Me To My Crush

LovexBTS

If love is what makes you smile even when you're tired, then my love for bts is real.

I dont ask for help from just anyone. But if I do and if you helped me I'll be forever grateful. Help that is given but not at the moment it needed the most is useless.

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I want to believe myself more

Today I was asked if I want to take in charge of this certain part of the project. The first thing that came out of my mouth when I was encountered with such thing is that "Me?". Just one word, but it made me see how much lack confidence I have on myself. I was in doubt if I can do it. But I want to believe myself more. I'm so afraid of getting lost. I wish to be more courageous, even when I know for sure I'll get lost. I still want to be lost and find the way back. I wish I'm brave enough to do that.

Forever Young together with BTS ❤

This is the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. If you’re not a BTS stan then you will be after watching this.

That was the strongest version of myself. This isn't the first time I was put in such as a situation. But this is the very first time I have braved myself to stand up and face it.

Because I was scared. I was scared of the answer I might be hearing. The thoughts as 'what if the problem was with me?' 'What if I have offended them with my words or actions', 'if more than two person are doing the same thing to me, then the problem must be really with me right?' All these thoughts stopped me from asking the all those questions I wanted to ask that many people. Because I didn't want to hear that I didn't gave my all into that friendship.

But, why do I have to cry over someone who stopped the friendship because her mother said so, someone who stopped the friendship following her friend, someone who stopped the friendship to move into better school and have better friends, someone who stopped the friendship for no fucking reason or because I chose to do a simpler question, someone who stopped the friendship because I wasn't up to their standard, someone who stopped the friendship because I was quiet.

Is that my fault you chose to be selfish and when you fail to understand everyone is different?

I gave you my all I our friendship. I laughed with me when you were happy, I was sad when you were crying, I was listening to you when you had problem, I said yes when you needed an help, I supposed you against my mom, i said just so you won't be sad.

i did things I am not okay with just because you said it would be fun, I wanted to make memories with you.

I came out of comfort just so I can be with you. Because we were friends.

But the prize I received in the end was to cry my eyes out every night.

All those days I cried to God asking why i couldn't have even one friend, am I that bad of a person, I forgot to thank him for removing undeserving people from my life. All the tears I dropped wondering why I am living such a lonely and cursed life, I forgot to realise that it was the better life than living not as yourself for the satisfaction of others.

I finally realised it today, a friend would never turn their backs on you for a simple mistake you made. And I don't need such friends too. Who expect me to change myself for them. Because I am never going to change myself. For a third person.

You don't leave a friend because you don't like the mistake she was making. Instead you correct each other and grow together.

🚩Looking for friend!!

Hey there! I hope you're having a great day. Which I hope I'll have soon. The reason I'm writing this post now is because I am looking for a friend. I'm sick of waiting for a miracle, hoping that my friend will surely appear in front of me and we'll have the great time of my time. I'm tried of spending my time alone with no one beside me to create memories or share the memories with me, to laugh with me and to be there when I am having a hard time. I no more want to be jealous of other who have friends, who go together everywhere there are going, or eat together or celebrate each other's birthdays together. Thus, here I am looking for a friend. At least an online friend. Below are about me:

Name: Loweena

Nationality: Malaysian

Age:21

Zodiac: Capricorn

Characteristics: Willing to change myself, as long as you stay as my friend. I just need a friend. Anyone. From anywhere. From any age. It doesn't matter. I can be your friend.

SLIDE TO DM IF YOU'RE INTERESTED IN BECOMING MY FRIEND.

S12P2 2019/2020

Hey there, I hope you are doing well. I'm writing this post asking for a help. Yes, I need a help. I'm thinking of taking an additional language as one of the course for my university. The choices I have are French, Germany and Spanish. But the problem is that I'm not familiar with any of this languages. I understand that knowing an additional language will help me a lot in my future. But at the same time, I'm very worried about how I'm going to learn a language that is completely new to me among my never ending assignments and exams. I don't know what choice I should make. I don't want to give up on learning a new language but at the same time I'm so scared. Please help me make a decision.

The choice I don't regret taking

When I first went for walk in vaccination after it took too long to get my mysejahtera appointment, they were jabbing Sinovac on that day. So, I was asked, if I want to take Sinovac now or take Pfizer later. Basically I was given choice between Siinovac and Pfizer. So, I chose Pfizer.

The very next day. I was asked by this one person - who I don't want to reveal the identity of - that why I refused to take Sinovac and why does it have to be Pfizer. She/He even asked me what is wrong with Sinovac and that all the vaccines are vaccines, so why choose. So, I told them that I was given a choice and I decided the one i think i want. It wasn't like I got my mysejahtera vaccination appointment, then i went to the PPV, got to knew it was Sinovac, then i reject. NO. It was a walk in. And I decided not to take it then, because I had enough time and most importantly another choice. So, I chose it and believing choosing is my personal thing/right, I stand on my point. Even when there was someone 'questioning' me.

Now, look what has happened. Everyone with Sinovac double dose, must take their booster or their vaccination status will be reduced. So, if I had taken Sinovac back then and wasn't able to get booster on time now, it would've been a disaster for me. I wouldn't have been able to travel anywhere, not even to back home. And that's it. The choice I don't regret taking. Thanks to God for giving me choice and proud of myself for making the right decision.