I Need Someone To Kiss Me But I Swear To God The Thought Of Someone Kissing Me Makes Me Feel Sick.

Me and bestie did so much cuddling this weekend

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FIVE HARGREEVES in The Umbrella Academy season 3

School sucks

It’s Tuesday and so far this week:

Someone had to leave class to puke in my block one class yesterday so of course I had a panic attack (#emetophobia)

I worked myself to death so I could finish mh project for social studies just for him to extende the due date because of 1 group

Math is killing me. I just do not understand one concept and I haven’t had a chance to ask my teacher yet but of course my brain is telling me I’m stupid and should be in the lowest level of math

Physics kind of makes sense but I can’t stand it because that’s different then it should be because I’m bad at physics so I don’t like that it’s different

My plan changed yesterday because I thought I had therapy yesterday but it’s today so I had to change my whole plan for the week

I was late to math yesterday and I didn’t mean to

The hallways are loud and I can’t stand it but I keep forgetting my headphones in my locker

The cafeteria smells like food. It is bad

My mom keeps yelling at me for taking a nap after school. I try not to but if I don’t I can’t do homework

I feel like I’m in a constant state of almost shutting down

⬆️Same thing with not being able to talk

There’s only a week left till a HUGE change which is causing me to only think about that change and not my schoolwork

I have a change in my schedule today as well which I dreading

My mom hasn’t bought the snacks I like so I’m grasping for straws for my lunch

I still don’t know how to regulate myself at school or in general and it’s causing me to freak out

My bus driver plays really loud music

My fucking mom just said that me needing the right notebooks for school is the same as me using HER plastic bags.

I need the right notebooks so I actually take notes and don’t shut down and have a panic attack every time I go to school because, whether or not she wants to admit it, I am probably autistic and definitely neurodivergent.

She doesn’t want me to use her bags because she bought them.

I SAW THE BEST SHOW AT THE THEATRE FESTIVAL IM AT. IT WAS THE FIRST SHOW WE SAW AND IT WAS SO GOOD

My favourite colour is green…

Besties favourite colour is purple…

We were meant to be in a qpr

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I told my Christian friends about me and my qpr and it didn’t go horribly. They didn’t even say it was just besties!!!!

I thought reading a lot as a kid was supposed to make you better at spelling. Why is it that I can’t spell for shit.

Day one of exam week complete!

My family is talking about puking like it’s a joke and I feel like I’m going to cry

There is no reason to joke about “spewing pasta salad.”

I think my mom doesn’t think i still have “that random fear”

I actually hate it. I am constantly plagued by my fucking anxiety and adding a fear of puking when I work in a public space and go to school