Confessional // Sue Zhao

on shame and yearning (pt.2)

breaking news: ur actually gonna make it through and everything will turn out just fine

sitting on the bus on a foggy morning and only thinking — is this, finally, my life? do i hold it with both hands? do i try to live?

we still have the moon.

Enomoto Seifu-Jo, tr. by Kenneth Rexroth, from Written on the Sky; Poems from the Japanese / Tomoharu Okamura SUI-GETSU Japanese paper, Metallic foil, Mineral pigments, Pigment 2017 / Emily Skaja, from Brute: Poems; “No, I do not want to connect with you on Linkedin” / Still falls the rain, Daichi Takagi / Adonis, ‘Beginnings of the Body, Ends of the Sea’ / Winter night in the Netherlands -  Stefan  Bleekrode , 2018. / e.e. cummings, from “the moon looked into my window” (excerpt from Is 5), Complete Poems: 1904-1962 / Golden House Nocturne   -  Christopher Burk / The Door, Margaret Atwood / Lois Dodd, New Moon Through the Trees. 2015 /

tiny hug

(via)

going on a girls trip! (me and my earphones to the supermarket)

You don’t need to have dated someone to know dating isn’t for you!

You don’t need to have had sex to know it isn’t for you!

You know yourself better than anyone else! I trust you, and you trust you!

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Reminder that if you're feeling pain due to your aspec identity, that that pain does not mean you have failed in any way or are doing yourself or anyone else a disservice by not being interested in/not being able to experience romantic/sexual relationships. Had society never drilled it into our heads that romance and sex are necessary to be happy, then I can promise you that we'd all be out here living the lives we want and enjoy without the stress of what anyone has to say about it or how anyone else sees it. It is the fault of amatonormativity/heteronormativity. It is the fault of compulsory attraction. It's never been your fault. And yes it's hard to believe and ignore anyone who would dare accuse you of being broken in any way, it's hard to ignore exclusionists sometimes, but just try to keep it in the back of your mind that you didn't do anything wrong. You never have. You are not faulty, you are not broken, you are as you were meant to be, and if you hate it right now, that's understandable. If your attraction changes at some point, that's completely fine and valid. However you are, that's perfectly normal.

Sometimes it’s hard to know when to be tough on yourself and when to be kind. 

Taking care of yourself can sometimes mean pushing yourself. 

But taking care of yourself can also mean being kind and gentle with yourself. 

Finding that balance can be really difficult, and it’s okay if it’s something you’re still struggling with!