This All The Damn Time!

| UNSTOPPABLE WASP (2018) #7

By Jeremy Whitley and Alti Firmansyah

hey I'm sorry I stopped in the middle of that sentence my brain decided to flush its cache and I totally forgot what this conversation was

Omg omg omg. It all makes so much more sense when you realise it's not social anxiety but a fear of bring perceived.

Why do you feel more comfortable with a long coat and a mask as opposed to summer clothes?

Why do you DESPISE taking pictures? Especially if it's someone else and not you taking them.

Why do you feel like you have to stop doing whatever it was you were doing when someone passes by?

Why don't you want to tell anyone how leisurely you go about your day, taking a nap, going for a snack, sitting on your phone playing games etc. because you know they will comment on it and even though it's not negative or mockery it's still feels like you've been perceived?

Why can't you make eye contact? Why can you do it only if the other person is looking away but the second when they look at you you stop listening and when you're the one speaking you can't bear to look at them because you know their eyes are on you and they are perceiving you?

Why don't you want to dress excessively or wear nicer clothes? Because you will stand out

People mistake you for shy because you don't speak often, but it's really the fear of drawing attention to yourself more than it is the things you actually say, isn't it?

Why do you hate overpopulated areas even when no one is speaking? BUT you still feel more comfortable when more than one person is in the room (but not too many!) so that the burden of being perceived is directed on someone else and you can safely lay back just observing the scene.

It's all a defence mechanism

SEBASTIAN STAN

For Men's Health magazine (2019)

the differences in tony and peter’s suits will always drive me insane.

Iron man is built to be big, bulky, loud and flashy. it’s got gadgets and gizmos and flies on its own. It’s a suit, but it really functions on its own as well. Even Rhodey in IM1 couldn’t guess there’s a person in it. It’s supposed to look like a robot. You’re not supposed to see the human. It’s a suit made to hide in.

the spider man suit is incredibly thin and hides nothing at all. You can see the person, the head is shaped like a head, there are fingers and it looks human. it is nothing without its pilot. you can hear his voice, unfiltered if he chooses. It’s made to make sure that the person inside is seen as a person. It’s not a disguise.

Peter used his vigilantism to express his humanity. Tony wears his suit when his humanity is too much for him to bear and he needs to hide from it.

Imagine having late night talks with Bucky Barnes…

“Hey, Bucky?” you turn on your side to face him.

“Yes, doll?”

“Are missions scary?” you wonder.

He tilts his head and shrugs, “Not really.”

“But what about all the scary guys with guns and those aliens?” your brows furrow.

“I’m used to it,” the corners of his lips curve upwards, “You’re dating an old, wise one-hundred-year-old man, Y/N.” He leans up to kiss your forehead, “I’ve seen the world.”

You huff, “Well then what are you afraid of?”

Bucky reaches his hand out to you. He caresses your cheek and moves your stray hairs behind your ear, “Losing you.”

SEBASTIAN STAN | CAPTAIN AMERICA: THE WINTER SOLDIER

I remember a while ago there were several metas talking about Bucky being right-handed (which he then confirms in TFATWS) while the Winter Soldier is left-handed, usually using this scene as proof:

And maybe even this:

But recently I saw several gif sets of Bucky on the train right before the fall (one of which I’ll reblog after this) and look:

He’s moving the gun between his left hand and right hand interchangeably, even when the right arm is not injured. In a later scene, he takes down the trooper with a single shot with left-handed aim — so he’s no slouch on that side. He then goes back to using his right hand when he picks up the shield.

On the converse, the Winter Soldier also uses his right hand and left hand interchangeably, notably in that scene:

In fact I think if you do an overall tally of how both Bucky and the Winter Soldier reach for their weapons — whether that’s a rocket launcher or a gun or knives — you’ll find that the majority of the time it’s in their right hand (just a quick GIF search would prove this). But the times they do use it in their left hand, they are still dangerously competent with it.

So I think Bucky (and the Winter Soldier) is right-hand dominant as he says, but he’s learned to use his left hand competently as a shooter before became the Winter Soldier. He’s then turned it into a useful skill to throw off his opponents.

Up until this point he’s been trying to stab Steve with his right hand, but Steve keeps blocking it with his shield. When Bucky drops the knife into his left hand, Steve’s attention follows the knife and Bucky instead uses his right hand to punch Steve in the head.

I think another part of the “Winter Soldier is left-handed” thought comes from the fact he often uses the left arm for brute force tasks - like ripping off doors from cars and helicopters, and punching into cement.

For most of us, our dominant hand is both the stronger and more dextrous hand, but for Bucky his right hand is more dextrous while his left arm is stronger (we’ll just accept the science of that for now…). So I feel like this is something that Bucky has learned to adapt — he uses that left arm for tasks that require the mechanical strength or as a metal shield, while the right is still his instinctive go-to for fine coordination tasks.

How, why, and when Bucky learned to be ambidextrous not just for firearms but also for hand to hand combat is a delicious source of angst worth exploring.

The panic in his eyes when he says “Not without you”

Bucky: Gotta be a rope or something! Steve: Just go! Get out of here! Bucky: No! Not without you!

CHRIS EVANS and SEBASTIAN STAN in CAPTAIN AMERICA: THE FIRST AVENGER, (2011). Dir. by Joe Johnston.

bucky got free from hydra after hearing steve's name from stark's speech and he ends the what if episode looking at the horizon of Brooklyn... he definitely went to find himself again, his love for steve got him free.

stucky won again