Its Me And My Adhd Insomnia Against The Two Am “the Reason Im Not Already Successful And Never Will

I know I'm late with this. It took me way too long, but I had already startet it and didn't want to wait until next year, so:

here's how I imagine them celebrating James' 65th birthday. Just sitting in the garden with their loved ones, eating cake and having fun. They are alive and old and grey and happy ok!

you hear someone screaming “and he was tall! he also didn’t give a fuck about his hair or appearance” as they drag a third roommate into your padded cell

"BUFF SIRIUS" i scream as they drag me into the white room "HE WAS BUFF AND LEAN AND HE HAD MUSCLES" i keep screaming while they strap me to a chair "HE'S NOT A TWINK" they silence me and put me in a strait jacket

nothing is real i have 8 homework assignments and just got accepted into a professional program and you know what i want to do??? write prongsfoot fanfiction heavily based on my own life. also eat nutella

During the 4th book:

Ron: Sirius-

Sirius, indignant: James used to call me that

Harry: That's because it's your bloody name

Hermione:

i genuinely think a stud could fix me

hihi. kill me

i wanna write a canon!characterization fic now 🫢 my boys have been butchered in fanon

(and i hate remus + wolfstar)

Yah so how the fuck did Remus manage to "forgive" Sirius? And why does everyone in the fandom always take The Prank as an opportunity to make Wolfstar angst... Like...no?

I'm sick of seeing posts that are like "Sirius going back to his house and having a breakdown" "Remus not talking to Sirius to Sirius sends him a letter about how sad and depressed he is because none of their friends are talking to him". Oh my gosh. ENOUGH OF THAT 😮‍💨

Oh no, the consequences to my own fucking actions--- No SHIT, Remus doesn't want to speak with you. WHY WOULD HE??? And people just completely shove Severus into the corner as if he wasn't also going through something. This fandom man...

Honestly, I’ve never been interested in Wolfstar, and not because I dislike the characters but because it doesn’t make sense to me. I mean, if I had to choose a pairing for Sirius among his friends, for me, it would clearly be James, because Sirius was literally obsessed with him. He wasn’t just his best friend; Sirius’ entire life revolved around James, and even 12 years after his death, he couldn’t move on, to the point of projecting James onto Harry and getting upset when he realized they were two different people. Look, Molly Weasley gives me the creeps, but she was absolutely right when she called him out, saying that sometimes it seemed like he wasn’t seeing Harry but James—because that’s exactly what was happening.

But beyond that, Sirius shows absolutely zero interest in Remus or at least zero empathy. It’s clear that if there was any glue holding the group together, it was James. James had more sense than the two ringleaders combined, or at least more common sense to know where the limits were. He was also the one who took care of Remus when he had nowhere to go after finishing school. My theory is basically that Sirius hung out with Remus and Peter because James tolerated them, and because having a werewolf friend gave him an excuse to act recklessly. If we look at SWM, Sirius remarks that he wishes it were a full moon because he’s bored. He couldn’t care less that for Remus it’s a traumatic moment each month, because for Sirius, it means going out, living dangerously, and messing around with his friends. What’s a trauma for Remus is an opportunity for fun for Sirius. He doesn’t consider what it represents for his friend; he doesn’t show that his reason for becoming an animagus is to provide moral support. Instead, he’s WISHING for the moment his supposed friend dreads most because, for him, it’s an exciting event. That’s not appreciating someone—it’s seeing them as a means to an end, a tool. That’s pure utilitarianism, not friendship.

Now, let’s move on to the facts. In “The Prank,” Sirius doesn’t care about the consequences. He thinks it’s funny and is totally thoughtless because that’s just who he is—someone who was never taught about morals or ethics and who basically chose a different “side” than his family’s just to spite them. He’s a rebellious and chaotic spirit who despises snobbery, and that’s about it. There’s no deeper philosophy, no deconstruction. Deep down, he behaves like any other Black, believing he has the right to control others—whether it’s ending someone’s life if they’re “stupid enough to fall for the trap” (Severus, in this case), which he justifies by saying they deserved it, or using others for his malicious ends (Remus). It’s James who has a modicum of conscience and who thinks about the consequences, stopping Severus because James was taught values and understands that certain lines shouldn’t be crossed. But also, I think James genuinely cared about Remus and probably understood what it might mean for him to end someone’s life.

Then there’s the post-Hogwarts relationship. Remus is always portrayed as being very close to the group when canonically, Peter was the one who was always trailing James and Sirius like a cheerleader. Ultimately, they chose Peter over Remus to be the Secret Keeper. This happened because CANONICALLY, Remus had distanced himself from the group, and CANONICALLY, it was Sirius who suggested Peter because he didn’t trust Remus—thinking he might have joined the dark side. This wasn’t something that came from Lily or James; it came from Sirius. Sirius was the one who considered that Remus might have betrayed them. Is that really what a true friend would think? How can people even consider there’s chemistry or a sexual subtext between them when canonically, Sirius repeatedly demonstrates that he doesn’t care about Remus at all? He only starts paying attention to him years later, after escaping Azkaban and realizing his best friend is dead, and his personal cheerleader turned out to be a traitor who ruined his life. Then, when only the two of them are left standing, Sirius starts giving him attention—but only because he’s the last one left. That’s it. Even Rowling herself described Remus ages ago as “the third wheel in a two-person relationship,” referring to Sirius and James. Seriously.

And let’s not forget that Remus never doubted that Sirius could be a traitor either—he always believed him guilty. It’s funny when they’re portrayed as missing each other, but missing each other from what? Remus thought Sirius was scum the whole time! And how could he not? He’d seen Sirius be cruel, even sadistic, and show zero remorse. It’s no wonder it fit for him to think Sirius had lost his mind.

As for how Remus handled all this, it’s no mystery: Remus is very similar to Severus in terms of his position. He was a vulnerable kid clinging to any lifeline to keep a low profile and feel safe. Sirius and James provided that safety—they made him feel protected and accepted. He never raised his voice or questioned their decisions because the mere thought of being rejected terrified him. Even as an adult, he keeps justifying their crap because he’s clearly incapable of going against those who gave him a place when he needed it. Remus is also a terribly cowardly man—he doesn’t have the guts to confront things. He has a super avoidant personality, which is crystal clear when he leaves a 13-years-younger pregnant woman because he can’t handle the pressure. A 17-year-old kid has to make him come back—is there anything more pathetic than that? At 38? Sirius clearly hurt him, but Remus knew that confronting Sirius meant confronting James, and if James had to choose between the two, he would always choose Sirius. So it wasn’t in Remus’ interest to speak up or express how he really felt because the idea of losing the protection that came with being their friend was far worse than feeling like crap over what Sirius did. That’s it, plain and simple.

Honestly, it’s such a shame and a total waste that everything gets reduced to couples and absurd adolescent dramas when the dynamics among those four “friends” are fascinating because they’re built on pure power relations and are deeply dysfunctional. But instead of exploring that, which I find genuinely interesting, it all gets thrown away, their personalities are rewritten, and it’s all turned into cheap teen soap operas. But whatever.

The Death Eaters were fascists

Please read the whole thing through. I am saying this specifically for audiences that forget what Death Eaters stood for.

Their ideology was centred on:

⁃ Pureblood supremacy

⁃ Genocide of non-wizards

⁃ Genocide of muggleborns

⁃ Torture and murder of “blood-traitors”

⁃ Government infiltration and dictatorship

I really don’t understand how fans (so many of whom hate JKR, are Palestine activists and are watching the USA fall under a fascist regime) aren’t connecting the dots.

People seem keen to forget that the Death Eaters and their supporters were canonically privileged aristocrats (the Malfoys, Regulus Black and his parents, Barty Crouch Jr, the Lestranges and likely many more but these are the only ones I could find EXPLICIT mentions of being from privileged backgrounds) who thought of themselves as superior for unproven reasons that were canonically false.

This is why so much of the fandom hates it when people create tragic backstories for blood supremacists, think up inclusive headcannons for them or ship them with resistance fighters.

People may as well be making headcannons about Hitler, Donald Trump or Elon Musk.

There are exactly two dark characters that we know the backstories of pre-dark alignment: Severus Snape and Tom Riddle.

(Not mentioning Regulus and Peter because there’s no in-depth information on them in cannon. Draco was aligned towards the dark since the beginning so I’m not mentioning him either.)

These two ACTUALLY have troubled pasts! Severus Snape comes from abject poverty and Tom Riddle was orphaned and grew up in an place where he was disliked as a young child.

This doesn’t excuse the stuff they did, but it seems strange the fandom (Marauders Era fandom especially) creates fannon backstories for fascists they like while ignoring the cannon ones for fascists they dislike.

It is a fact of history that any up-and-coming fascist movement starts from the top down. Only the elite can pass oppressive laws and hide their misdeeds behind money. Then they employ the people below them.

(To anyone about to argue that this contradicts what I said about Tom Riddle not being privileged; we have canon information that tells us that muggleborns and muggles were already viewed as “lesser” far before his time. Tom just used his charm and intelligence to organise the fascists into a group which made it easier to commit genocide.)

The fandom want to headcannon every character as lgbtqia+, autistic, poc, disabled and whatever else.

I really need you guys to have a reality check: there is no racist organisation that draws the line at racism. None. They will always find another target.

Now, does this mean your interpretation of the characters shouldn’t be diverse? FUCK NO!!! I am literally begging you all to continue making the characters POC and queer and whatever else you want! HOWEVER, Please think of what it means to be a Death Eater and consider what it may say about you to be fixated on a fascist’s race, romance and friendships when there are SO MANY other non-Death Eater characters who would be better suited for your headcannons.

Hermione Granger (muggleborn who fought for house-elf rights and in the war against the people trying to kill her kind) would absolutely have a dictionary on pronouns memorised, start eight different heritage clubs and hex any racist she came across.

Remus Lupin (werewolf who has lived a life of discrimination due to his condition) 100% could be a disability ally! He knows firsthand how unseen mental and physical disabilities weigh you down and impact how people view you.

Luna Lovegood (bullied for being strange) take one look at her character and you will understand that this girl would be using (and probably creating) neopronouns and being the one all of the bullied people flock to for comfort.

You could take anyone who fought in the rebellion or their allys (just skim the wiki, there are lots of interesting characters) or even create an original character if none of them suit your fancy.

I personally feel quite offended by the way much of the fandom treats Death Eaters.

I remember kids drawing swastikas on the school windowsill while having pride pins on their bags.

They thought it was funny.

I remember learning about the pink triangles. I remember being called a gypsy for having old ill-fitting clothes and tan skin. I remember reading Anne Frank. I remember not being able to dance with a girl at prom.

I remember reading Harry Potter: a story about how kids stood up against a fascist takeover.

Now more than ever we need to be remembering these things.

Tumblr Tuesday: Yellowjackets Art (& Spoilers)

The drama girlies are back. Season 3 of that show about a teenage soccer team that sort of survives a plane crash in the Canadian wilderness and subsequently gets up to various dark and disturbing shenanigans is upon us as we speak, and the plot thickens, as it is wont to do. Please enjoy this offering of Yellowjackets art to keep you all sated til the next episode.

(And please scroll ahead at your own discretion—some mild spoilers, body horror, and gore ahead.)

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Tamsyn Muir: “Here's a series about how a man's vindictiveness dooms the universe, all because his trauma left him incapable of believing in forgiveness over vengeance. As contrast, the protag in the first book reflects something closer to divinity by extending her abuser grace so that she can repent and change, and the protag of the third book begs her brother to not flatten a planet in revenge after having experienced forgiveness.”

too many TLT fans: “yass can't wait for my girlies to kill God!!!”