He Knows Exactly What He’s Doing With That Look

Shhhhhhhush, they're sleeping 🤫🩷

I loved drawing bearded Steve btw✏️

Imagine having late night talks with Bucky Barnes…

“Hey, Bucky?” you turn on your side to face him.

“Yes, doll?”

“Are missions scary?” you wonder.

He tilts his head and shrugs, “Not really.”

“But what about all the scary guys with guns and those aliens?” your brows furrow.

“I’m used to it,” the corners of his lips curve upwards, “You’re dating an old, wise one-hundred-year-old man, Y/N.” He leans up to kiss your forehead, “I’ve seen the world.”

You huff, “Well then what are you afraid of?”

Bucky reaches his hand out to you. He caresses your cheek and moves your stray hairs behind your ear, “Losing you.”

Omg omg omg. It all makes so much more sense when you realise it's not social anxiety but a fear of bring perceived.

Why do you feel more comfortable with a long coat and a mask as opposed to summer clothes?

Why do you DESPISE taking pictures? Especially if it's someone else and not you taking them.

Why do you feel like you have to stop doing whatever it was you were doing when someone passes by?

Why don't you want to tell anyone how leisurely you go about your day, taking a nap, going for a snack, sitting on your phone playing games etc. because you know they will comment on it and even though it's not negative or mockery it's still feels like you've been perceived?

Why can't you make eye contact? Why can you do it only if the other person is looking away but the second when they look at you you stop listening and when you're the one speaking you can't bear to look at them because you know their eyes are on you and they are perceiving you?

Why don't you want to dress excessively or wear nicer clothes? Because you will stand out

People mistake you for shy because you don't speak often, but it's really the fear of drawing attention to yourself more than it is the things you actually say, isn't it?

Why do you hate overpopulated areas even when no one is speaking? BUT you still feel more comfortable when more than one person is in the room (but not too many!) so that the burden of being perceived is directed on someone else and you can safely lay back just observing the scene.

It's all a defence mechanism

interviewer: you usually play the hero Sebastian: what movies are you watching?

In Labyrinth he literally puts himself in mortal danger to help someone he just met, simply because it's the right thing to do. In The Martian he's a brilliant doctor willing to put his life at risk to bring a crew mate home. In The Last Full Measure he fights to have a fallen hero's actions posthumously rewarded even though he didn't even want the case at first. In Destroyer he (spoiler alert!) dies trying to do the right thing (and yes I'm aware he was gonna take the money and run with his partner before, but he still tried to save people). Half his fucking career at this point is Bucky, and if anyone wants to try to tell me he's not a hero, you can fuck yourself.

Seb, baby, what movies are you watching?

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SEBASTIAN STAN PICNIC (2013)

Its the 4th one 99% of the time

Neurotypical after a successful social interaction: That was fun, it was great to see them again!

Me after a successful social interaction: I made such a normal amount of eye contact. I deserve some cheese.

Sebastian Stan and Shailene Woodley in Endings, Beginnings (2019)

A commission that I’ve worked on a while back.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

This was the second image in the series of illustrations featuring Bucky Barnes as The Winter Soldier during the four seasons. Here he is in winter, cuddled up with some animals.

These paintings were super fun to work on and made me step out of my comfort zone a bit, because I don’t draw characters a lot.