Fingers Smell Like Death. It Carves Into Your Nails, Like Your Nails Carved Into Them

Rainy night. I'm alone in my house, lighting candles. Closing to midnight, I'm picking psychological horror films and tucking myself comfortable in the corner of my couch. A piece of perfection. This is how I try and lose my worries♥️

Bonus: unlike many languages, Finnish has names for eight points of the compass instead of four. So between cardinal directions (pääilmansuunnat) we call ordinal directions (väli-ilmansuunnat) NE, SE, SW & NW by their very own words.

'Ilma' means 'air' and 'suunta' is 'direction', so literally these are called 'air/wind directions', or 'directions of (the) air'

I tell the truth more often than it seems.

people just tend not to take you seriously

when you talk about things in a tone™

with shining eyes & a manic smile..

tags to reach, tags to file (even if The System only makes sense to you) & tags to scream -not like on the post, but On_the_Post can, and do coexist

How could I heal the Earth,

When even the inside of my head is so sick, I can't do anything about it,

And most of the time, don't even want to?

And yet, I try my best,

'Cause the Earth is not to blame

For the sickness of mankind.

Humanity itself

Can destroy anything.

ᗰᑌIᔕTᗩKᗩᗩᕼᗩᑎ ᗩᗩᑎEᔕTᗩᗩ KᑌᑎTᗩᐯᗩᗩᒪEIᔕᔕᗩ

1 to few crosses: religious

bunch of crosses everywhere: definitely gives the dark & witchy victorian vampire vibes

2022

January

finished: 2 books | avg. rating: 3.5 stars favorite: Keskeneräisten Tarujen Kirja 1980 by J.R.R. and Christopher Tolkien

February

finished: 0 books. Scandalous, I know.

March

finished: 5 books | avg. rating: 3.2 stars favorite: The Gods of Mars 1913 by Edgar Rice Burroughs

it's tough tho, I've enjoyed the Barsoom books more than I expected from 20th century pulp

April

finished: 1 book, which I rated 3/5 stars, and refuse to call a favorite

May

finished: 4 books | avg. rating: 3.0 stars favorite: Phantom of the Opera 1910 by Gaston Leroux

June

finished: 2 books | avg. rating: 4.0 stars favorite: Jazz 1992 by Toni Morrison

July

finished: 2 books | avg. rating: 2.5 stars favorite: The Scarlet Letter 1850 by Nathaniel Hawthorne

August

finished: 4 books & an unhealthy amount of research papers | avg. rating: 3.5 stars favorite: Kultaraha nurkan alla 2000 by Maria Vuorio

September

finished: 3 books | avg. rating: 3.33..3 stars favorite: The Master and Margarita 1967 by Mikhail Bulgakov

there goes my 22 reading goal. this has been a comfortable phase, I think next year I'll try for 50, if my situation doesn't drastically change.

absolutely adored the Devil's Lot visiting Moscow, too <3

October

finished: 2 books (I think) | avg. rating: 3.5 stars favorite: The Vampire Lestat 1985 by Anne Rice

November

finished: 3 books | avg. rating: 3 stars favorite: Of Mice and Men 1937 by John Steinbeck

December

finished: 2 books & lots of shorts | avg. rating: 3.5 stars favorite: how to compare..

That's it, final update! 30/22 books finished. No doubt The Master and Margarita was the most fun I had this year. 2023 here

Week’s reads with pictures | my (unsatisfying) Goodreads profile

Some days I will look into the mirror and see a stranger. Or looking back at me might be someone I've been searching desperately on another day, yet now grieve to see. It is not that I'm a stranger to myself, my soul I know, but these expressions, they don't belong on a face I'd read as mine. This form betrays me. These feet can't carry, and this voice can't say.. it frustrates me. And I search. I run these fingertips across it, sometimes enjoying bits of it, sometimes wondering if there's somehow I might mold it to better fit. But the truth is there's nothing much wrong with the body. I might admire it even, were I not trapped in it. But it doesn't feel like it should belong to me, doesn't feel right on me.