the scientists used to enter my enclosure with radiation suits on. they were advised not to get close to me cause if i bit them or they hung around me too long, they could get a lethal dose of radiation.
but some of them still would pet me when they pumped me full of chemicals. some would leave parts of their lunch for me near the entrance to my enclosure. the way some of them looked at me...i think they forgot that i was just a reanimated corpse of a wolfdog that had been be so modified it could barely be considered a wolfdog anymore. i much more resembled some kind of alien or shapeshifter.
still though...some of the scientists wanted and still want the best for me. even now that they remotely monitor me.
sometimes i can hear their radio calls in my head. make observations about my behavior. giving me migraines to deter me from getting too close to humans. making my body hurt and ache when i stray too far from where Im meant to be.
i wish my current environment was more like my enclosure. nice and foggy and chilly. mostly wastelands expect for a few sparce shrubs and dead trees. i used to dig burrows in the dirt and sleep underground. i miss the smell of dirt.
i am beginning to suspect that the research center i was being held at was somewhere in russia. though really the only memories i have of the outside of the facility are lots of snow, very rocky and large open spaces, and not much vegetation? i am unsure of where that could be.
i wasn't allowed outside very often. very few times cause my radioactivity could leech into the surroundings. plus the scientists couldn't exactly keep me on a leash since they couldn't get very close to me.
i feel like the architecture was very brutalist. lots of concrete and steel and sharp edges.
its all very hazy.
i got a really bad migraine while we were out at work and i knowwww the science team was really upset with me. i shouldn't be in an area that is so population dense :(
my head hurt so so bad and the humans kept getting so close.. i just wanted to run and hide :(
i hope the scientists aren't too mad at me...i tried my best to not let the humans linger around me too much.
i know im dangerous and i didn't wanna be there but..i can't control when im at the controls unfortunately...
plus...if im honest, i do not like this human body... walking on two legs? feels so weird. im glad im home and can be on 4 legs and relax and not have my tail be stuck in our pants all day haha :3
Radiation won't penetrate a lead wall. Biophysics. 1962.
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from the cherenkov radiation wikipedia page
My friend the Geiger counter always makes so many happy sounds when I visit