I literally have to see in the ends on my ponblansweatket (poncho, blanket, sweater mix) and make a hood and I have like NOOOO motivation
Why is my brain like this
I just want to block it and be done but I have zero motivation.
I also have to block my vest, crochet a small stuffy for my sister and a costume for my cousins turtle.
I also want to make an outfit for my stuffy.
Why is there so much crochet and so little motivation
PSA: if something helps you to function, other people have zero right to make fun off you.
If bringing a teddy bear with you help you to cope, bring it with you
If you watch shows that are “meant for children” because they comfort you, then keep on watching them because other people don’t have a say
This PSA is brought to you by present Fae and meant for future Fae
Does anyone have and tips for helping with joint pain? My joints are in constant pain
What is this sexuality you speak of and can I only get the uality of is it all made in the same pot
(Inspired by @yourlocalbadgerscales )
New study habits just dropped!!
I’ve started listening to lulibied versions of songs and I get the dopamine of my favourite artists without getting as distracted!!!
This is my favourite album to listen to because it’s amazingly funny
( @nick-the-dog you should listen to these. They are so funny. I will tell my kids that this was the front bottoms )
The fact that I’m not diagnosed with autism fucking sucks. Like, many people have told me they think I have autism, including my therapist but because my mother will not even put me on the wait list for a diagnosis I won’t know for at least two years if I am autistic (probably more then two years). All because my mom doesn’t believe I’m autistic.
All because she doesn’t understand, I don’t get the support I need. The closest I get to feeing validated is my best friend saying that she is there for me and that she believes me. This is hard.
I need help to function properly but no one will help me. I can’t do so many things that people my age should be able to. I can’t get my license because I’m too scared to drive alone because I zone out a lot and don’t think I could process everything. But my dad keeps pressing me to get it.
I can’t do everything all the time. I am supposed to swim for 2 hours four days a week but I can’t do that. I have to lie to my mom and tell her I’m sick so I can stay home because she doesn’t let me take mental health days ever.
I can’t have a social life because I can’t hang out with anyone for more then 30 minutes except my QPP.
I don’t understand social situations so when I try to understand and make a mistake people get mad at me.
I need help with taking care of myself because it’s to much for me to do alone but my mom isn’t willing to help.
My mom refuses to keep my comfort foods in the house because I “eat them to fast”
No one believes me when I tell them my problems. At school it’s because I have good grades. My mom doesn’t believe me because I “ function well.”
I’m always tired because I have to mask so often around my family so they don’t say I’m faking it
And worst of all is that despite all of that and more, I might not even be autistic. If I’m not autistic what’s wrong with me?
Do I like EDH?
Yes.
Is it almost strictly because of bonding with my dad and getting to do so much planning?
Yes.
I hate:
How often I need to go to therapy
How my mom treats my mental health
How my mom reacts to my choice to set boundaries
How my mom reacts to my plan in the future
The fact that my mom doesn’t like me having in person friends because she needs to drive me
The fact that even my best friends mom sees my moms flaws
The fact that I can’t do what I’m supposed to for my age but my mom refuses to get me diagnosed with ASD so I don’t have any conformation
The fact that the only person who treats me like I’m enough is my best friend
My English teacher
That one bitch in all my classes
All the stupid things my mom yells at me for
The fact that my mom said “I worry about you but I worry about how much you’re missing school for this” in response to me explain that my therapist wants me to go back next week
In conclusion: I am burnt out and can’t distinguish emotions except being angry and missing my best friend. Everything else feels muted and hopeless
big mouth (probably)
Nick kroll: so then I’ll say this
Producer: ok
N: then I’ll say this
P:ok?
N:then I’ll say this like I’m angry
P: oh?
N: and then finally I’ll say this and we cut to the intro
P: were they’re budget cuts in this show?
I made an incognito QPR bracelet that I can wear to work and in public without people asking questions.
@grey-loves-dragons