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Sometimes I don’t feel like living

Maybe if we went inside

I hate when he holds me or shows me any affection. It feels dirty, wrong, unwanted. Most of the time I ignore it, but when It happens I feel like I’m cheating on you. I suppose that's a funny thought...We’re not even together, but... I still feel like I belong to you. I feel stuck between two worlds. I can’t help these feelings. I am so afraid of it welling up in me and threatening to spill. I’ve never felt a love like this before. I think I’ll love you forever, no matter what happens. You make me so happy. I wish I could tell you just how much you really mean to me... It’s been a while and I wish I knew how you feel about me at this point in time....but I am honestly too scared to attempt to ask at this point. I’m scared it might just be the same answer as before. If it is I would rather not know, and just stay happy in my daydreams. 

brainfog rituals

Entering a Room Meditation

1. enter room

2. press hands together

3. lift fingertips to lips

4. exhale

5. close eyes

6. pause

7. what the fuck am I doing here

I have been awake for ....

*drumroll*

37 hours 🙃

Every time I fuck something up I just want to die lol.

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