I would love to see you write an unrequited love story with I’m not a mountain by Sarah kinsley always gets me in my feels
I'm not a mountain (ellie wiliams x reader)
Hi anon! sorry it took me so long to write this, I couldn't think of a good plot, but I finally got something! I hope you enjoy <3
This story is based off the song I'm not a mountain by Sarah Kingsly so if you can, please listen to the song as you're reading:)
Pairing: ellie x fem!reader
requests are always open feel free to leave one!
Warnings: violence and death, Ellie being stupid
Summary: In which Ellie makes stupid decisions
wc: 2.1k
(La da da da da da)
If I could choose the things that I knew
And all the things that I'd see
I'd let the room fill with memories until
The walls were staring at me
Ellie sighed as she opened her eyes. She sat up, bringing her right hand to scratch her head.
She couldn’t sleep. You plagued her mind like a disease. For some fucking reason it seems the memory of you was stuck in her mind.
The way you smiled. The way you laughed at her. The way you dressed depending on your mood. The way you-
Fuck.
She had work tomorrow. She should be sleeping. But you were running circles through her mind.
Ellie looked at her desk that sat in the corner of her room. She let out a loud groan at the memory of you sitting at the table and looking at her with puppy eyes begging her to go out with you.
You were everywhere. Everywhere she looked, everything in her room had you written all over it.
Your spirit lingered there.
“What?” Ellie asked loudly as she looked at the stuffed dinosaur you gave on her birthday. “You think I’m stupid too?” she asked as if it would respond to her.
She had work tomorrow she shouldn’t be awake but you.
God you were making it hard for her.
“I fucking hate you” Ellie muttered as she lay back down, bringing the blanket over her head.
She knew she was lying.
She doesn’t hate you. She could never. But she really needed to stop thinking about you.
The mystery of life is just taking flight
I watch the walls closing in
So I swallow my pride and I take another bite
I guess I'm dreaming again
“I love you” Ellie muttered.
“I know els” you replied with a small smile.
“please come back” Ellie begged. “I can’t” you simply said, still having that sweet smile on your face.
“No- no you said you would always be here for me” Ellie spoke back tears filling her eyes.
“things change Ellie”
“no- no please- “
“Fuck!” Ellie screamed as she woke up. It was another fucking dream.
You already haunt her with the memories the two of you have together, now you were showing up in her dreams.
She couldn’t escape you.
She wanted to hate you. She wanted to blame you for everything that went wrong in her life. But she couldn’t because all of this was her fault. It was her fault that you left. It was Ellie’s fault that you died. But she couldn’t accept it.
It was as if you were still here. Barging into her room with that stupid smile of yours saying “look what I have els”.
But you weren’t there anymore. The only thing left was the memories. And countless dreams Ellie has of you.
Ellie finally understands what people meant when they said you never know how much you truly love someone till you lose them.
She wishes she could go back in time and tell herself to wake up and to tell you how she felt.
How much she loved you. How much she appreciated you.
But you were gone. You were never coming back.
I swear I'm unattached
Living in the past but
I can't get off my feet
You say we'll all go mad
But I don't believe that
So you'll prove it to me
Ellie always knew she had a crush on you.
She remembered the day she and Joel walked into Jackson for the first time. You stood behind Tommy with wide eyes looking at the two of them.
Ellie’s first words to you were: “you have a staring problem or am I just that beautiful?” and you replied: “I think I might have a staring problem”
And since that day the two of you were inseparable.
You both followed each other everywhere. Where Ellie went, you were always there. Joel knows if he ever needed to look for Ellie, she would be at your house. People would even joke and say the two of you were sisters. That how close you were.
When Ellie realized she was in love with you, she was 15.
You were helping her at the stables with her horse Shimmer.
“You think shimmer is a cool name?” you had asked Ellie
“No I would’ve named her something space related”
“Mars”
“What?”
“I think you would’ve named her Mars”
“How did you know I was gonna call her that?” Ellie questioned puzzled
“Because you’ve been talking about Mars for the last 2 weeks”
“You listen to me?”
“Of course I do Ellie. What friend would I be if I didn’t listen??
And in that moment Ellie knew you were the one for her.
Years went by and Ellie’s crush on you grew. She would never admit it out loud but she would sabotage all your relationships. When you brought someone home, or when you tell Ellie you went on a date with someone she would find the person and threaten them.
She would tell them to stay away from you.
Her girl.
You never knew why your relationships never worked out. You really thought there was something wrong with you. But little did you know, it was your best friend who got rid of anyone that was interested in you.
Ellie smiled at the memory of the two of you talking about changing Shimmers name. Ellie brought her hand up to run her fingers through Shimmers mane.
“You miss her too?” Ellie asked the horse but she received no answer.
“Well I miss her” Ellie spoke softly.
“You look like shit” she heard Jesse’s voice suddenly talk from behind her.
“shut up”
“when was the last time you got some sleep?” Jesse asked, seriously concerned about his best friend.
“That’s not important”
“Ellie- “
“Jesse drop it?” she spoke through gritted teeth.
Jesse let out a sigh “we’re all worried about you Ellie?”
“I don’t fucking care” Ellie snapped, as she got onto Shimmer “I’m not in the mood for your pity. Now shut up and get on the horse”
Jesse let out a defeated sigh as he hopped on the horse.
“Let’s get this over with”
(La da da da da da)
If I could choose, I'd never lose
I'd always take without giving
I wrote down the truth in letters to you
But I know you'll never get them
The air surrounding Ellie and Jesse was tense as they rode in silence.
“It’s Wednesday” Ellie suddenly said.
“You want to visit her?” Jesse asked.
“Yeah”
“we all miss her Ellie” he started “It wasn’t your fault- “
“it was” Ellie cut him off “If I didn’t kill her girlfriend she would’ve not left Jackson and she wouldn’t have died”
“Why did you kill Abby?”
And Ellie fell silent. She killed Abby because she was in love with you. She had to do something. She remembers the day as if it was yesterday. Abby was your longest relationship ever. Ellie had told the blonde to stay away from you multiple times but she didn’t. She stayed with you.
Ellie’s hatred towards the girl grew when the two of you moved in. You were happy. You were happier with Abby than what you were with her. You even started hanging out less. Ellie was losing you, and she didn’t like it. You belonged to her. No one else. But yet you moved in with someone else.
You had never given Ellie an indication that you liked her. Every time she would try and flirt with you, you would just laugh it off and say: “very funny Ellie”. Every move she would try and make on you, you would either laugh it off or ignore her.
One day Dina said “you guys would make a cute couple”
Ellie felt heat spread across her cheeks. She was probably as red at a tomato. Before Ellie could say anything you let out a laugh saying “me and Ellie? Never in a million years” you laughed.
Ellie cried. She cried for weeks. She even tried avoiding you, but like a moth to a flame she always went back to you.
When you started dating Abby she was filled with jealousy. But she had no right to be jealous. You weren’t even together.
One winter night, a night Ellie knew you wouldn’t be home, she decided to pay Abby a visit.
“What are you doing here?” the blonde asked her. “I’m here to make peace” Ellie lied. Abby let her in with a shocked expression.
“I’m actually surprised” Abby spoke, as soon as she turned her back towards Ellie, Ellie pulled out a knife stabbing the blonde in the back. Abby let out a groan, as she turned around to face Ellie, the knife still in her back. When she faced Ellie, Ellie brought out another knife bringing it into Abby’s stomach. Abby’s eyes widened, blood slowly dripping from her wound. Ellie watched as Abby’s eyes roll to the back of her head before she heard your voice.
You weren’t supposed to be here.
“Baby do you think I’d look good with- Ellie?” you asked, surprised to see her here. Your eyes moved from Ellie to your girlfriend bleeding. The dark red liquid already decorated the floor.
And sadly Abby passed away a few hours later due to blood loss.
What Ellie did was unforgivable. She murdered the love of your life in cold blood. “forgive and forget” they said.
You weren’t sure if you could ever forgive or forget the murder of your girlfriend. The girl you wanted to spend the rest of your life with. And what makes it worse was that it was your best friend. The girl who was supposed to comfort you. The girl you trusted with your life.
You hated Ellie. You really did.
“Jesse, can I go talk to her alone?” Ellie asked.
Jesse gave her a sympatric smile: “yeah go ahead I’ll be here when you get back.” Ellie hopped off Shimmer and she started walking up the hill.
When she eventually reached the top, a single cross decorated the hill. You name carved onto it. There were fresh pink flowers, Ellie could only assume Joel must’ve been here.
“Hi” she spoke softly as she approached the grave. Ellie sat down in front of the cross, her legs crossed. “It’s been a while” she chuckled “you really have to stop appearing in my dreams I’m tired as hell, even Jesse noticed I don’t sleep” she laughed once more.
“I got you something” Ellie spoke. She pulled out a pile of letters neatly folded. “You’ve been gone for 203 days she stared. I wrote you a letter for each day.” She spoke softly, afraid that she might wake you up and scare you away. Ellie gently placed the stack of letters beneath the flowers.
She hoped maybe the letters would break down and sink into the ground, and that maybe you’d read it. Or maybe your spirit would come down and read them. She hopes you’d somehow read them and understand why she did what she did. She did it because she loved you.
Ellie has many regrets in her life, but the biggest one was, letting you leave Jackson, without her telling you how she felt about you.
Before Ellie got up she brought her lips to the cross, giving it a gentle kiss. “I’m so sorry baby” Ellie spoke and she got up and left to continue patrol with Jesse.
If I were a mountain, I'd stand my ground
And maybe I'd never listen
But if I were a mountain, I'd close my mouth and
Maybe I'd be forgiving
But I'm not
I'm not
I'm not
I'm not
When Ellie found out you had left Jackson it felt like whole world was being ripped apart.
“What do you mean she left?” Ellie yelled at Maria.
“Ellie she has nothing to live for anymore, it’s better that she goes out and finds purpose”
“Why didn’t you call me?”
“You killed her girlfriend Ellie, you are the last person she wants to see”
Ellie was going after you. She was going to tell you how she felt. She marched out of Maria’s office and ran straight to the stables, hopping on Shimmer.
“Which direction did she go?” Ellie asked one of the guards at the gate.
“She went north” he replied.
“C’mon Shimmer move faster” she begged the horse.
There was still time she could still get to you, and convince you to stay. Ellie would finally reveal how she truly felt about you. She could tell you why she killed Abby. She would make you understand.
Ellie and shimmer were running for a few hours before her eyes landed on a familiar backpack. Ellie hopped of her horse, she pulled out her gun walking over to the pink and purple backpack that you carried everywhere with you.
As she approached the bag she heard the sound of a clicker.
*click, click, click*
Ellie turned her head to the direction of where the sound came from and there you lay.
Lifeless.
Ellie let out a scream and the clicker looked at her, and it started charging towards her. Ellie shot it at point blank and she ran to where you lay.
“No” she breathed as the tears rolled down her cheeks as she walked towards your body.
There was blood everywhere, she almost didn’t recognize you. You were bruised. Covered in blood, scratch marks littered your skin.
Ellie went down onto her knees as she took you into her arms, and she let out loud sobs.
This was all her fault.
I'm not a mountain
I can't hold you on my own
I'm not a mountain
I will crumble when you go
There in the square, my arms in the air
And is it so bad to be alone?
I can do it on my own
Is it really so bad?
Is it really so bad?
I can do it on my own
How do you continue living if you lost the love of your life?
Ellie understands now how it felt when you lost Abby. She now understands why you left Jackson.
You were lonely. Empty.
Ellie stood at the gates of Jackson. She sees no point in living here anymore. Everywhere she looked she saw you. Every place had a piece of you and she got sick of it.
Ellie wanted to be ok. She wanted to feel like herself again. She wanted to forgive herself, but she couldn’t. So she’s running away from her problems. Like a coward.
As Ellie walked in the woods she thought to herself, maybe being alone won’t be so bad. She won’t have Jesse or Joel breathing down her neck constantly asking her if she was ok.
Of course she wasn’t fucking ok, why do they keep asking?
Ellie saw a familiar hill, and walked up to it. The letters she’d placed were still under the flowers someone had left.
Ellie lay next to your grave, hoping that someone would come and kill her. Maybe in the afterlife she could tell you how much she loved you.
And hopefully you’d forgive her, and she’d finally get the happily ever she’s always dreamed of.
Authors note: this was long oneeeeee, I hope you all enjoyed, remember you are loved and to always be kind…. My requests are always open feel free to leave one:)
Yours truly,
Zia<3
All the angst you write is so beautiful I’m in tears
omfg thank you sm! this means so much to me🥺
I love you pookie<33
i love emily im sorry soo much,, do you think u could please write an ellie x reader based on the song night shift by lucy dacus?? i think is a good song to make a fic <3
night shift - (ellie williams x reader)
hi anon! thank you sm for the compliment! And yes it's literally is an amazing song for a angst fic! I hope you enjoy:)
This story is based off the song Night shift by Lucy Dacus, if you can please listen to the song as you're reading:)
Pairing: ellie x fem!reader
Requests are always open feel free to leave one or just send me a song and I'll take it from there:)
Warnings: sadness and cheating
Summary: In which you were the other women
wc: 1.8k + the lyrics
The first time I tasted somebody else's spit, I had a coughing fit
I mistakenly called them by your name
I was let down, it wasn't the same
I'm doing fine, trying to derail my one-track mind
Regaining my self-worth in record time
But I can't help but think of your other in the bed that was mine
The day Ellie Williams asked you out was truly the best day of your life.
It all started with small smiles, gentle touches and loving gazes. You knew from the first day you laid eyes on Ellie, that you wanted to be with her. And never in a million dreams did you think that you stood a chance with someone as beautiful such as Ellie.
You didn't regret asking her for her number. You didn't regret saying yes when she asked you on a date that day. But the more you think about it, the more realized maybe you should’ve said no.
"Hi I'm Ellie’s girlfriend, is she here today?" The girl asked with a smile on her face.
oh.
Girlfriend?
Ellie was never mentioned anything about a girlfriend to you.
Fuck.
"Oh hey Cat" you heard Ellie’s voice from behind you. You turned around and you and the autumn brown haired girl made eye contact.
Ellie’s eyes widened when she saw you were talking to Cat, but her shock was soon replaced by her signature smirk.
"Hi babe" Cat greeted Ellie cheerfully "can we talk?" She asked. Ellie gave her a quick nod as she walked out from behind the counter. As Ellie and cat walked away she reached down to grab the girls hand and if felt like you've been stabbed.
You quickly excused yourself and you ran down the hall in the storage room where you and Ellie would always meet each other.
Holy shit.
She had a girlfriend? What? You thought she liked you?
You and Ellie were never official, but you went on dates. You held hands. You kissed her for fucks sake. You were the other women. Ellie didn't care for you as much as you thought. She was using you.
You heard the door handle of the storage room rattle. You looked up and you quickly wiped away your tears: "Ellie?" You questioned, with a hopeful voice.
"No it's me!" You heard Dina’s voice yelled back. "Ellie went home with her girlfriend so you'll have to take her shift"
You let out a sigh as you felt the tears flow freely once again.
You were supposed to be mad at her. You were supposed to hate her. But you called out for her? You would never admit it out loud but you were actually waiting for her. You were waiting for Ellie to come and apologize and to say that this was all a misunderstanding. You silently sat there crying.
You were the other women.
Am I a masochist, resisting urges to punch you in the teeth?
Call you a bitch and leave?
Why did I come here? To sit and watch you stare at your feet?
What was the plan? Absolve your guilt and shake hands?
If you truly hated Ellie like you claimed you did, you wouldn't have opened your apartment door that night.
That one faithful evening in September, when you heard a knock on your door.
“Who the fuck could that be?” you muttered to yourself as you got up from bed rubbing your eyes.
You look over to your phone if see it's 1:00am. You yawned as you walked to the front door. You opened it and your eyes were met with the girl who broke your heart all those months ago.
The girl you thought you would be spending the rest of your life with.
She looked at you, her normally neat hair was a messy, dark circles under her eyes.
god you thought you looked bad.
"What are you doing here Ellie?" You asked.
She could've come to you a long time ago and suddenly she shows up? What does she want? Does she want to get back together? Is she here to beg for forgiveness?
"Jesse told me that you were serious when you said you wanted to work the night shift" she spoke, as she brought her right hand up to awkwardly scratch the back of her neck.
You didn’t know if you wanted to punch her or kiss her.
Ellie’s gaze fell down to her feet and the two of you were surrounded by silence.
Since when is it so quite at 1 in the morning?
"Why are you here?" You finally asked again.
Ellie looked up at you once again. She hesitated. She opened and closed her mouth a couple of times. The words weren't coming out.
‘she's so fucking pathetic’ you thought to yourself.
"Are you here to apologize? To make yourself feel better?", you spoke again.
Ellie looked taken aback, her facial expression morphed into a face of confusion? Hurt? You couldn't tell.
"I love you-" Ellie started, you let out a laugh even before she could finish.
"If you loved me, why was I the other women?" You questioned.
Ellie fell silent. She stared at you. She was at a loss for words. How could you say such a thing? You knew nothing about her situation. You didn't know that she can Cat had been in a loveless relationship for years. You didn't know how much she loved you. You didn't know how alive you made her feel.
Ellie was brought back to reality when you spoke: "You can't even fucking speak to me".
You let out a sigh as you took a step back to close the door. Ellie’s large hand reached out to try and stop it, but you were too quick. You closed the door in her face. Ellie put her forehead against your front door as tears streamed down her cheeks. She heard your voice from behind the door:
"You are such a fucking bitch Williams"
Ellie turned away from your door, her hand gripping her shirt as she started sobbing.
Loud sounds of crying filled the quite streets of Jackson as Ellie stood at your door realizing that she lost you.
I feel no need to forgive, but I might as well
But let me kiss your lips, so I know how it felt
Pay for my coffee and leave before the sun goes down
Walk for hours in the dark, feeling all hell
"I think I should start working the night shift" you told Jesse one morning.
"dude I thought you hated it"
You went quite for a moment. You did hate it. But you couldn't stand working another shift looking at Ellie. Even being in her presence made your heart yearn for her. If feels like you've been starved for years without Ellie’s touch. And you fear that even if your finger just lightly touched her you'd lose your mind.
You already felt guilty enough when you found out Ellie had a girlfriend, you didn't want to make a fool out of yourself by confessing your undying love to her.
You walked out of Jesse's office and into the locker room. Ellie was in there. You walked right past her, going to your locker you quickly pulled out your bag.
"Wait our shifts are starting right now, where are you going?" She questioned.
"I'm working the night shift from now on" you replied as you made your way to the door. You felt so cold hand grab your wrist and when you turned around and you were met with Ellie’s pleading eyes.
"If you work night shift I won't be able to see you" she spoke softly.
You forcefully removed your arm from Ellie’s grip.
"go see your fucking girlfriend"
You turned away from Ellie, walking to the door and you stopped. It was as if your feet were glued to the floor. You slowly turned around to face Ellie once again.
"I'll never be able to forgive you" you muttered softly and you looked at the girl you had so much love for.
"Please try" Ellie begged.
"I'll leave her" Ellie quickly reasoned with you, to make you stay.
You shook your head as you dropped your bag onto the floor. You made your way towards Ellie as you once again muttered “I can't fucking forgive you" as you wrapped your arms her neck, her lips soon crashed into yours.
The kiss was intense. You've been starved from Ellie, and this was your first taste in months.
Teeth crashing into each other, heavy breathes filled the room, and hands were roaming.
You pulled away and you looked at Ellie for the last time.
Her eyes blown wide, her lips swollen her chest rapidly rising.
You once again moved from her grip as you picked up your bag.
You stood the door once more. Before you walked out the door you turned to Ellie one last time, giving her a small "I love you" was the last words she ever spoke to you.
Don't hold your breath, forget you ever saw me at my best
You don't deserve what you don't respect
Don't deserve what you say you love and then neglect
Now bite your tongue, it's too dangerous to fall so young
Take back what you said
Can't lose what you never had
You don't even know why you're upset. Why were you so fucking depressed over a relationship that never even happened?
All you do is fantasize over a relationship that wasn't even real.
What you could've been. And you know you were being delusional when you thought you had a chance with her, and yet you still fell for her.
But we all learn the hard way don't we?
You can't be sad over something that wasn't even yours to being with.
All you had to do was suck it up and get to work. You'd eventually get over Ellie. And you'd be happy again, right?
As much as you try to convince yourself, you aren't so sure you can see a happy life without Ellie.
The girl you thought was your soulmate.
You got a 9-to-5, so I'll take the night shift
And I'll never see you again, if I can help it
In five years, I hope the songs feel like covers
Dedicated to new lovers
"Are you sure you want to take the night shift?" Jesse asked you one last time.
"I'm sure" you replied
Even though you hated the night shift it got you away from Ellie. You didn't have to see her at your workplace. You don't have to constantly be reminded about what the two of you could've been.
"Remember Ellie will come in at 9 tomorrow" Jesse yelled as he walked out the front door of the Café. He gave you a small wave, as the bell chimed when the door finally closed.
"yeah I know" you yelled back.
You hoped that one day you'd stop working the night shift.
And maybe, just maybe you'd be able to move on from Ellie.
But till then you'd rather torture yourself than to be in the same room as Ellie fucking Williams.
Authors note: guess who disappeared and whos suddenly back again? obviously me.... remember you are loved and to always be kind, my requests are always open
yours truly,
Zia<3
This short series was inspired by the song "Therefore You and Me [故にユーエンミー]" Truthfully I don't know the meaning to the song so this story is literlly my theory to what it could be about :)
Pairing: ellie williams x fem!reader
requests are always open, feel free to leave one!
Warnings: Mentions of child abuse and toxic relationships
Summary: All you needed was Ellie.
Ellie was 3 when he hit her for the first time. She remembers the incident as if it was yesterday.
She remembered running around in the house when she tripped and dropped her sippy cup, her orange juice dripping onto the carpet. She remembers her father’s footsteps, she remembers him yelling, taking off his belt and hitting her till she couldn’t sit. And it was like that her entire life. Every small mistake she made, no matter how young she was. She was hit.
Growing up with a man as cold as the winter nights in Jackson wasn’t easy for Ellie. She never experienced the love, the warmth many girls her age spoke about, when asked about their fathers. All she knew was the sound of her dad’s footsteps, the yelling and the sound of his belt.
Even though the beating traumatized Ellie and she knew this was wrong. He was hurting her. But this is the only way her father gave her attention. This was the only way he looked at her. Touched her.
As messed up as it sounds Ellie started acting out. Doing stupid shit on purpose just to feel her father’s love, just to feel wanted by him. This form of love Ellie grew up with. This is all she knew.
His love language wasn’t words of affirmation; it wasn’t quality time it was hitting.
Ellie started hitting people as form of affection because that’s what her father did to her growing up. That’s all she knew. That’s all she craved.
That’s when Ellie met you and she immediately fell in love. You were soft gentle, kind nothing like her father.
You weren’t like him. You actually showed her true love. But she couldn’t give you that affection back. She couldn’t hug you, she couldn’t comfort you. All she could do was give you the love her father gave her.
The first time Ellie hit you was 3 months into your relationship. You dropped a glass, it made a loud noise as the glass shattered onto the cold white tiles. And all you heard was Ellie’s footsteps, yelling and you felt your body hit the floor. You knew Ellie was violent. You knew she had a short temper but you never thought Ellie would hit you.
But you loved her, you forgave her. And you let her hit you. Over and over again.
Some nights you ended up bloody, bruised for weeks that you couldn’t even leave the house. You lied to people. You had to keep Ellie safe. You could fix her. You loved her.
Love conquers all they said.
Ellie watches you clean your wounds over and over again. She heard the way you’d cry yourself to sleep. How you’d whimper when you tried walking down the stairs. She watched how you flinched every time she came close to you. And every time Ellie would comfort you. Whispering sweet nothings into your ears telling you she would change:
“I won’t do it again”
“Forgive me baby”
“I love you more than anything”
“I’m doing this for you”
You believed that she’d stop. But the months went on. The abuse got worse. But yet you stayed.
“You only need me baby. Its only me and you” she whispered into your ear one night after she gave you a black eye.
you and me
you and me
you and me
love, love
Your family begged you to leave her. Many people have stopped talking to you. But you didn’t care. You don’t need anyone, only Ellie.
Only her
Ellie wondered why you didn’t leave her. You were losing people. Your family stopped talking to you. You cried. Begged her to stop. You’ve bled because of her. But you never left.
Ellie knew she was hurting you. She knew what she was doing was wrong. She can’t blame her father for hitting her forever, she can’t blame your abuse on her dad. But this was love. It was love in Ellie’s eyes.
She won’t stop. You knew she wouldn’t. She knew she wouldn’t.
You don’t need anyone. Anyone but Ellie. Even through all the abuse you’ll continue to love her because at the end of the day it’s you and Ellie.
“You and I will be together forever” Ellie whispered.
you and me
you and me
you and me
love, love
Part 2
Authors note: Sorry if this one was short! I just had to post something. But I’m currently working on another series because of a very interesting request I got so just know something big is coming in the next two weeks… remember you are loved and to always be kind… requests are always open feel free to leave one!
Yours truly,
Zia <3
pairing: ceo!ellie williams x secratery fem!reader
requests are open, send me your thoughts:)
Warnings: MDNI Explicit sexual content (18+): intense sexual tension, implied oral sex, semi-public workplace sex, voyeurism, jealous/possessive behavior
Summary: You're her secretary—organized, polite, and always on time. She's the boss—cold, brilliant, and merciless. But every glance from Ellie lingers too long. Every touch burns. And every closed-door meeting gets harder to forget.
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MONDAY
The first time Ellie Williams looks at you that way, you think you imagined it.
It’s just a glance. A flicker of her eyes up your legs as you place the morning reports on her desk. But there’s a pause—half a second too long before she meets your gaze, green eyes heavy-lidded and unreadable behind wire-rimmed glasses.
“Thank you,” she says. Her voice is a low hum, raspy from lack of sleep or too much coffee. Or both. You nod, trying not to look at her mouth. Trying not to notice how she licks her lower lip when she turns back to the screen.
You walk out of her glass-walled office trying not to blush, legs unsteady under your pencil skirt. You shouldn’t have worn that lipstick. But the thing is—you know what you’re doing.
And so does she.
WEDNESDAY
Ellie Williams is brilliant, successful, and terrifying. She doesn’t waste time with small talk. She hates lateness. She reads contracts like they’re storybooks and intimidates men twice her age with a single look.
She’s also annoyingly hot.
You’ve spent the last three weeks working under her, literally and figuratively, and she hasn’t so much as smiled at you. Until now.
“Shut the door,” she says one morning, not looking up from her laptop. Her voice is low, authoritative.
You close it behind you, pulse skipping.
“Come here.”
She slides a file across her glass desk. You step closer than necessary, your hand brushing hers as you take it. It’s electric. It feels intentional.
“Read this clause,” she says, tapping a page. “Tell me what’s wrong with it.”
You lean over. She leans back in her chair, one leg crossing over the other slowly, eyes fixed not on the paper—but on you. You can feel her stare. Your skin burns under it.
“That’s… ambiguous wording,” you murmur. “It leaves too much room for liability.”
Her lips curve just slightly. You did well.
And then she says it: “You’re smarter than you look.”
You swallow. “You don’t know how I look.”
She raises an eyebrow. “Don’t I?”
It’s dangerous. Everything about her is. But you leave her office feeling like you just passed a test.
FRIDAY NIGHT
The building is empty.
You stayed late because she asked. A simple email: Stay after hours. Need you to help draft a response.
No “please.” No “thank you.” But you came.
Her office is dimly lit. Just her desk lamp and the amber glow from the city skyline outside.
Ellie’s jacket is off. Her sleeves rolled up. Tattoos exposed. Her jaw tight as she types. You stand nearby, heart pounding.
“Come here,” she says again, voice lower now. Rough.
You step beside her. She gestures at the screen, scrolling through a client proposal. But her hand brushes your hip. She doesn’t move it.
You don’t breathe.
“You smell like cinnamon,” she murmurs suddenly, almost distracted.
“It’s my lotion.”
“I like it.”
There’s silence.
You turn to her—slowly.
Ellie’s eyes flick to your lips. Your knees go weak. She leans in. So close. Not kissing. Just hovering—like she’s daring you.
“I’m your boss,” she says, whispering it like a sin.
“I know,” you whisper back.
“I shouldn’t want you.”
“But you do.”
Her hand grips your hip. You don’t know who kisses first.
But once her mouth is on yours, everything blurs. She pulls you onto her lap, fingers tangled in your hair, tongue sliding past your lips with a groan that makes your spine arch.
Her mouth is hot, desperate, possessive.
But the moment is short-lived. She pulls back, breathless, eyes wild.
“Get out,” she says harshly.
You freeze. “Ellie—”
“I said get out.”
You leave shaking. But she doesn’t stop you because she regrets it. She stops you because if you stayed, she would’ve had you on her desk.
WEEK LATER
She avoids you all week. Short emails. Clipped instructions. Barely looks at you.
It hurts. But you understand.
Power. Rules. Risk.
Still, she calls you into her office on Thursday. You go, heart hammering.
She’s pacing. Frustrated.
“I can’t think,” she snaps. “Not with you out there.”
You blink. “Did I do something wrong?”
Ellie stops. Looks at you like you’re the problem and the solution.
“You’re perfect,” she whispers. “That’s the problem.”
And then she’s kissing you again—this time rough, frantic. She shoves everything off her desk in one motion, making you gasp.
“Sit,” she growls.
You do.
And then her mouth is on your neck, your blouse unbuttoned, her hands everywhere, as if she’s waited months for this.
You moan her name—soft, breathy. She freezes.
Then she says it: “You’re mine.”
You nod. “Yes.”
You start sneaking around. Closed doors. Locked meeting rooms. Lingering touches behind your desk.
Ellie becomes obsessed.
She buys you new pens just because she saw you chewing the caps. Schedules “private reviews” that last way too long. Texts you when you’re home just to say, "Wanna come back and help me ‘finish something?’”
She doesn’t date anyone else. You check. But she doesn’t call you her girlfriend, either.
Power. Risk. Rules.
But in her eyes—in the way her thumb traces your lips after she kisses you—you know.
You own her, too.
MONDAY
The worst part isn’t that you kissed your boss. It’s that you keep doing it.
Ellie’s office becomes a second home for secrets: stolen kisses, whispered confessions, shaky breaths against frosted glass. But it never goes further than that—not fully.
There’s always a line.
Sometimes you think she’s drawing it. Sometimes, you think she’s one step from erasing it completely.
And every time she stops, the excuse is always the same.
“I can’t afford to lose you.”
You don’t know if she means as her assistant… or something more.
TUESDAY
Ellie starts acting weird.
She stares at you when she thinks you don’t notice. She double-texts you at night, then apologizes. Her fingers shake slightly when you hand her coffee. But she still never says what she wants.
And you’re getting tired of pretending.
“Are we going to talk about this?” you finally ask, one evening after everyone’s left. You’re leaning in her office doorway, arms crossed. She’s behind her desk, eyes on her screen but clearly distracted.
She doesn’t look at you.
“There’s nothing to talk about.”
“Ellie.”
Now she looks up. Her jaw tightens.
“It’s dangerous,” she says quietly. “This is my company. You’re my employee. If anyone finds out—”
“I’d be the one who gets fired,” you cut in.
Her face shifts. There it is. The truth.
“I would never let that happen,” she says, voice low and deadly. “You have no idea what I’d do to protect you.”
You step forward slowly. “Then stop hiding me.”
She looks like she wants to say something. Instead, she stands. Walks around her desk. Stops a breath away. Her hand brushes your wrist.
And she whispers: “I don’t hide you. I hide us. Because once people know, they’ll want to take you from me.”
There’s something unhinged in her voice. Soft, but sharp. Like she’s thought about it too much. Like she’s scared of how far she’d go.
FRIDAY
You try to act normal.
Emails. Schedules. Morning coffee runs. But Ellie keeps breaking the façade. She calls you in five times for "review." Never talks about work. Just stares at you. Sometimes says something ridiculous like, “You wore that on purpose” or “I had a dream about you.”
And then there are the nights. Her texts turn softer, needier.
Ellie: Are you in bed?
Ellie: Can I call?
Ellie: Just wanna hear your voice.
You let her. And when she breathes your name into the phone, quiet and rough, it makes your heart ache. Because this doesn’t feel casual anymore. It feels like it’s killing her to keep you a secret.
SUNDAY
You show up to her apartment for the first time.
Ellie doesn’t even pretend to play it cool. She opens the door in a black tee and sweatpants, hair a mess, eyes tired like she hasn’t slept in days.
“You came.”
“You asked me to.”
She pulls you in without a word. Kisses you like it’s oxygen. Like she’s been holding her breath all week.
You don’t leave until 3AM.
There’s no sex. Just tangled limbs. Soft kisses. Ellie’s head resting on your chest like she needs to be near your heartbeat.
You stroke her hair, whispering, “Why do you make this so hard?”
And her answer is quiet. “Because if I ever lost you, I’d never recover.”
WEDNESDAY
It happens. You get caught.
You didn’t even notice the door was cracked open.
You were leaning on her desk, Ellie between your legs, her hand up your thigh, whispering something filthy against your neck.
And someone—probably an intern—saw it.
You don’t find out until later, when HR sends Ellie a request for a "private meeting." That afternoon, Ellie storms into your little cubicle, eyes wild, pulse in her throat.
“We’re not hiding anymore,” she says, grabbing your hand in front of the whole floor.
“Ellie—”
“Let them talk. Let them guess. I don’t give a damn.”
She pulls you into her office, slams the door, and kisses you like it’s the only thing that matters.
And that night, she finally takes you home again—but this time, there’s no restraint.
This time, she makes love to you like she’s claiming territory. Like she’s trying to memorize everything, in case the world tries to take it away.
ONE WEEK LATER
Ellie is pacing. You're seated across her office, legs crossed, heart pounding.
“You’re not just my secretary anymore,” she says. “You haven’t been for a while.”
You look at her. “So what now?”
She stops. Walks to you. Kneels—yes, kneels—between your legs and rests her head in your lap.
“We rewrite the rules.”
You card your fingers through her hair.
“And if they fire you?” you ask
Ellie looks up at you with that same fire in her eyes.
“They won’t. But if they do? I’ll build my own damn company. Put your name on the front. Hire myself as your assistant.”
You laugh. You kiss her.
And you both know you’re done pretending.
MONDAY
It starts with a look. Ellie walks in late—coffee in hand, sleeves rolled up, jaw sharp—and heads straight to your desk. She pauses. Leans down.
You think she’s going to whisper something.
But no.
She presses a soft kiss to your cheek.
Right there. In front of everyone. You freeze. So does the office.
Conversations stop. Keyboards go quiet. Someone drops their pen.
Ellie stands up straight, totally unfazed.
“Good morning, baby,” she says like it’s the most normal thing in the world.
And then she heads to her office. Just like that, everyone knows.
By lunch, the office is buzzing.
“Did you see that?”
“I thought she was single.”
“Isn’t that her boss?”
“There’s no way that’s allowed.”
“I heard they were already hooking up for weeks.”
You try to focus on your screen, but it’s impossible. Every glance in your direction lingers too long. You hear your name more in whispered tones than anyone should in a professional setting.
But Ellie? She acts like it’s nothing. Like she hasn’t just lit the entire building on fire with one kiss.
The next day, HR calls Ellie in again. You sit at your desk, sick with anxiety.
She walks out 30 minutes later, face unreadable. You follow her to her office, shut the door behind you.
“What happened?”
She exhales. “They’re not happy. But technically, I didn’t break any rules.”
“Technically?”
She shrugs. “We’re adults. Consensual. No direct coercion or manipulation. I didn’t promote you or change your pay. Legally, they can’t fire either of us.”
“But they’re watching now,” you murmur.
Ellie steps closer. “Let them.”
You overhear two coworkers talking about you in the breakroom later that week. Something crude. Something about how “you must be really good at keeping her attention” if the boss is that obsessed.
You walk out before they see you. Embarrassed. Furious. Ellie notices immediately.
“What’s wrong?”
“Nothing,” you lie.
She doesn’t believe you. Of course she doesn’t. Twenty minutes later, you hear her voice—raised—from down the hall.
“Say it again. I dare you.”
You stand up. Heart racing. Ellie’s got one of the men cornered, towering over him with a calm, cold fury that could freeze lava.
“She’s smarter than everyone in this damn building. And if I hear you speak about her like that again, you won’t be working here anymore.”
He stammers. Apologizes. She doesn't back off.
“She’s not just mine—she’s the best thing about this place.”
The entire office hears.
You’re both in her car. The sun is setting. You’re quiet. Ellie’s gripping the steering wheel a little too tight.
“I shouldn’t have done that,” she mutters. “I’m sorry.”
“Why are you sorry?”
She looks at you.
“Because I want to protect you so badly it scares me.”
You reach over, touch her arm.
“I’ve never had anyone stand up for me like that.”
She exhales slowly.
“I’m yours,” you whisper.
And Ellie—tough, stoic Ellie—closes her eyes like she’s holding back tears.
“I’ve been yours since the first day you walked into my office,” she confesses.
THURSDAY
You didn’t think she’d go public with it. But she does.
At the company-wide meeting, Ellie is cool and composed as ever. She addresses the quarterly goals, talks profits and projections. Then, at the end:
“One more thing.”
She glances at you.
“I want to address the elephant in the room. Yes, I’m in a relationship with my secretary. It’s not a secret anymore. And if anyone has a problem with it, take it up with HR. Or better yet, with me.”
Silence.
Then applause. Actual applause. You’re stunned.
She doesn’t smile. Doesn’t wink. Just steps down, professional and poised, like she didn’t just dismantle the gossip mill with a single announcement.
Later, in her office, she pulls you in by the waist and murmurs, “They’re never touching you. Not even with words.”
Ellie books a meeting room. Not for work. Just to eat lunch with you away from the eyes. She brings you your favorite sandwich. Sits close. Hands brushing under the table.
“Is this okay?” she asks quietly. “I know it’s messy.”
You smile. “I’d sit under your desk again if I had to.”
Ellie laughs—real, unguarded.
Then she leans in. Presses a kiss to your knuckles.
“I’m not letting them shame us. You’re not a secret. You’re everything.”
MONDAY
Things have mostly gone back to normal.
Well—office normal. People don’t whisper quite as loudly anymore. HR stopped breathing down Ellie’s neck. And you’ve found a quiet rhythm with her—sneaking kisses in her office, flirty texts during boring meetings, soft nights tangled in her sheets. But there's still a tension in the air. Like something’s waiting to snap.
Like you’re both still holding back.
TUESDAY
His name’s Jordan. New hire. Tech department.
Cute in a safe, unthreatening way—gelled hair, bright smile, button-ups that are a little too fitted. He’s harmless. Probably.
Until he starts showing up at your desk. First it’s innocent. A shared joke. A smile. Then it escalates.
“You’ve got the prettiest eyes in this whole office.”
You glance up from your computer. “Thanks.”
“Bet that’s how you got hired, huh?” he laughs, like it’s funny.
You go cold. “Excuse me?”
“I mean—c’mon. The boss is, like, obsessed with you. Can’t blame her.”
You stand up. “That’s completely inappropriate.”
He just smirks. “Relax. It’s a compliment.”
You don’t even answer. You walk. Straight to Ellie’s office.
You barely shut the door before her voice sharpens. “What happened?”
You tell her everything. She’s already grabbing her jacket before you finish.
“I’ll talk to him,” you say quickly. “You don’t have to—”
But her eyes have darkened.
“I do have to. Because he crossed a line and because you’re mine.”
You swallow.
“Ellie—”
“No. I’m done being polite.”
The entire office is silent again.
Ellie’s voice slices through the air like a blade.
“I don’t care if you’re new or stupid or both. You don’t talk to her like that. You don’t look at her like that. You don’t breathe near her unless she wants you to.”
Jordan stammers. Ellie steps closer.
“She’s not your peer. She’s not your flirt project. She’s mine. And if you can’t understand what respect looks like, you’ll be out of a job faster than you can blink.”
Jordan nods, practically shaking. You’ve never seen her like this.
Furious. Cold. Protective.
And so, so in love.
She slams her office door shut. You sit quietly.
Ellie’s pacing. Her hands run through her hair, jaw clenched. She won’t even look at you.
“Are you okay?” you ask gently.
She stops.
“I hate it,” she whispers. “I hate the idea of someone touching you. Someone thinking they have a right to you.”
“Ellie—”
“No. I’ve been trying so fucking hard not to say it.”
You freeze. She walks up to you slowly. Cups your face in both hands.
“But I’m in love with you.”
Your breath catches.
“I didn’t want to scare you,” she murmurs. “Didn’t want to say it too soon. But I love you. And I’d burn this whole company down if someone hurt you.”
Your heart is racing.
“Say it again.”
She leans in, forehead to yours.
“I love you.”
You kiss her like you’ve been dying to for weeks. Deep. Grateful. Starving. And when you pull back, breathless, your smile is shaking.
“I love you too.”
Ellie’s whole body relaxes. Like she’s been waiting to exhale for months.
You’re at her place. You’re in her bed, skin warm from her touch, her fingers brushing your bare spine.
Ellie whispers into your hair: “You’re mine. And not because I’m your boss. Not because you work for me. Because I chose you.”
You whisper it back. And when she falls asleep with her arms around you, you realize something:
You were never under her desk. You were always under her skin.
FRIDAY, 6:42 P.M
The office is nearly empty.
It’s the end of the quarter. People went home early. Laughter and footsteps faded around 5:00. The air has that hollow, humming stillness that only comes after hours. Fluorescent lights dimmed. Elevator chimes long gone.
You should go home. You both should.
But Ellie’s door is closed. And your back is pressed to it.
Her mouth is on your neck, hot and open and needy.
You moan quietly, hands fisting the front of her shirt, body arching as her thigh presses between your legs, her grip firm at your waist.
“Ellie,” you whisper. “Someone could—”
“Shh.” Her voice is low, rough. Her lips brush your ear. “They’re all gone.”
You glance toward the glass panels. She’s pulled the blinds halfway, but it’s still risky.
And yet… You don’t stop her.
You're sitting on the edge of her desk now. Skirt bunched. Blazer long gone.
Ellie’s shirt is open—collar popped, chest rising fast. She’s in her chair between your knees, one hand gripping your thigh, the other sliding dangerously high.
“Look at me,” she commands softly.
You do.
God, you do.
Because Ellie in the office chair—tie loosened, hair mussed, eyes heavy with lust—is your undoing.
“You always sit here like this when you’re typing,” she murmurs, dragging her fingers up your inner thigh. “And you expect me to focus?”
“Ellie—” you gasp.
Her fingers brush against your soaked underwear. She smiles.
“Such a fucking distraction.”
You kiss her hard, teeth knocking. Desperate. Uncoordinated. Hot.
Then she slips her fingers beneath the lace and—
“Hey, boss, I—oh my God—”
You jolt.
Ellie jerks away, instantly on her feet, shielding you with her body. Your heart is pounding. Face flushed. Skirt still hiked. Her hands still warm on your hips.
In the doorway: Jordan. Eyes wide. Frozen.
“GET. OUT.” Ellie’s voice is a snarl.
He stammers, backs out, slams the door behind him.
You’re gasping.
Ellie’s jaw is clenched so hard, you think it might crack.
You fix your clothes in a daze. Ellie watches you. Still breathing heavily. Still angry.
“I’m sorry,” you whisper. “That was reckless.”
She walks up behind you. Wraps her arms around your waist. Buries her face in your shoulder.
“I don’t regret it.”
You turn, eyes meeting hers.
“Are you okay?”
She nods. “I’m going to kill him.”
“Ellie—”
“Not literally. Probably.”
You laugh, a little shakily. She presses her forehead to yours.
“I can’t keep my hands off you.”
“I don’t want you to.”
MONDAY
The entire office knows. Again.
Jordan’s quiet. Pale. Avoids you like the plague. Ellie calls a full department meeting. Not for discipline—but for clarity.
She looks every single employee dead in the eye and says: “Yes. We’re together. Yes, it’s serious. No, it’s not casual. And if anyone thinks about violating our privacy again, I will escalate it to legal.”
You feel the burn of her protectiveness long after she finishes speaking.
She pulls you into her office. Locks the door. This time, just to kiss you slow.
“Maybe I should move you out of the secretary role,” she murmurs. “Not because of the rumors. Because I need you close—and this isn’t sustainable.”
“Are you firing me as your secretary?”
“I’m promoting you,” she says with a smirk. “To something safer. Something that means I don’t have to hold back.”
Your heart flutters.
“Is that even allowed?”
“I’m the boss,” she says. “It’s whatever I say it is.”
can u pretty please with a cherry on top make a part 4 to the milf abby 😔🙏🏼💟
part 1 part 2 part 3 part 4
Authors note: Ladies and pookies I'm back! This last week has been the worst and most painful week of my life but, I'm back and better than ever <3
☆ Milf Abby who gets your initials tattooed on her ring finger.
You felt her calloused hands grab your waist as you stood admiring the ring she got you.
“it’s pretty” you muttered
“you’re pretty” she said with a smile
“shut up Abby” you shoved her to the side as you felt your face grow hot.
The two of you stood in silence for a while, enjoying the peace and quiet you both rarely get with Aubrey
“you know” Abby started “if the bride gets to wear an engagement ring, what about their partner?”
Your brows furrow, at the thought.
“that actually makes a lot of sense Abby. We should get you a ring-“
but before you could even finish you sentence Abby lifted up her right hand revealing the tattoo.
“what the fuck Abigail”
☆ Milf Abby who refers to you as her wife long before the wedding.
“Yeah my wife and I went there”
“she’s my wife”
“my wife likes that show” “you know what they say happy wife happy life”
☆ Milf Abby who buys you white dresses as gifts just to see what you would look like in white, because she really couldn’t wait for the wedding.
☆ Milf Abby who’s literally a perfectionist and plans the wedding without a planner.
“No, you aren’t folding the napkins right” “that isn’t the right shade of pink”
☆ Milf Abby who asks her daughter to be the ring bearer and the maid of honor.
Aubrey looked at you with curious eyes as Abby placed the box onto her lap.
“dude what’s this?”
“Aubrey I’m not your friend, who taught you that word?” Abby sighed
“grandpa did” “of course he did. He really needs to stop-“
“Abby lets focus on the box” you interrupted her, knowing this conversation wasn’t going anywhere.
“Can I open it please?” Aubrey asked you, with a polite smile.
“of course she’s nice to you! You little gremlin-“
“Abby!”
Abby felt Aubrey pinch her arm at the gremlin comment
“why would you-“
“ok” you said with a stern voice “lets open the box, you guys can fight later”
sometimes it felt like you were living with children.
Aubrey’s small hands grabbed the box, eagerly tearing away the wrapping paper. In the box lay a simple white dress, with paper rings. The little girl gently grabbed the fabric, inspecting it. She saw the rings and it took her a while to get it.
“I’m carrying the rings?!” she yelled
“and we were hoping you’d be our maid of honor too” you pulled out a basket from behind you and the girls smile grew.
☆ Milf Abby who begs you to let her go with you when you go wedding dress shopping.
“please”
“Abby its bad luck”
“fuck the bad luck”
☆ Milf Abby who sends you thumbs down emoji’s the whole time you were gone.
☆ Milf Abby who doesn’t want to sleep in separate houses the night before the wedding.
☆ Milf Abby who sends you cringe Facebook minion memes and jokes because she misses you. This was your first night apart in months, but she knew after tonight she would be waking up with you next to her for the rest of her life.
☆ Milf Abby who barley slept that night. She wasn’t sure if she was nervous or excited.
☆ Milf Abby who gets ready extremely early. Her hair was out of her normal tight braid, and the hair fell to her shoulders. Her black suit hugging her in all the right places.
☆ Milf Abby who starts at herself in the mirror too long, and she suddenly notices her wrinkles, she suddenly notices the grey hairs.
☆ Milf Abby who gets cold feet.
☆ Milf Abby who starts crying because you didn’t deserve this.
You needed someone younger, some who doesn’t have back pains and complains about their joints hurting. Someone who wasn’t turning 50 soon.
Someone who won’t die soon.
You needed more than Abby.
Abby’s loud sobs filled the room as she looked at herself in the mirror.
She should call this off.
“Abby?” her head snapped to the direction of the door. It was her dad. She quickly wiped her eyes, and she sniffed a couple of times. “hey dad” he slowly walked towards her, and he gently sat next to her, putting his hand on her shoulder he muttered “you okay?”
The blonde sitting next to him broke out in sobs, her head fell to his shoulder “oh honey” he breathed as he held her close.
“Abby what’s wrong?” He felt his daughter tremble next to him. “i- I’m keeping her back in life” Abby started, and Jerry just sat and listened to her.
“I’m so old I’m probably going to die soon. Who wants to be married to a grandma? One of these days I won’t be able to get out of bed without complaining. And she’s so pretty and young- she-she deserves everything, and what can I give her? My future dentures?”
“have you ever thought that this is what she wanted?”
Abby lifted her head to what her father said.
“The fact she’s marrying you proves that the love she has for you is endless. She’s willing to look after you when you do get those dentures. She wants you as much as you want her Abby, don’t let your insecurities stop you from being with the love of your life. And yeah, you’ll get old, but she’ll be with you”
☆ Milf Abby who goes to the venue earlier than everyone to make sure everything is ok.
☆ Milf Abby who stood at the altar with sweaty palms, waiting for your arrival.
☆ Milf Abby who started crying as soon as you start walking down the aisle.
☆ Milf Abby who couldn’t take her eyes off you the whole ceremony because she realized that this was it. She was marrying you.
☆ Milf Abby who shed more tears than you did during your vows and she cried even more when Aubrey came with the rings.
☆ Milf Abby who practically jumps on you when they said she could kiss you.
You felt her hands grab your face, and she brought you in for a rough kiss.
The crowned screamed around the two of you and you heard the clicks of all the cameras. You felt Abby’s lips smile against yours before she pulled away putting her head against yours.
She whispered “I’ll love you forever”
“I love you too abs, forever and always”
Can you maybe do post man Abby with Mrs.postman- Black pumas
Mrs. Postman - (abby anderson x reader)
Hi anon! this was so weird to write because where I'm from we don't have people who deliver our mail, but i hope i did you justice. I hope you enjoy:)
This story is based off the song Mrs. Postman by Black Pumas, if you can please listen to the song as you're reading:)
Pairing: post man!abby x fem!reader
requests are open again! send me your silly thoughts:)
warnings: none
Summary: in which you fell for the post lady
authors note: first abby fic that isn't hcs??? let's fucking go dude. My second post for the day, I'm blessing yall before I leave till god knows when lmao.
Every tomorrow brings sunshine in my neighborhood since you've been in it
Oh-oh, here comes Mrs. Postman
She's thicker than blue blood and a message from her spirits, high descendant
Oh-oh, it's Mrs. Postman
This commonality won't let her be fooled by low conditions
Oh-oh, says Mrs. Postman
Your love reside in me but other feathers seem to flock together
Oh-oh, Mrs. Postman
You hated this stupid fucking city.
You don't even know why you moved here in the first place. It was fucking hot. Everything was expensive. You hated this place so much.
The Jackson sun was high in the sky, as you stood at the window drinking your morning tea.
You had moved in a couple of weeks ago, and today was finally the day you would be able to get your mail.
You finally heard the knock at the door, and with excitement you ran towards it. You almost tripped but no one needs to know that.
As you opened the door, you thought you stood in front of a god.
Her blonde hair, was pulled back in a tight braid, she was staring at you with her beautiful eyes, and her smile was just fucking perfect. Her uniform sat tight against her skin, showing her body is just the right places.
Holy shit.
Postman or Postwoman? You don't even what to call her.
"Hi, I'm Abby! You must be new" she said with a bright smile.
Now you knew why everyone is Jackson was always so happy in the morning, their fucking postman was a ray of sunshine.
"Yeah I am" you said with a small smile, opening up your hand to take the package from her hands.
"Have a good day ma'am" Abby said, before she walked away.
Maybe Jackson wasn't that bad after all.
If you want it
Go and get it, you can have it Mrs. Postman
That's alright
Can we spark it? Effervescence, let the flame burn Mrs. Postman
Right on
When it rains just know that every little thing is alright
All the same, I know that everything will be right on time
as the weeks went by, you realized that Jackson wasn't such a bad place.
The people were nice, it was a safe area. The Postlady is really hot. Things were looking up.
You found yourself waking up earlier in the morning, just to make yourself look prettier. You would sweep your front porch daily, to make sure that Abby would come to a clean place. You found yourself baking cookies, and giving it to her every morning.
What was happening to you?
Even when you didn't have any mail, Abby always made a turn at your place. Her visits always made you feel special.
The days Abby didn't come, you always felt the lack of her presence. She'd become a part of you routine. She's become a part of you.
Over time you learned small facts about the blonde.
Her dad was a surgeon, she had one dog, her favorite color is blue, she works 5 days a week, and she's trying to get into college.
You could say the two of you had established a friendship.
You saw whatever you had as more than that. You guys weren't a friendship in your eyes. You felt that there was more.
Your crush on Abby grew by the second, every interaction, every smile and giggle she let out had an effect on you.
god you were down bad for your fucking Postwoman.
Today was like no other.
You woke up, took a showers and you put on brand new blue sundress you bought to hope fully catch Abby's eye.
You sat in your living room, staring at the clock, counting down the seconds of Abby's arrival.
You heard a knock at your door, and you jumped up, cleaning your throat as you walked towards the door. You took a deep breath as you opened the door and you were met with Abby's smiling face.
You saw her eyes wonder down your body as she looked at your outfit.
She thought you looked fucking beautiful.
"Hi Abby" you muttered shyly.
Your eyes met as, and you felt a spark.
"Hi" Abby smiled.
"Do I have mail?" you asked.
"Yeah a letter" Abby handed it to you.
You thanked her and the two of you stood there for a while.
"Aren't you supposed to go Abby?" You asked unsure of why she still stood there.
"Open it"
with a raised eyebrow you opened the letter.
The page was complete white, but in the middle of the page there was some words written in black ink.
Will you go on a date with me?
From your favorite postwoman
Abby <3
You looked up at her with eyes wide, and she awkwardly brought her hand up to scratch the back of her neck.
"So?" She asked unsure.
She looked terrified.
"Fuck yes" You breathed before you leaped forward bringing her in for a hug. You gave her a kiss on a cheek as you pulled away, her face was red.
You made her so fucking nervous.
"Can we go out tonight?" Abby looked at you with a hopeful smile.
"See you tonight ms postman"
this story is based off the song boyfriend by ariana grande, if you can please listen to the song as you're reading:)
Pairing: ellie williams x reader
Setting: Modern College AU
requests are open again! send me your silly thoughts:)
Warnings: Emotional angst, mutual jealousy, slow-burn tension, internal conflict, drinking, makeout scenes (no explicit smut)
Summary: In a broken world, Ellie Williams becomes the one constant — protective, intense, and impossible to ignore. Their bond is complicated, but it’s all they have.
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Ellie’s hoodie still smelled like her shampoo. You knew that because you were still wearing it, weeks after she left it on your dorm bed like it didn’t mean anything.
But it did. Of course it did.
She knew it.
You knew it.
It was the only thing either of you seemed to know for sure.
You weren’t dating.
You didn’t kiss in public, didn’t hold hands, didn’t label anything. She didn’t ask you not to see other people—but she acted like you betrayed her if you did. You weren’t hers.
But she looked at you like she hated the thought of you belonging to anyone else.
Tonight, that look was on full display.
The party was packed. Bodies pressed too close in the too-small off-campus house, and you were perched on the arm of a couch beside some guy—Kieran?—laughing because he was charming and tall and most importantly, not Ellie.
She watched you from the kitchen, beer in hand, jaw clenched so tight you thought it might crack. You saw it in the way her knuckles whitened around the bottle. In how she ignored the pretty brunette trying to flirt with her.
You knew that look. You’d seen it in the mirror.
Kieran leaned closer, his hand resting casually on your thigh. “You’ve got that look in your eye.”
You blinked. “What look?”
“Like you’re trying not to look at someone.”
Your lips parted, but you didn’t deny it. Just glanced—briefly, too briefly—toward the kitchen. Ellie was gone.
You found her later. Out back on the steps, hoodie over her head, cigarette lit between her fingers—something she only did when she was pissed or spiraling. Maybe both.
“You’re mad,” you said.
Ellie didn’t look at you. “Didn’t know we were playing the jealousy game tonight.”
“We’re not.”
She exhaled smoke, bitter and sharp. “Could’ve fooled me.”
“Could say the same about you. Who was the girl in the kitchen?”
She smirked, humorless. “Didn’t catch her name. Didn’t matter.”
Your stomach twisted. “You’re such a hypocrite.”
“So are you,” she said, finally looking at you. “You sit there smiling like you’re in love with him, but you still wear my fucking clothes.”
The silence cracked.
You stepped forward. She didn’t move.
“You left that hoodie on purpose,” you said.
“Maybe I did.”
You were close now—close enough to hear her breath hitch.
“Why do you keep doing this?”
“Because I don’t know how not to want you.”
It felt like a confession, and you hated how badly you wanted to believe it.
It became a pattern. Nights out turned into emotional warfare. You flirted with people you didn’t care about. Ellie showed up with girls she never looked twice at. You exchanged long, loaded glances across crowded rooms.
Neither of you made a move.
Until the night you almost did.
It was late, the party thinning out. You found her alone in someone’s guest room, sitting on the bed with her head in her hands.
“You okay?” you asked.
She looked up, eyes bloodshot. “No.”
You didn’t say anything. Just sat beside her. Your thighs touched. She didn’t move away.
“I hate it,” she whispered. “Seeing you with someone else.”
You swallowed. “Then stop pretending you don’t care.”
“I can’t be with you,” she said, voice cracking. “But I don’t want you with anyone else either.”
Your breath caught. “That’s not fair.”
“I know.”
Then she kissed you.
It wasn’t gentle. It was desperate, aching, teeth and tongue and every word left unsaid. Your hands in her hair, hers on your hips, pulling you close, closer, too close—
Then she pulled back. “Fuck. I shouldn’t have done that.”
And just like that, she was gone again.
Weeks passed. You stopped texting. She stopped showing up. The hoodie stayed folded at the bottom of your drawer.
But you still saw her.
In the way your phone lit up at 2 AM with her name and no message.
In the missed glances across campus.
In the way she looked at you like she was drowning every time someone else touched your arm.
The last straw came during a house party in the city.
You were tipsy. Daring. Reckless. You kissed someone in front of her.
She left without a word.
You chased her outside. Rain had started to fall, light but cold.
“Ellie!” you called. “Wait—”
She turned. Her hair was damp, her eyes furious. “What do you want from me?”
“I don’t know!” you shouted. “I want—I want you to stop pretending like I don’t matter!”
“You matter,” she said, voice low, trembling. “You matter too fucking much.”
And then she kissed you again. This time slower. Angrier. Sadder.
Like a goodbye. But you didn’t let go.
You ended up at her apartment, clothes wet and clinging, hands tangled in each other like lifelines. She pushed you against the door, forehead resting against yours.
“You drive me insane,” she whispered.
“Then let me drive you insane forever.”
She didn’t answer with words. Just held you like she was terrified you’d disappear.
Later, tangled in her sheets, half dressed and heart aching, you whispered:
“This can’t just be nothing anymore.”
Ellie looked at you, green eyes soft for once.
“It’s not,” she said. “It’s never been.”
Brooklyn baby - (ellie williams x reader)
based off this request, but I had to post it separately cuz Tumblr is glitching again:(
This story is based off the song Brooklyn baby by Lana Del Rey, if you can please listen to the song as you're reading :)
Pairing: band!ellie x fem!reader
requests are always open, feel free to leave one, or just send me a song, and I'll take it from there or it can be headcannos! Or whatever you're thinking about! Just a reminder if you want something specific to happen, please indicate what you want in your request:)
Warnings: toxic relationships and manipulation
Summary: In which you were dating the world famous Ellie Williams
Well, my boyfriend's in a band
He plays guitar while I sing Lou Reed
I've got feathers in my hair
I get down to Beat poetry
And my jazz collection's rare
I can play most anything
I'm a Brooklyn baby
I'm a Brooklyn baby
Ellie was bound to be a star.
When Joel first taught her how to play guitar, he knew.
She was going to do great things, and everyone knew it too.
Ellie's first school concert was when she was 7 years old. She had guitar classes and her teacher was so impressed with her that she had Ellie do a solo.
As soon as Ellie got on that stage, it was as if she took control of the room in an instant. Everyone was so enchanted by her and everything she did.
Ellie was 17 years old when a producer reached out to her. Joel wasn't surprised because he knew his girl, and he knew one way or another that she would be a star.
And a star she became.
As soon as she turned 18, Ellie immediately signed the contract and she climbed the ranks in the music industry very quickly.
Within 3 months Ellies first single reached over a 100 thousand listens, and she was in high demand.
Everyone wanted her for brand promotions, they wanted the use her music.
Ellie was taking the music industry by a storm.
As the years went by, Ellie went from a solo artist, to being in a band with 2 best friends, Dina and Jesse.
They were called the golden trio, and because Ellie was the face of it they surpassed massive artists within days.
Now six years later, Ellie sat in her dressing room, as she heard the crowd chant her name.
Ellie! Ellie! Ellie!
She heard a knock on her door and she yelled a quick: "come in!"
As the door opened you walked in, and you walked towards her giving her a quick peck before whispering "you're on in 5 babe".
Ellie gave you another kiss, as she got up, walking to the mirror quickly fixing her outfit for a second.
"Do I look ok?" Ellie asked as she looked at herself in the mirror.
She was wearing a white wife beater, and a pair of black jeans, her hair was in a ponytails and her fingernails were painted black.
Ellie felt your arms wrap around her from behind.
"You look great, now go break leg baby!" You whispered before giving her a kiss on the side of her neck.
Ellie pulled away with a smile before she reached down to grab her guitar.
"Let's go!" She heard Jesse yell.
As she stood backstage, the chants grew louder and louder.
Ellie! Ellie! Ellie!
They repeated her name as if it was a prayer. Her fans worshiped the ground she walked on.
Even though they were the golden trio, Ellie would always be the one that out shines everyone.
Ellie walked onto the stage, the bright lights were shining into her face as the crowd erupted in screams and cries.
Ellie walked to the microphone with a massive grin, as she slinged the guitar to her front. She held the microphone as she spoke.
"Good evening Brooklyn!"
The crowd was yelling as if it was their last night alive.
Ellie yelled a quick "let's fucking do this!"
As the she brought her fingers down the strum the guitar.
Jesse started playing the drums, and Dina, her backup singer started with the back up vocals.
The crowd sang along and Ellie couldn't help but smile as she saw all that she had accomplished. She was thankful for everything that everyone had done for her over the years.
But she knew she wouldn't have come this far if it wasn't for you.
They say I'm too young to love you
They say I'm too dumb to see
They judge me like a picture book
By the colors, like they forgot to read
I think we're like fire and water
I think we're like the wind and sea
You're burnin' up, I'm coolin' down
You're up, I'm down
You're blind, I see
When you and Ellie fell in love, the two of you were only 15. Everyone always told you that you and Ellie would never last. That you were too young. But yet the two of you stayed together years later.
You were never as talented as Ellie.
Where she could flourish in room filled with people, you would shy away and hide a corner.
You've always wanted to be famous. You remembered when you younger you used to watch people blow up, and wish it was you.
You wished that you could be in the spot light. But for some reason you couldn't do anything to achieve that.
You were the complete opposite of Ellie. And because you were so shy you missed so many opportunities, and you hated yourself for that.
You met Ellie when you were 9 and you fucking hated her. She was everything you were not.
She was attractive, good at playing multiple instruments and she could sing. There was no way you would be able to beat or to come close to the Ellie Williams.
But where Ellie failed, you excelled. Ellie wasn't good with organization, or management. She was quite clumsy, to be honest.
And as soon as you guys became friends you helped her. You helped her make a schedule, you helped her make posters, you helped her with everything.
The two of you were an unstoppable duo.
Where Ellie was on fire or nervous, you would always calm her down, and put out whatever she got herself into.
When Ellie told you she liked you, you knew this was a way to get in. A way to get into the industry. Ellie was your key to success, and when you agreed to date her everything became better.
She hired you as her manager, and you had control over everything.
Her reputation, what she posted, who she saw, her finances. You were in control of Ellie and she didn't even realize.
You were going to be successful, and Ellie was the perfect person to use for your plan.
I'm talking about my generation
Talking about that newer nation
And if you don't like it, you can beat it
Beat it, baby
You never liked the way I said it
If you don't get it, then forget it
Cause I don't have to fuckin' explain it
Your plan started as soon as Ellie signed the contract.
The first step was for you to become her manager and that was the easiest thing ever due to Ellie always choosing you.
She would've left that company if they didn't let her have you.
As soon as you were in control, you realized that you had to get Ellie as out there as possible.
You arranged photoshoots, and interviews and you pushed her to the limit.
At some point in Ellie's career, she took a dip. She struggled, to write songs, she struggled to do anything.
You were loosing money and you hated that.
And on one random winter night it hit you.
You needed to hurt Ellie.
You loved her, but you were never in love with her. You cared, but you loved money more.
It started with small comments, such as:
"work harder" and "you can do better" and soon after you realized that manipulating her was the best way to about this whole situation.
You convinced her, that all her friends apart from the golden trio hated her.
"Ellie they are just using you. They'll never support you, like I do"
She cut ties with all of them and she wrote beautiful songs from the heartache, of loosing her dearest friends.
You made hate accounts on social media that focused on making fun of her insecurities. And with that more and more songs came out.
You were hurting her, but it was only temporary. Hurt is temporary, money will last you a lifetime.
You'll do anything to get what you want, and nothing and no one suspected you.
How could they? You were the love of Ellies life. The person she wrote most of her songs about.
But little did Ellie know you were the reason most of her songs even happened in the first place.
Without you, Ellie would've been nothing.
And you thank god that he gave you such an easy target.
Yeah, my boyfriend's pretty cool
But he's not as cool as me
'Cause I'm a Brooklyn baby
I'm a Brooklyn baby
"Did I do good?" Ellie whisperd as she lay on your chest.
"Could've been better" you lied. She was brilliant as always. But you realized that if you break Ellie down, her music would be better.
She would have more drive, to record and to sing, and to make money. Her hurt is what made you money.
More money, and more recognition for you as her manager.
Ellie let out a sigh.
"Are you sure I should continue singing? Recently you've been disappointed in me and I don't think that's good from a professional point of view" she admitted.
Ellie would always say things like this. Sometimes, the things you would day does get to her. And I hurts, it fucking hurts. But she never saw you as bad person. You were only there to help she would say.
"Don't be sensitive Ellie" you said as you pushed her off your chest.
Ellie sat up immediately with her eyes wide.
"If you stop singing who's gonna pay the bills?" You started.
"Do you want me to end up on the street..? Remember it'll be your fault I something happens to me"
Ellie quickly shook her head.
"No, god- no,... I don't want anything to happen to you" she said.
"Then you better stop thinking about quitting, and so as I say. After all I'm you're manager-"
"and you know what's best" Ellie finished your sentence with a smile.
You gave her a smile back before you opened your arms towards her, gesturing, with your hands that she lay down.
Ellie quickly crawled back into your lap, as she lay her head back down onto your chest.
"Sorry" she spoke softly.
"Don't be sorry" you muttered as you ran your fingers through her hair.
"Just go out there and make me proud... i love you, ok?" You spoke gently as Ellie closed her eyes and hummed.
Yeah, you might been dating a superstar, but she would never outshine you.
You would always be better than Ellie. Even if it wasn't on stage.
Authors note: thank you sm for all the requests! My inbox is full of them so just know I'm working harder than the devil himself to get all of these out! Remember you are loved and to always be kind!
Yours truly,
Zia:)
that professor ellie was perfect. please do a nsfw one LOL i feel like she’d be so sweet but also lowkey not BUT ONLY SOMETIMES bc she’s usually gentle but other times she’s like I HAVE TO HAVE YOU HEHEHE but never too crazy but also is she??? im spiralling
Headcannons: professor!ellie williams x reader
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professor ellie masterlist
warning: NSFW content! MDNI 18+
☆ By day, she’s the composed, sarcastic, brilliant literature professor — but behind closed doors, Ellie becomes the kind of woman who whispers filth in your ear while holding your face like you’re precious.
☆ Her desk is definitely not just for grading. She’s taken you over it more than once, locking the door and muttering, “Need to teach you a real lesson.”
☆ Ellie buys you expensive lingerie “for her eyes only” — and makes you wear it under your clothes to class just to tease her. She'll smirk knowingly while lecturing, completely composed while you're squirming.
☆ That calm, slow professor tone? It drops an octave when she’s turned on, and it drives you wild. Especially when she reads poetry to you while touching you.
☆ She worships your body. Whispers “my good girl” while brushing your hair out of your face. Calls you brilliant, beautiful, irresistible — even when you’re falling apart beneath her.
☆ Subtle in public — a hand on your lower back, a kiss to your temple — but in private? She's feral. Leaves marks like she’s afraid someone else might look at you wrong.
☆ Ellie makes everything sound intellectual… even sex. “Let me illustrate this theory,” or “Let’s conduct an experiment,” as she pins your wrists down.
☆ Some nights it’s slow, candlelit, and gentle. Other nights she’s gripping your hips, leaving you breathless and blissed out because she needed you that bad.
☆ When she keeps the glasses on during sex, you know she means business. She looks down at you like you’re a book she’s studied a thousand times but still finds something new every time.
☆ Yes, she will continue a sentence or a theory while slowly sliding her fingers into you — “Pay attention. This part’s on the test.”
☆ Weekend mornings always start with lazy kisses, sleepy fingers, and Ellie growling, “Don’t get up. Not until I’m done with you.”
☆ Ellie lives to see how far she can push you. Fingers, mouth, toys — she’ll draw it out until you’re crying her name like it’s scripture.
☆ Once in a while she gets so turned on she loses it — hair messy, biting your shoulder, saying “I need you. Right now. Don’t care where.”
☆ Immediately after, Ellie’s soft as ever — running you a bath, wrapping you in one of her flannels, feeding you strawberries like you’re royalty.
☆ That locked drawer in her office? Yeah, it’s not just for documents. It holds your favorite toy, a silk blindfold, and one of your panties she “borrowed.”
☆ Reading You Erotica: She’ll find the filthiest passage from some obscure book and read it to you while you sit in her lap, grinding slowly, whimpering.
☆ If someone else flirts with you, Ellie pulls you close, kisses you hard, and whispers, “Mine. Let me remind you.”
☆ She doesn’t always need to speak. Sometimes it’s a look — those sharp green eyes locking on you — and you know to drop to your knees.
☆ She tells you she dreams about you. That she can’t concentrate in meetings because she’s thinking about how you taste, how you sound.
☆ She calls you her “thesis.” The one thing she’ll never stop studying, never stop learning, never stop needing.
☆ Her hand wraps around your throat, but it’s never rough — it’s possessive. She leans in, kisses your lips softly, and says, “Breathe for me. That’s my girl.”
☆ One time, she made you sit through one of her lectures with a remote-controlled vibe inside you. Smiled at you from the front like nothing was happening — then turned it up when she caught you squirming.
☆ Ellie isn’t flashy with bondage. She prefers silk ties, slow binding, and long stares as she murmurs, “You look better like this. All mine.”
☆ Ellie needs to hear every sound you make. She’ll edge you for hours just to hear the pitch of your moans change, cataloguing them like they’re part of a study.
☆ She tugs your hair not just to dominate, but to angle your head up — to kiss you, to praise you, to look you in the eye and say, “So fucking pretty like this.”
☆ If you're a student, she makes you earn your orgasms during finals. “Get an A, and I’ll ruin you. Fail, and I’ll really ruin you. Either way, baby, you’re not walking right.”
☆ Ellie has a thing for your hands on her — gripping her shoulders, clutching her shirt, leaving nail marks down her back. She thanks you for them like you gave her a gift.
☆ She once let you ride her while still wearing her full robe, glasses slipping down her nose, hand on your waist as she said, “Professor’s privilege.”
☆ If you ever admit to having a dream about her, Ellie insists you describe every detail — while she touches you exactly how you described it.
☆ In bed, she gets scary quiet. One word from her — strip, stay, come — and your body obeys before your brain catches up.
Hey so could you maybe do ellie with “I was all over her” by salvia Plath
I was all over her - (ellie williams x reader)
Hi anon! i tried a different format because im still trying to get used to how to write and stuff lol, also the song choice??? hello??? one of my favorite crying songs fr, i hope you enjoy <3
This story is based off the song I was all over her by Salvia Palth! if you can please listen to the song as you're reading:)
Pairing: ellie x fem!reader
requests are open again! send me your silly thoughts
warnings: murder, angst, sadness, mommy issues
Summary: in which she wanted to be all over you
authors note: uni applications are open this month im so nervous that i wont get accepted... im stress writing bro
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The light was really bright, it hurt her eyes. Ellie hates bright lights.
The buzzing also bothered her.
"How can you be so bright and also make such an annoying sound at the same time?" she wondered as she stared at the lights on the roof.
It was cold in here too.
Fuck
it was really cold. She should've worn a jacket.
The room was plain too. There was just a table a few chairs.
Who decorated this place?
Ellie was snapped out if her judgmental thoughts when detective Miller walked into the room, and he sat across her.
"Do you know why you're here?" he asked coldly.
Ellie's handcuffs rattled as she sat up straight.
"I don't" she lied.
"Do you know y/n?" he suddenly asked.
Ellie's eyes widened slightly at the mention of your name. She knew you were. She knew you very well.
You guys were at the same party that night.
That night.
The night she wanted to forget so badly. But how could she? It was engraved into her mind.
She remembered everything.
"She's missing" he said.
"I know"
"I need you to be very honest with me. Do you know what happened to her?"
"No" Liar.
She knew what happened. She was the reason everything happened. She was already drowning in her own guilt.
Detective Miller leaned back into his chair and he let out a dramatic sigh. He knew Ellie knew something, he could sense it.
"Tell me what you remember from that night"
Her muscles tensed when she started telling the story.
"Don't know what I wanted, I have a memory"
Ellie walked into the party, and her nose scrunched up at the smell of weed. Wherever she looked there were people either smoking or drinking, or they were half naked and making out. The room was packed and there was barley space for her to walk.
Ellie hated small spaces, that's why she hated parties. The big crowds, the smells and liquids everywhere, she hated it.
She doesn't know why she was there.
She remembered finding you all alone and sitting at the top of the staircase. She remembered sitting next to you. She remembered how you looked at her.
She remembered, she remembered, she remembered, she remember-
"and then what happened" the detective asked her, bringing her out of her thoughts.
"I don't remember" she lied.
"People saw the two of you go into a room together. What happened in there?"
"Back at that party, I was all over her, We didn't make out or do anything, I just remember I was lonely"
You were so sweet. You were so nice and caring. You were the opposite of who she was.
What was a sweet thing like you doing at such a party?
She remembered how you told her that you enjoyed her company, and how you asked her to go somewhere private so the two of you could get to know each other better.
Lavender.
You smelled like lavender.
As she laid next to you on that bed listening to you ramble about why social media is bad for kids she realized how empty she felt.
You made her feel so full, so loved but when you went home she had no one. You guys didn't even have to do anything, as long as she is in your presence.
You made her happy. She needed to keep you. She needed to feel full.
She remembered you falling asleep, she remembered how peaceful you looked, she remembered how she got up and locked the door.
She remembered, she remembered, she remembered-
"Ellie" detective Miller called her. Ellie looked at him with a hum.
"Let's talk about your personal life"
He needed to dig deeper. He knew she was hiding something. He could tell.
"What do you want to know?" Ellie asked with caution.
"Tell me about your mom"
Oh.
"She left"
"I know she did, but do you remember anything about her?"
She let out a sigh, the handcuffs rattled and she realized that she was still being questioned.
She can't get soft now.
"My mom always made me feel like i was a problem, she made me feel... useless." She watched as he wrote down her words.
"Do you think she was right by calling you useless?" He asked, as if he cared. He didn't care, it was his job.
After a few seconds of silence Ellie answered: "I guess I am always, it's not a problem, it's just something, I got used to it"
Ellie locked the door and she slowly walked to where you lay. You looked so peaceful. She touched your hair gently. She wanted to remember you. Ellie took the pillow she was laying on a few seconds ago and she placed it on your face.
She remembered how you screamed, she remembered how you fought back, she remembered how you begged, she remembered her mother.
Her mother left, but you wont right? this way you'll stay with her right?
She remembered how her mom made her fell, she remembered how heartbroken she was.
she remembered, she remembered, she remembered-
"what did you do to her?" Miller asked.
Tears filled Ellies eyes "i killed her"
She just wanted to keep you. She wanted you to be with her. She wanted to be all over you.
The detective let out a sigh "Ellie Williams you're being arrested for murder"
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