LET'S FUCKING GOOOOOOOOO (I Am The Opposite Of Normal For This AU /gen)

Starting tomorrow, you'll all be seeing a new side to me. I'll still be the same, but I want to start posting parts of my life to help me cope with the things that have happened to me. It's been almost 9 years since everything started, so it's only fair that I find a way to move on. I hope you'll enjoy what's to come. See you on YouTube tomorrow at 3:30 PM EST

Nevermind, we had a storm in our area that caused a power outage, so the Ren Faire was closed. BUT, I STILL GOT A CROWN, SO I'M HAPPY!! We stopped by the mall to cure our lack of Ren Faire and it was so much fun :3

We're gonna try and go in October, so I'll still get to go to the Ren Faire!

Going to the Ren Faire this weekend, hopefully, I'll get some cool stuff for my A!Aimsey cosplay (specifically a crown and a sword).

If not, I will be sad /hj

:3

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(P.S. If you wanna see my A!Aimsey cosplay, I post my cosplays on TikTok, which is linked in my linktree. I also cosplay OCs and Squiggles and all of my cosplays are closet cosplays, so they're not very good, but I still have fun with it)

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Wtf?? Why am I getting shrimp emojis in my askbox? I don't like seafood- (am confused)

FLASH WARNING

Since YouTube is fucking stupid, please enjoy this video for my D&D campaign (aka the one I'm running, the first session will be uploaded eventually)

Enjoy :D

Here are my notes on Wonderlust up to episode 9 because episode 10 comes out this Saturday and I'm very much not normal about it

I'm going to be on an emotional rollercoaster this weekend :3

(Btw, this is just me memeing about my emotions, this is a light-hearted joke to make fun of how emotional I am! I will be fine, dw!)

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the suffering never ends

Analysis of Octavia's Confrontation at Stolas in Season 2 Episode 12: Sinsmas From Someone Who Also Struggles With Depression (Spoilers for Helluva Boss under the cut)

I've been thinking about Helluva Boss's season 2 finale, Sinsmas episode, specifically the scene where Octavia is confronting Stolas and I wanted to give my 2 cents about that scene as someone who also takes medication for depression and has been doing so for a few years ago (featuring some info I remember from Intro to Psych).

Via stated that she was confused about why Stolas needed to have anti-depressants (or happy pills or whatever it's called in the Hellaverse), believing that she was doing something wrong and that's why he was taking them. Now, depression is when your brain struggles to make happy chemicals, specifically serotonin, so people who are diagnosed with depression are often given prescribed medication aka anti-depressants.

You can see on the label of the pill bottles that Via finds in that episode that it's prescribed to Stolas, so it's likely he was diagnosed with depression and he takes anti-depressants to help his brain produce serotonin. And obviously, after Mastermind, he missed several days of dosages, which explains his mental breakdown later in Sinsmas. As someone who has accidentally missed a few days' worth of dosages, mental breakdowns are likely going to happen more frequently because your brain lacks serotonin.

Via being confused about Stolas needing anti-depressants is understandable, especially since he probably wasn't sure how to explain his depression to his 17-year-old daughter, which is partially the reason Via's confronting him because he wasn't being upfront about his mental health. But the hiding of his depression could be because he didn't feel safe enough to talk about it, especially because of Stella. Another reason could be that he didn't want to stress Via out with that information. After all, she would probably try harder to be a better daughter, even though it's not her fault. She's young, she's bound to think that kind of stuff when it comes to one of her parents' mental health.

Now, this isn't a hate post for the episode, I really enjoyed that episode and I'm hyped for Season 3. Like I said, this is just me giving my 2 cents about that scene as someone who is also medicated for depression. I love Stolas and Octavia so much and I can see where both sides are coming from in the confrontation. Both have flawed logistics for doing the things they're doing, which is natural in an argument. So yeah!

Lemme know if you guys have any other thoughts on that scene and if I should talk about anything else related to Helluva Boss as someone who struggles with mental health issues. And don't worry, I am doing fine mentally, so don't ask me how I'm doing, please. Thank you for reading my analysis, which I wrote at 2:30 in the morning lmao. Alright, good night.

⚠️ SPOILERS FOR WONDERLUST EPISODE 13 ⚠️

Imagine being 2 days late, what? I'm so excited to see what's next, the elemental fight scene was so cool and I'm so curious about the ending! Apparently, there's a twist at the end of Wonderlust (around ep 21), according to Bizly, so feel free to explain what you think the twist is because I have no ideas-

I have an entire scene for my Undertale AU rotting away in my drafts because I haven't touched that part of the story yet. The scene is for the second part and I haven't finished the first one yet. It's so upsetting that I have no motivation to write part 1 because I really like part 1! You get to meet Day (the fallen child) and you get to explore the world through their eyes, and I love Day! They're my precious child!

I guess maybe it's because I get to write one of my favorite lesbian couples being angsty a lot (which is essentially what the completed scene is), but I love part 1 because it's got so much fluff and wholesome scenes in it! Like when Day meets Napstablook, I have a really cute idea of how the scene plays out! I dunno man, it's kinda frustrating lol. And one of my favorite scenes of Day meeting Fennu, Error, and Sin! It's so cute and sweet and I've been planning it out for weeks now! But I've had no motivation to continue and to get Day out of the Ruins (because that's where they are right now). Giwbcjebxigjwifj, I hate this!! Writer's block is a pain in the ass, holy shit

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