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Learn to fight alone no matter how hard it is. Because no one will stand with you until the end. Either evryone will leave at somepoint or you'll leave everyone at somepoint. Being alone and happy without depending on anyone is the best gift you can give yourself.
I said nevermind to four people today. You know now why i dont ask for help from anyone. ๐
That was the strongest version of myself. This isn't the first time I was put in such as a situation. But this is the very first time I have braved myself to stand up and face it.
Because I was scared. I was scared of the answer I might be hearing. The thoughts as 'what if the problem was with me?' 'What if I have offended them with my words or actions', 'if more than two person are doing the same thing to me, then the problem must be really with me right?' All these thoughts stopped me from asking the all those questions I wanted to ask that many people. Because I didn't want to hear that I didn't gave my all into that friendship.
But, why do I have to cry over someone who stopped the friendship because her mother said so, someone who stopped the friendship following her friend, someone who stopped the friendship to move into better school and have better friends, someone who stopped the friendship for no fucking reason or because I chose to do a simpler question, someone who stopped the friendship because I wasn't up to their standard, someone who stopped the friendship because I was quiet.
Is that my fault you chose to be selfish and when you fail to understand everyone is different?
I gave you my all I our friendship. I laughed with me when you were happy, I was sad when you were crying, I was listening to you when you had problem, I said yes when you needed an help, I supposed you against my mom, i said just so you won't be sad.
i did things I am not okay with just because you said it would be fun, I wanted to make memories with you.
I came out of comfort just so I can be with you. Because we were friends.
But the prize I received in the end was to cry my eyes out every night.
All those days I cried to God asking why i couldn't have even one friend, am I that bad of a person, I forgot to thank him for removing undeserving people from my life. All the tears I dropped wondering why I am living such a lonely and cursed life, I forgot to realise that it was the better life than living not as yourself for the satisfaction of others.
I finally realised it today, a friend would never turn their backs on you for a simple mistake you made. And I don't need such friends too. Who expect me to change myself for them. Because I am never going to change myself. For a third person.
You don't leave a friend because you don't like the mistake she was making. Instead you correct each other and grow together.
It's been a while since I left Tumblr. I didn't mean to but it happened tht way. But now I'm back again here ๐ฅณ. I'm going to start over my blogging soon. Please take good care of me and follow my blog too ๐
Found this picture on pinterest. I didnt understand but I assumed. There's a reason why he chose alpaca and why RJ is his son ๐ฆ๐
My birthday is just 5 days after new year ๐ if only my mom had given birth to me 6 days earlier i wouldnt have born in 2001 which means i wouldnt have born in 21st century then i couldnt have relate myself to bts song 21st century girl ๐ฑ๐ฎ omg nightmare ๐๐
Like an arrow in the blue sky ๐ธ
๋ ํ๋ฃจ ๋ ๋ ์๊ฐ์ง ๐ธ
On my pillow, on my table ๐ธ
Yeah life goes on
Like this again ๐ธ
# #๋ฐฉํ์๋ ๋จ #BTS_BE #LifeGoesOn
Note to self
Don't show kindness towards people who have never even heard of the word. Because kindness is one of the precious and rare things to be found in this world. Don't waste it on just anyone. They dont deserve it.
First is always the best
First love
First experience
First impression
First friend
First kiss
First date
First victory
First place
First day on school
First day at work
First friendship
First time tasting a food or drink
First time at a new place
First time when trying something new
First time is always the best time. It comes only once in life. It's really special.
Loweena Gonasegaran ๐ ๐ ๋ฐฉํ์๋ ๋จ ์๋ฏธ ๐ ๐ ๐ ๐๐ฉ๐๐ค๐ฅ ๐
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