To: Heaven

Go My Dragon

This melody ringing in my ears,

I would have hated you with my heart,

If I wasn't so entranced.

I would have chosen to go deaf,

I would have rather buried myself deep in Earth,

If you haven't stolen my heart from my hand.

Oh my dragon, when you fall from grace

Or when you ascend to heaven,

Will you erase my memories?

When the night calls your name,

And when the chains break to set you free,

With you, will you not take me?

Go my dragon, I'll let you leave,

With my heart intertwined with yours,

I'll wait until I'm nothing,

But bones buried deep in greens.

A Wicked Dream

On the drenched grass she runs

Her hairs floating like forgotten memories

My eyes couldn't focus

Am I in a lucid dream?

Crushing the flowers beneath her feet

Darling step on my heart

My ribs tearing under her feet

I'd let her rip me apart.

The flimsy mist covering after her

I dance in her trance

A mesmerizing sweet laugh

She's made of lilies and charms.

The haze is getting deep

I wonder if I'll ever wake

Maybe I've strolled too far

The voices fading away.

I could listen the whispers

Now I follow and wait

She'll either guide me back

Or I'll be her willing prey.

The Tsunami falls apart when your lips meet mine.

Rereading The Cruel Prince and the way Cardan was so much obsessed with Jude that he didn't know what to do so he just wrote her name several times on the paper like a mantra crackles me up each time.

And the fact Jude thought he did it because he hate her Like GIRLL, he's mad obsessed over you!

I hate when the voices around me fade because I cannot stop wondering if i even matter.

Would you still love me if I was a phantom dancing in the castle you stumbled upon accidentally, with my blue dress flowing like a river and my hairs billowing in the midnight wind? Would you still love the apparition of me after 1000 years I waited for you? Would you still remember me...

I hear the whispers of your thoughts, even when you stutter I know what you feel.

Look at me and let me read your eyes. I'll let you haunt my dreams.

Dim lit windows

Dim lit windows at 1am, the record playing the same song,

Candles burning out, on the table are waiting more,

Pages filled with grief, her tears are the ink,

Dim lit windows at 1:30am, wonder if she ever sleeps.

Dim lit windows at 2:00am, the wind is blowing low,

Leaves rustle in the tree, a scent of caffeine from the stove,

Curtains left open, the red dress hanging from the door,

Dim lit windows at 2:30am, wonder if she didn't find a date for prom.

Dim lit windows at 3:00am, the rain is falling now,

Her shadow calmly walks upstairs, the cup of coffee left alone,

Caught the sight of her midnight black hair, the image was fickle,

Dim lit windows at 3:30am, the rain stopped, not a single ripple.

Dim lit windows at 4:00am, the curtains now closed,

Yet my thoughts are plagued by her and the melody of her favorite song,

The night is never dark for her, the street lamp making her feel at ease,

Dim lit windows at 5:00am, she has finally found peace in dreams.

A Careless Mistake

Strolling too deep, wilted leaves under my feet

I wish to run, scream and hide,

Yet I wander like a lost soul

My footsteps so quiet yet I can hear it behind me

No use to turn, it'll be gone until I find it.

My eyes so dry, I'm holding back tears

Yet I cannot show it my weakness,

It loves the sweet taste of my fear

It is addicted to the scent I leave behind

I wish to skin myself alive.

Calling out to me, it mocks my bravery

I hate myself for running into it's territory

It won't let me go until I'm on my knees

Begging for mercy it will never lay out for me.

I'm falling too deep as it creeps towards me

I know it has caught me and I'll never be free

The prison awaits me, I'm nothing in it's domain

I'll never be grieved cause I'll never be found again.

Before death, I must live.