The Feminine is the most potent, real and lifegiving power in my life. But it is also the most subtle and invisible, most easily lost against the currents of normality. Most easily lost inside the struggle.
Again and again I come back to it and life is born anew. What a feeling! To be that which I had forgotten that I am. That, which is unexplainable, unintelligable. Only felt.
I am the wind, I am the trees and rocks, I am all that is breathing and crying. And life is complete, despite being incomplete.
Had I not had a man in me, could have I just be? Oh, but the man and the woman are one and the same. I love him, and he loves me. I love her, and she… She is…
Oh, she. That’s all we want to know.
Primeval Renaissance, 2020-2021
Art by me.
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Some sketches I did while I was working on my animated film project in 2018. I was testing for imagery that looks both realistic and abstract at the same time. It is that midpoint where you can still make out the forest, yet there is also enough ambiguity to let you see pure, organic shapes.
Aside from the first one, these didn't make it into the movie. With time constraints, I was unable to do as much as I liked.
Would it make sense if I said all my searching has been in vain? It all started with a boy who infused himself into me like a chemical. I had dreamed of him for very long, so had he come to me. What he showed me, I am not sufficient to tell. To this day it has been greater than me. That was when I stopped posting on here. But my search has only been after he left. Now I am angry for old bearded men have corrupted and sucked from my juicy life sources. I want somewhere to be juicy again. After 3 long years I am here again to be more senseless than ever? Who knows how long will I stay.
Very quick sketches of Hikari Club members I drew when I was nostalgic. Drawing them gives me a really strange, dark yet energetic feeling which I enjoy very much.
Back in 2009, I was a 13 year old mad for Avatar. I made several series in which I designed outfits for the Gaang and proudly captured them bending. 11 years later, I returned to this same ambition with my current approaches. It is extremely satisfying to have them next to my old work. Not so much because they are technically more advanced, but rather because they show how I am still the same girl, in a little bit of a different way.
A result of sketching while listening to this.
WIP (Though I don’t really know what to do with it)
It was a very sunny day and I was in the school bus. For some reason, the bus followed a different path that day and I got a weird sensation out of the places we passed through. So this was made with the inspiration coming from that bus trip.