My Friend The Geiger Counter Always Makes So Many Happy Sounds When I Visit

# 26 . 07. 24

🦴 ! There’s an assumption that all physical therians / holothere identify as an animal on a physical level due to autism, psychosis or due to forming an animal alter.

🐾 ! However, I rarely see people discuss how other aspects of mental health influence their animal identity. In my personal experience, I think that my obsessive compulsions and intrusive thoughts are a rather large part of my identity as a physical therian.

🥩 # content warning for compulsive auto-cannibalism and emetophobia warning

♟️ ! I struggle with compulsive skin eating, I have sustained great nerve damage and broken bones from this, however I cannot digest human flesh and often it comes back up shortly after.

🦴 ! I am then frequently met with the urge to feed my regurgitated flesh to my ‘pups’. Whilst I do not have any children or pets, due to hitting sexual maturity at the age of 7, I deal with incredibly overwhelming maternal instincts despite being a man.

🐾 ! I often see others want to discuss the ugly side of therianthropy, the aspects that repulse most other humans, yet outside of mild species dysphoria, I am yet to see more than a handful of creatures discuss these animalistic urges that aren’t ‘tiktok ready’.

♟️! I am a coyote through and through, not just in appearance or connection. I am more coyote than just a fluffy tail or tall ears, I am coyote in my behaviour and real life too.

green slime mood-board :D

Michael Collins

Shartash Granite Quarry. Yekaterinburg, Russia

Kyoto International Conference Center

trying to navigate figuring out what content of wolf i am and what breed i am mixed with. but it is kind of triggering to sit down and think about it.

my brain is rejecting the idea that i should associate myself with dogs at all.

even though im sure im a low content wolfdog.

i hope one day i can love my dog side. and not run away from it.

i just dont wanna acknowledge that i am domestic in any way. it feels like its proving those who hurt us right.

like yeah they were right we are just some dog and trying to pretend to be feral at all is foolish.

but I know that i am feral and wild. i may be part dog but my feralness will always be stronger.

for now at least.

just until i can learn to accept that i am also part dog.