Everything Is A Mess Including My Life And My Grades 🤦‍♀️😪

Know what's the worst feeling is? It is to not know what you did to that person who have been talking with you very friendly that that person stopped talking to you all together. You will have countless thoughts on what could have went wrong, are you really the one to be blame, or did you said something wrong that made them feel hurt, or did you ever crossed the line with them, or could it be that you did something to their precious person that they don't want to talk with you anymore or is there someone else behind everything, or could it be that they have their own problem that they couldn't talk properly (But that still doesn't make sense though sometimes, when you see them talking to others like normal. How could they talk to other nicely but you?). Countless thoughts with no proper answer on when where it went wrong and what caused all these.

And the worst shit is that I have been going through this shit for more than 10 years now.

That someone is none other than My biology lecturer 😪

When you’re really sleepy..

Kdrama

Hardest thing about kdrama is you have to wait for 1 week to watch new episode 😭😭

I hope you'll like the playlist 😊 I has all the BTS songs from debut to the latest release and both japanese and korean songs ✌☺ Have fun listening to BTS 💜💜❤

It was intended. I did intentionally, with my sane mind I chose to stay in my home three more days. Do I regret it? NO. Never. I'm so glad that I was brave enough to make that decision. For someone who have no friend and had to spend every time inside four walls so far away from my comfort place, choosing to stay in that protection and familiarity of my home, never felt wrong. If the price I had to pay for that is missing out on an one-hour class, forty-five minutes of nagging, anger and frustration being thrown at my face or even bringing forth my childhood trauma that I try so hard to overcome, I am ready to accept that. Even if I do went back in time, I would still choose to do the same thing, perhaps in a different way but I would do it again.

I do not at all regret my decision. Not even a single percent. Not once at any point, I thought that perhaps I shouldn't have stayed longer. NO. I was safe and happy while being home. I slept well and ate well. I would never exchange it for anything. And no one has to understand this too. I chose myself and I don't have any regret for doing so. That's all matters.

I just lost my more than a decade worth of memories. Every picture taken on an ordinary day or on special occasions to remember the moments, photos of me with those I will never have a chance to take another one with, every video taken and created, every document and notes that helped me with my studies, from random downloads to important information, everything is gone. Just like that. What I wanted to keep safe with me forever, what I always afraid of losing, is now lost forever. My photos, videos, documents, screenshots, assignments, past year papers, example question paper, my only pictures with my previous classmates. All gone. I only wanted to keep it safe. But now it looks like I can never get it back. I'm sorry to every one whose memories I failed to bring with me. I swear it wasn't intended. I'm so very sorry. Please forgive me. I wish I can turn back time. Please let any miracle happen. Show me some mercy dear God, please 🙏

Let's work our ass off for the next days dearself. You got this ! ✊ Let's end this semester well 😊

Today's Moon. It was hidden behind dark clouds, playing hide and seek with the eyes searching for it to be mesmerized by its beauty. But no matter how much it tried to hide, it still shone. Just like many of us.

Right. I’m a lawyer. I shouldn’t give up on my Sejarah. I have to work harder.

Oh God! please give me lots of strength to deal with this. 🙌🙏❤