I Have Two Little Boys.. Can’t Wait

“Tony Stark officially dies toda-“

SHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Shh!

He’s fine and thriving actually, he’s running a little farm with Steve Rogers he told me himself ❤️💛

I had a dream that I crashed a party with Sebastian Stan and his friends and after a while I somehow ended up next to him on a couch.

He put a hand on my thigh in a kinda possessive way.

Mine.

And suddenly all his friends were like “Welp, time to go”

But then I woke up.. and cried

I miss living alone sometimes

ADHD at night: I could write a book. I could get my Master’s Degree. I could go to the club and come home with 12 new friends. I could get a job at that club and meet the mother of my children. I could cure every disease and use my wealth to bring world peace.

ADHD during the day: Fold laundry too hard :( Come back next week

Omg omg omg. It all makes so much more sense when you realise it's not social anxiety but a fear of bring perceived.

Why do you feel more comfortable with a long coat and a mask as opposed to summer clothes?

Why do you DESPISE taking pictures? Especially if it's someone else and not you taking them.

Why do you feel like you have to stop doing whatever it was you were doing when someone passes by?

Why don't you want to tell anyone how leisurely you go about your day, taking a nap, going for a snack, sitting on your phone playing games etc. because you know they will comment on it and even though it's not negative or mockery it's still feels like you've been perceived?

Why can't you make eye contact? Why can you do it only if the other person is looking away but the second when they look at you you stop listening and when you're the one speaking you can't bear to look at them because you know their eyes are on you and they are perceiving you?

Why don't you want to dress excessively or wear nicer clothes? Because you will stand out

People mistake you for shy because you don't speak often, but it's really the fear of drawing attention to yourself more than it is the things you actually say, isn't it?

Why do you hate overpopulated areas even when no one is speaking? BUT you still feel more comfortable when more than one person is in the room (but not too many!) so that the burden of being perceived is directed on someone else and you can safely lay back just observing the scene.

It's all a defence mechanism

whenever i have a new hyperfixation, i suddenly need to know everything about it and own every piece of merchandise that has ever been created because its the only thing i can think or talk about.

i simply cannot like something in a “normal way”

I have the urge to play with his hair and cuddle him all night long🥺🩵