I Got This 💪🔥

Happy Birthday Dearest self ❤ We gonna live this year to the fullest. Let's be brave and face everything ❤💫

I'm 21 ❤

I turn 21 today. On 5th of January 2022. Somehow I'm very proud that I achieved this number. 21 years of living, how many times have I cried over so many ridiculous and heartbreaking things and how many times have I genuinely laugh out loud. 21 years of living, I have learnt a lot. And I want to keep on learning. And I want to see the world. not just the small world I've seen so far but the big wide world out there. I want to go and explore and maybe find a friend. It's been more than 6 years since I had a friend. since the last time, my ex so-called best friend left me without even telling me why. Oh wait, she did when I asked. She told me that my moody self was annoying and that she didn't wanted my friendship anymore. Well at least she had a reason for leaving, unlike the other so-called best friend I had, who stopped talking all of a sudden without any reason (rumors have it that her mother hated me for being friend with the girl she dislike so my wonderful ex best friend being the loyal daughter she is, cut off my friendship *sighs*). Thanks to god everything is in past tense. I haven't find any best friend or even a close friend since then but I honestly wish I will soon. And there it is my birthday wish. To find a best friend. But I don't want to force myself to find a friend. I don't think i cant effort to lose another friend after treating them as my best friend with my whole heart. That hurts a lot. A lot. I want best friend, my genuine and desperate wish. it feels so jealous to see everyone having a good time with their best friends, seeing them eating together, going out together and spending time together. I wish I'll have those days soon too.

And my second wish is to be brave. I know I've always been brave, but I wish I have a little more or maybe even a lot more of braveness. they said the first step is the scariest and once you move pass that everything else will fall into place. but the thing is, to take that very first step, the amount of courage ness you are going to need is indescribable. Some does it easily, and some needs that extra spoon of courage to take that first step. In my case, I think I'm going to need a whole bucket of that courage hahahaha. Like I said, I have always been brave, when i went to the beach alone for the first time when in matriculation (it still scares me how anything could have happened, just anything when that grab driver went to a wrong deserted place because i chose the place wrongly.) But don't worry. I don't make sill mistakes like choosing wrong destination anymore. You know I'm 21. Or even i had to go to hospital last year due to lack of Hb and almost got blood transfusion. I cried a lot but I was still brave for being able to face it. Well, at least for me. I know I'm brave but I would like to be more brave. I believe i will be soon.

I wanna live. live the life I want. be happy and do everything I wish I can. I want to be more brave.. Let's live; happily and bravely.

To all the students studying during RMO you have my respect

Shall I close the curtains for tomorrow or let it wide open ? 🤓

I want both

When I was there today, standing along the shore and doing sampling, I didn't wanted to leave the ocean. I was standing inside the water a bit farther from the shore but not that much. When i turned around and look at the vast ocean, it looked beautiful. The weather was also perfect today, neither too sunny nor cloudy at all. And the timing was also perfect. The chill and waves that were hitting my legs, I didn't wanted to move away from it. Even a step. That's when I thought of it. That I want my future self to do this too. Of course, I want to do laboratory work. I have imagined myself working in a laboratory environment countless times. I have no doubt in that. But after today, it made me realize that I want both. I do want to work in a laboratory but don't want to do it all the times. I also want to come out and work in the field. Meet small to big creatures to see what they're up to and let the wind pass through me. Get myself wet from playing/working in the ocean and get myself tired by fighting the waves just so I can have a good night's sleep. When my tired self comes home, I want to give myself a hot shower and full filling meal and then blop! I want to drop myself on my bed and sleep with no alarm set. Then, once I'm awake, I want to go the laboratory and take a closer look at the new creatures I found. That is how I would like to live. I don't want to spend the whole time stuck in the laboratory. Neither do I want to spend my whole time in the field. I want to do a job which balances both. I want to find pleasure by doing both. At least, that's what I believe.

There are some shots from today!! 💙

Also they was something about the ocean that made me feel weird. Made me feel somehow dizzy. I felt like floating. Today was the first time I'm stepping and standing in the ocean (minusing the time we did sampling for Dr. Mel's fieldwork session) after my diving practice. It somehow felt weird and calming at the same time.

Little But Great Happiness 💝

We were doing group discussion today to find an answer for a question. There was a boy in my group. After I did my calculation I showed it to teacher and my answers were all correct. That boy also did his calculation and asked me if his answer was right. I compared it to mine and told him that his answers are correct too.

He smiled so brightly when he found out that his answers were correct. He looked so proud. That's when I realized even little things can give someone great happiness. 💕

EnchantingWarriorPrincess

This is my personal blog. I come here to share achievements of my life; both big and small. I'll share small things that I think is cute or that are making me happy. I am also going to share my thoughts here, on just anything. I don't say my opinions are all correct or expect others to believe them too. it is just what I am thinking and I just want to say it somewhere. I might not be right to think so. And I also come here to rant too, to relieve my anger and stress. AND most importantly I'll post related to BTS here too, yeah I am an PROUD ARMY. This blog is just my safe place; my hideout. Good luck to me, to be able to post constantly.

Atleast for a day, atleast try to go out escape from those four walls and see what's happening outside. There's a beautiful world out there.

I hope you'll like the playlist 😊 I has all the BTS songs from debut to the latest release and both japanese and korean songs ✌☺ Have fun listening to BTS 💜💜❤

Under the endless sky we sometimes are stucked under the same sky