“recovery!” i say as i binge every day for two weeks, gain ten pounds, and immediately relapse harder than before and hate myself because of the weight i gained
“Can I not be hungry” I ask my eating disorder. “FUCK YOU” said my eating disorder who was actually the fuck you guy.
dad bf. dad bf that randomly gropes me, takes his anger out on me. dad bf that uses me when he’s stressed…😵💫
୨୧ forever blush roses, intimacy, ballerina pink, french hot chocolate, classical music, lingerie, cranberry pavlova, a romantic rendezvous, elegance, miss dior bath pearls ୨୧
all of these things have shaped me into who i am today
top weird girl canon events:
listening to Lana for the first time
7th grade winter break
being told you’re “an old soul” and “mature for your age”
hating your dad at one point
reading no longer human for the first time
obsessing over a girl you have no chance with
getting bullied by the “popular boys”
counting calories at 12
watching girl interrupted for the first time
feeling like a lost dog in friend groups
Just learned another girl in my class has an ed and I’ve never been so fucking triggered because she’s so much skinnier than me and now it’s a competition even if she doesn’t know I exist
surrounding myself with ed related content so i can become obsessed again