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A Conversation about the Sky (EreMika Fanfic)

Summary: Mikasa doesn't even notice the tightening of her fingers around his arm, or that her breathing is uneven, or that her legs and arms and her whole body is frozen and she should probably calm her heart down, but the only thing on her mind is he is here, a mantra that keeps on repeating in her head. He's here. He's here. He's here. He's really here. A smile lights up upon his face and it makes her cry even more. "Mikasa." He tries to say it with ease but his voice cracks in the middle as though he hasn't said her name for years.

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Warning: Spoilers, Angst, Emotional hurt/comfort, Canonical Character death, References to Depression, Fluff, Mutual Pining, Kissing, Making out.

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The back of a head is the first thing Mikasa sees after she opens her eyes and it takes her a moment before she can register that it is an unruly mess of brown hair on the head. It is too familiar, the shape of the head, the thin strands of the hair and how many times she has searched for this specific hair color in a sea of other colors. And she can just about imagine how it would look tied into a little ponytail as though it was a sixth sense in and of itself.

"Eren?"

She shouldn't say his name, because the figure in front of her could be anyone, but she does anyway.

The figure doesn't move an inch.

"Eren?"

His name rolling off of her tongue has always been a naturality on its own right but right now, it feels strange. As if she should have been calling his name all this time.

But didn't I?

Her arm lifts itself up, or maybe it is of her own accord, she doesn't know anything anymore, other than the fact that there is a sudden desire to touch this figure in front of her. To just have a feel of that hair, or cling onto those tattered-looking clothes, or even just a touch of the nape of his neck.

The figure is startled the moment her fingers come into contact with a little piece of his cloth, shoulders jerking up, and his body tenses up.

"Eren?" Mikasa's voice comes out as a whisper, but he nonetheless hears it. The way his ears perk up at the mention of his name remains the same, and she thinks it is as though he might get a command from someone any time now.

Please …

What? Please, what?

I don't know but please …

"Eren?" Her grip is on his arm now, too greedy for her own good but she must satisfy her hunger. She couldn't help it anymore, she has to see his face, so she twists him around and tries to locate those green as grass eyes of his until she realizes that she doesn't have to search. The pair of eyes are staring right down at her.

Mikasa is unable to open her mouth anymore so she leaves it be, her hands coming up to cover them and she can feel the slight tremble of her lips. Her thumb collects a tear that runs off on its own as a noise that sounds like a cry arose from somewhere. It isn't until later that she realizes it came from her own throat.

Those boyish facials she has spent her whole life looking after, taking care of the many scars and bruises it received due to his reckless habit of jumping face first into fights whether it concerned him or not, and the hair she remembers she based her own out of because it was the closest and only thing she could imagine that could guide the scissor in her hand, the mouth that cried out her name and it was the most beautiful sound she'd ever heard.

Eren is here in flesh.

Mikasa doesn't even notice the tightening of her fingers around his arm, or that her breathing is uneven, or that her legs and arms and her whole body is frozen and she should probably calm her heart down, but the only thing on her mind is he is here, a mantra that keeps on repeating in her head.

He's here.

He's here.

He's here.

He's really here.

A smile lights up upon his face and it makes her cry even more. "Mikasa." He tries to say it with ease but his voice cracks in the middle as though he hasn't said her name for years.

Mikasa is vaguely aware of her next movement: the wetness of her hands and cheeks is the first thing she notices but then she finds herself planting her hands all over his face, fingers crawling every nook and cranny, behind the ears, his scalp, under his jaw, half because she wants to make sure this isn't a cursed dream and half because there might be injuries hidden somewhere and she wants to be the one to treat it.

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schools have a special talent of finding fault in everything

like gurl chill, the hair that's falling to the side of my face is sophisticated planning for shy me. it acts as a barrier to people and helps me not get anxious so much.

shameless rant about tokrev!!!

i wish the female characters in tokrev got to display their fighting abilities more, it would rlly add some more depth to their characterization and i dont mean like they dont have backstories or anything

like some of these girls are real badasses

senju is said to be as powerful as mikey and yet we never see her fight properly??? what was the point??? several characters have commented on her strength, namely wakasa and benkei so then why is she being treated like a fragile little thing. maybe im missing smt but i genuinely dont get why wakasa would tell takemichi to take care of brahman's princess when he himself knows how much strength she possesses. also takemichi cant fight for shit hows he gonne take care of her?

emma is said to have been taught how to fight by her siblings. yet we never see her skills. its a different case if she deliberately chose not to involve herself with gang affairs but what about that battle in the parking lot?? she had the skills to protect herself. even if she does not alter the aftermath of the fight, we wouldve seen her being able to fling two attackers with her umbrella.

yuzuha is the most competent female character i feel like cuz we do actually get to see her fight but idk if its just my memory but i dont actually remember how the fight went. did she beat whoever she was fighting? also i would like to see her more. wish hakkai had invited her to the toman 2.0 so in that way we'd get to see more of her.

hina honestly has such wasted potential. i mean this girl went up to mikey - a person who can knock anyone with just one kick AND whos the leader of a gang - and slapped him in the early episodes! GIRLBOSS BEHAVIOR!!! and then she;s just ... there ... even her promise to protect Takemichi seems weak. i get that shes like the emotional support for takemichi but i wish we got to see her full on blasting guys. imagine ppl just underestimating her cuz shes short and fragile-looking and a GIRL. then she goes and knocks up everyone who charges at her, dislocating their jaw, breaking teeth, three punch to the chest, four to the sides and one special to the groin and she has five guys kneeling at her feet. i feel like she would also like to do some emotional damage while grabbing a guys arm and twisting it like 'damn, you must not be very strong if a mere 5 ft girl can just snap u like a twig'

i would also like to see a female gang like pls wakui-sensei make it happen plz

tokrev has little female characters as it is but to have the ones we do get to be just on the sidelines and only appearing when our mc needs a boost is wasted potential. we couldve had some rlly entertaining stuff like the toman members teaching the girls how to fight or the girls getting together for a trip when they get harassed and boom! the harassers are crying for their moms with blood running down their nose.

im hoping the battle between kantou and toman 2.0 will have senju bring out the monster in her. i wanna see the senju ppl compare to mikey. the one wakasa and benkei praised. the one who was the leader of a gang she formed herself, a gang which was infamous in tokyo and which was one of the three deities.

plz

have senju go wild

im begging here

i got a perfect match with azula on the mbti chemistry thing and bitch!!??? if that doesn't say anything about my mental health idk what will

question: who will win in a fight?

Gojo

or

Sung Jinwoo

is it a sign of mental illness that i have an emotional connection to my calendar?

FUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKK I GOT SPOILED

my boy inumaki needs his arms back

i know this is too much to ask ... but i want the csm fandom, the jjk fandom and the tkr fandom to be bestfriends