Literally Have Them In 24/7

Girlhood 🎀🐰🤍

Girl activities

biting your nails

wondering how many bodies are hidden in your hometowns hills and forests

laying naked in bed tracing your scars

daydreaming about your future

pretending to look mysterious and read in front of your cafe crush

wondering what you would look like 50 lbs lighter than trying to decide if you want to relapse or not

brushing your hair with vintage silver hair brushes than wondering who all the women were who brushed their hair with it before you

writing poetry at 4 am

falling in love with your best friend

cleaning your room on a sunday

picking at your skin in the mirror till your whole face is red and swollen

daydreaming about bleaching your hair

cuddling your dog

remembering your dreams while sitting on the shower floor

watching movies, reading books, and watching shows, pondering the stories and characters and fantisizing about your life being like those stories

she's singing in another room and my dog is asleep at my feet. my grandma asked me why i haven't found a man yet and i laughed. oh, you know. i like my house clean.

my girlfriend is also my man is also "my partner" if i'm in a professional setting. yesterday we went to a ren faire and a man mimed at me - you're together? and at my delighted nod, his baffled, you're gay? made me laugh. a woman with rainbow hair said i love the two of you together. you're both so beautiful it's absurd.

my dad introduced my partner as my "..... friend. or whatever" the other day. he knows we're dating. in the same way, i was never able to get my sister's husband to stop saying that's gay like it's 2008. he still uses the word fa***t, and my sister's defense of him has always been well, he's just kidding.

my lover and i dance to old music in a tiny kitchen. we judge new music together and take food critique very seriously. we watch love is blind before we fall asleep and agree that if they had a queer season, it would be bloody but also make for excellent tv. of fucking course queer people would know someone for only 2 weeks and agree to get married. what are you saying.

at a bar with friends, a man puts his hand on my wrist. got a boyfriend? and yes, i do have a boyfriend, she's amazing. i am texting her while i wander around a gas station named after geese. i am visiting a swing state for a wedding. in the candy aisle i overhear: she's actually like a lesbian it's disgusting. two teenage girls with packaged sandwiches in their hands, giggling. no literally, like. i'm not, like. okay with her being there while we're all, like, naked and changing.

my girlfriend and i tailgate, drink gin and cider out of cups. from the frat group beside us, a man corrects himself with one of his friends: bro, i mean, nonbinary entity, and it makes everyone around him laugh, myself included. he razzes his friend the same way i would have killed for at 19 years old - like nothing happened, he continues: you apply sunscreen like an alien. he does a little sassy (and fairly accurate) dance interpretation of the motion. his friend is laughing so hard they're crying.

i am lucky, i live in a safe neighborhood in a safe state. my masc passenger princess comes up from DC. i drive her for an hour to where all the leaves are a violent arrangement of color. we walk along the trails, letting autumn into our blood. in this part of the state, there's a lot of pickup trucks and trump signs. when we chastely kiss before getting into the car, i accidentally make eye contact with a woman holding her child's wrist. she looks disgusted. she looks fucking pissed.

two hours later my girl and i are eating dinner on a patio, soaking in the last warmth of new england sun before the chill of winter sets in. we are giggling and trying to talk through plastic vampire teeth. at another table, i see a young woman sit up straighter. i watch her watch us. she blushes and takes her partner's hand from across the table. shy, like the taste of evening has just become something deeper.

it's worth it for this moment, i think. my lover is still humming the same song she's been singing for four days straight and i don't want to kill her for it. her guitar is beside my bed. her toothbrush is in my bathroom. in a few moments i will make us lunch. we are lucky enough to have found each other. it is lucky enough to be in love.

Please know that I will love you forever </3

Turning 17 was hard enough already!

I refuse to turn older than 17

A Secret Society's Guide to Dark Academia

Definition: an aesthetic that revolves around classic literature and poetry

Style Guide:

Choose dark, muted colours: navy blues, deep reds, emerald greens, caramel browns, plaids & tweeds

Top-half: Blazers, polo shirts, turtlenecks, jumpers and blouses

Bottom-half: Plaid skirts, dress trousers, knee-high socks

Shoes: Ballet flats, dress shoes, low heels

Accessories: Good vintage, timeless jewellery like simple watches or pearls, wire-frame glasses, match your belts and bags to your shoes, short neat fingernails and minimal makeup

Activities Guide:

Badminton

Chess/Checkers

Card games

Debate club

Archery

Ballroom dancing

Music or Theatre (this doesn't have to be in-person, you can also watch online with National Theatre At Home or Digital Theatre!)

Embroidery

Painting/Drawing

Calligraphy and letter-writting (bonus points for wax seals!)

Reading, annotating or writing (prose or poetry)

Watching classic cinema from the early 20th century

Thrift-shopping

Visiting museums

Journaling

Strolls around the park or long city walks (rain or sunshine!)

Baking

Visiting coffee shops

Language-learning

Lifestyle Guide:

Take Polaroids in coffee shops or pretty meadows with your friends

Get ice cream inbetween lectures or during study breaks

Go on spontaneous train rides to places you've never visited

Try to identify beauty in simple, seemingly tedious everyday life circumstances or running errands

Go on digital detoxes and try to live life to its fullest (carpe diem!)

Study neoclassic poetry and great heroes from the past

Wear thrifted and vintage, elegant, classic clothing

Be passionate about literature and all forms of knowledge (don't despair but find it exciting when you come across a word you don't know, look it up and add it to your vocabulary!)

Take time to appreciate art: visit history museums, art galleries, libraries, bookstores, operas, ballets, orchestras, live theatre, churches, castles, photography collections and coffee houses

Learn to make different types of coffee/tea at home and enjoy whilst curling up with a book you love

Familiarise yourself with your favourite authors and compose your ideas as they would

Have deep, existential discussions with friends and perform dramatic readings of poetry or classic plays by candlelight

Read articles, write essays and always be prepared, have everything in order to stay ahead in school and/or work

Resist over-consumption: Read all of the books you've bought and still haven't read before buying more and donate to charities when finished

Take action to inspire otthers to read, study ardently and seek knowledge

Still - Poem

I am rot / I am foul / I am nearly gone / Still you kept me in your embrace / Satan streched out his hands / With his long fingers / To get me to him / To get me to purgatory / Still you kept me in your embrace / I bled on your bed / I bled on your carpet / Drowning us both in my blood / Still you kept me in your embrace / The little girl inside me is long gone / The girl with fair hair / The girl with a pink room / The girl with dreams / The girl you fell in love with / That girl has vanished / Still you kept me in your embrace

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

This is my first poem I am uploading here so please be nice..

Born to eat her out (or suck her dick or whatever), forced to be a fan 💔😔

Guys I need her to be real oml..

I have an english exam tomorrow.. Does reading english Hyun ju x reader smut fanfictions cout as studying?

Hyun-ju look-alike contest in my bed tonight!

I need her so bad it's not even funny!