#Work Song By Hozier But Platonically

PSA: if something helps you to function, other people have zero right to make fun off you.

If bringing a teddy bear with you help you to cope, bring it with you

If you watch shows that are “meant for children” because they comfort you, then keep on watching them because other people don’t have a say

This PSA is brought to you by present Fae and meant for future Fae

Going back to school sucks.

Everyone is much further ahead than me.

All my school friends can drive and I’m even a couple months older than them but I can’t drive. I don’t want to drive because it isn’t something I want to focuse on.

I could probably get my liscence but I don’t have a car in comfy driving. I don’t enjoy driving. But my mother and dad are always on my ass. I can’t even take my test. My dad’s truck isn’t reliable to take a test in and my mom’s car has a huge crack in the windshield.

Why would I spend money and get my parents to spend money so I can get my drivers when I have NO WHERE TO FUCKING GO.

And then there’s the whole problem with me not being able to function.

My mom wants me to get another job because I only get 12 hours on my pay stub but I can hardly handle that.

I can’t function at the same level as my peers and no one understands that

I told my therapist that I feels like my support needs are getting more and more. She basically told me that im just doing to much so they show up more.

That is not what’s happening. Last year I could handle going to work after school and doing therapy and hanging out with people.

Over a three month period now I can’t go to work without shutting down and I’m not going to school because of summer. Therapy takes everything out of me and I can only hang out with my one friend for more than 30 minutes at a time.

I’m doing less and I need more help. It makes no sense

And now I have a week to go back to school and everyone else in my grade is able to function normally and balance school and personal life and have a bunch of friends and drive and make time for themselves and work. And they can do that all with no help.

But when I tell my mom and dad that I don’t want to get my liscence because I zone out a lot when I’m alone, or when I throw a fit because something isn’t the way I like it, my parents say that I’m over reacting or I’m being lazy

I cleaned my room yesterday :)

I have stopped at a restaurant and got bubble tea and two donut things. Very good food

What movie should I force my bestie ( @grey-loves-vikings ) to watch with me for my birthday today!

We might watch multiple because MOVIES!!!

Happy birthday to me!!!

If they don’t come to somewhere near me I will LOOSE MY MIND.

BRIAN. COME TO *my location* OR ILL STEAL ALL YOUR HOT DOG BUNS

BRIAN I AM NOT PLAYING AROUND GIVE ME THE FUCKING TOUR DATES OR ELSE IM EATING ALL THE HOT DOGS IN THE WORLD

NEW FAVORITE CALMING THING JUST DROPPED

Drumroll please…

Your bestie braiding your hair while you watch aers favourite tv show after a long day :)

@grey-loves-dragons (thank you so much)💜💚

NICK KROLL IS IN WHAT WE DO IN THE SHADOWS!!!!

IM SO EXCITED TO START WATCHING IT!!!

My current list before I can watch it:

Finish glee (1 season left)

Finish big mouth watch through (5.5 seasons left)

Then I can watch it!!!

If you have any other suggestions for shows lmk bc I’m running out of new shows to watch

I hate:

How often I need to go to therapy

How my mom treats my mental health

How my mom reacts to my choice to set boundaries

How my mom reacts to my plan in the future

The fact that my mom doesn’t like me having in person friends because she needs to drive me

The fact that even my best friends mom sees my moms flaws

The fact that I can’t do what I’m supposed to for my age but my mom refuses to get me diagnosed with ASD so I don’t have any conformation

The fact that the only person who treats me like I’m enough is my best friend

My English teacher

That one bitch in all my classes

All the stupid things my mom yells at me for

The fact that my mom said “I worry about you but I worry about how much you’re missing school for this” in response to me explain that my therapist wants me to go back next week

In conclusion: I am burnt out and can’t distinguish emotions except being angry and missing my best friend. Everything else feels muted and hopeless

Advice, don’t kneel on a glass fish tank thermometer. It is so very unpleasant