Forever Young Together With BTS ❤

11.10.2020

My life as an university student has officially started and it began with online class. I was excited to step into my university campus and make new friends. But everything remained as wishes only. Due the current global pandemic, covid19, no one was allowed to go to higher education institutions. Instead study from home. At first it sounded fun, studying in cozy environment where we're used to. Not panicking waking up and getting ready for class as mom's there to wake us up. But I was wrong.

On my first day, which is today, I was sitting in front of my study table which is just beside my cozy bed. Honestly I felt like just lying down and having a long and sweet nap. On the other hand, the online class was very noise with everyone talking at the same time. Will I listen to lecture or the other kids chattering? To make things worse, the video call of the lecture wasn't smooth at all and was full of lagging in between her words. I really had to concentrate my full and full focus on it to hear what she was saying. To make things even worse my webcam and microphone wasn't working. When lecturer asked to turn on the camera to see our faces I literally panicked without knowing what to do. This was my first ever online class so I had no idea my webcam and microphone was not working. But thankfully she didnt notice among hundreds of us. Because of failure of microphone I couldn't even ask her my questions. Before starting the class the lecture said "since the class is carried out online I can only remember the people who are actively participating in the online class". I was really worried about this. Knowing that how important it is to have to good impression on lecturer and not being a passive student, I made me even more sad.

For afternoon class, things were even more terrible. Among around 200+ students only the 100 students could join the meeting cause that was the limit. So I couldn't join along with the remaining over than hundreds of others and couldn't listen to lecture's briefing regarding the topic. And after the session with only 100 students were over, they are letting us know we have to do assignments and group works all of a sudden. How can we possibly do those in house with limited sources and no guidance. I once more became even more sad.

I'm now very worried about how I'm going to deal with everything. I have no one to guide me. No friends to ask help for. I have seen no one's face before except seeing them on screen. I am really worried now. Why does this covid have to happen? Why does we have to go through such an hard time. Please I hope the world gets well soon.

Everything is a mess including my life and my grades 🤦‍♀️😪

It's always the darkest before the sunrise 🌞

Those who I thought as cruel people turned out to be those with a good heart. And those who I thought as kind people turned out to be the most scary and unkind people I ever know. Life hit me hard once again.

“Really high-minded people are indifferent to happiness, especially other people's.” 

-Bertrand Russell

There are billions of jobs available in this world but I’m having a hard time in choosing one for me 😭😭

Help that is given but not at the moment it needed the most is useless.

Life as an introvert 🤎

Not every time the sky would be clear, and that's perfectly fine 🌊