself to sleep at 12 knowing i couldn't have him

pied piper is the best bts song, change my mind.

april anxiety (among additional activities)

Thursday 23rd April 2023 - 7:32pm

Alliteration! so stuffs gone down this month lol!!! i'm not doing so well right now but i think collecting my thoughts and letting 52 people read them is a fun way of coping. i'm really behind on school work, like half a year behind due to constantly being ill. if i don't catch up i was told i might have to sit AS-Level Sociology (40% of an A-level) which means in turn that i'd have to stay in school for an extra year sitting another subject not of my choice. they want a meeting aswell which really really really can't happen currently, i don't have school equipment but hopefully i can pull through?!?!?! idk maybe things will get better soon until next time! Amina

ps - this has been sitting in my drafts and its now june... idk how that happened

if quarantine doesn’t end soon i’m gonna do something illegal

the rain and the empty streets and silence makes me want to sneak out at night with my black scarf covering my nose and mouth and break into an vintage bookshop and just sit there and read til dawn then leave with precious manuscripts handwritten by the author (preferably jk rowling and harry potter) 

 chloé stafler's french cover of sweater weather slapped me across the face with a french textbook and i took the hit gladly

hi its 30 mins past midnight, I'll be sure to post the rest of the updates and recaps soon! I've been occupied with ppe revision and I'm getting really humbled rn over crying over a guy I haven't even dated or spoken to for that long so yay ig, I'll see you all next week

autumn is here boys and girls

its time for my array of sweaters to shine.

romantic things i yearn for

- dancing in the rain, no music, just heavy heavy rain - being surprised with glow in the dark stars stuck on the ceiling in pitch black while leaning on one another - learning to ice/roller skate with your partner - blanket forts and pjs, watching whatever cheesy movies you used to love as a kid - bike rides at night, preferably when its sweater weather season - nerf gun wars while diving behind furniture ( or level that up to paintballing as a team ) - aquariums ( standing together in dark spots surrounded by the dim glow of the tanks is the most romantic thing ) - last but not least, romantic and simplistic, just talking while sitting down and facing eachother for hours and hours (this wasn’t a dark academic post like normal but oh well lol - if you liked this post you’ll also like the post i did titled da dates noone will do w/ me - check that out!) - Amimi

the last day of secondary school (surprisingly never cried)

i'm making this post as just a literal dump of all my memories today so forgive me if its all over the place. this morning i was in a panic over my chemistry exam (which i definitely didn't get an A in but oh well) i showed my outfit to my friends (a cottagecore-inspired thing with puff sleeves and a small flower pattern, black tights - i was supposed to wear pumps but i forgot them smh) and i really found out who my real friends were. upon showing them ( O and L is what we'll call them ) for my irl friends on here it's very very obvious who they are. L, i found has a problem she won't say to me - i dont want to look back on this with bad memories so i won't go into detail. O is one of the greatest friends i've ever had. she makes me feel like myself which is the best thing a friend can do for you today i danced (like a stripper at some moments) in a party with my best friend, in a hall with a DJ in the booth, smoke machines and flashing lights with a cup of ice in my hand. (and maybe heartbreak number one was staring but i found i didn't care about him) Life feels like a movie. I went to town, i felt like i was having a real teenage experience for the first time on the last day of secondary school. today was a confidence boost. maybe i got looks from cuties too (but don't base your self worth on men - gaslight, gatekeep, girlboss) i felt pretty for the first time in such a long time, even with my skin breaking out. when i walked back to school to pick up my bag and the equipment, i didn't go to the blue balcony outside the art rooms like i've done every day for a year to reminisce and cry. i'm so tired of crying. i think today i reached some kind of self acceptance too, which is one of the best parts. The sky is so blue today. God, I Love Life. ~ Amimi