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F4t is a curse on ur body to be ugly . I can’t stop until I can see my beautiful b0n3s. Don’t ruin your progress. Keep going. Every calorie counts.

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100 Reasons To Be Th1n

⭒ To always be cold

⭒ To know anything being said about me behind my back is out of envy

⭒ To be too small to find anything at a store

⭒ To have people worry

⭒ To have people be jealous

⭒ To be able to wear bracelets as garters

⭒ To make him touch me gently

⭒ To make people think I’ll break

⭒ To never have to cover myself

⭒ To never be shamed for not looking put together

⭒ To feel my bones hit against each other

⭒ To change the dosage

⭒ To never hit fat

⭒ To always turn heads

⭒ To be able to say “I guess its just my metabolism” when asked how I stay thin

⭒ To never have gaps on button downs

⭒ To always be the smallest in a room

⭒ To never be offered someones leftover

⭒ To say “lets get something to share” and only eat 2 bites

⭒ To never feel greedy when eating at a function

⭒ To have a hunger high 24/7

⭒ To always feel my heartbeat

⭒ To never have to hide what I eat

⭒ To say yes to going out for food without feeling like a pig

⭒ To have people ask “are you sure you dont want something to eat” out of concern instead of malice

⭒ To be called fat as a joke and know its a joke

⭒ To have a hollow face

⭒ To always be hydrated

⭒ To make people think I eat clean

⭒ To feel the fat leaving my body every time I breathe

⭒ To never spill out of jeans

⭒ To always need a belt

⭒ To have tshirts fall off my shoulder

⭒ To look thin even in big clothes

⭒ To make everything around me look bigger

⭒ To move without a sound

⭒ To blackout

⭒ To be a lightweight

⭒ To be told to eat a burger

⭒ To be told I need help

⭒ To be told im beautiful

⭒ To feel beautiful

⭒ To actually accept compliments

⭒ To never feel like people are being nice to prove a point

⭒ To never think someone is being nice to laugh at me later

⭒ To walk away from any argument knowing they’re the bigger person

⭒ To never be asked out on a dare

⭒ To never be ignored by a group of guys

⭒ To make him concerned about my health

⭒ To be lightheaded

⭒ To see stars everywhere

⭒ To never want to sleep

⭒ To focus everything on school

⭒ To redefine what food is to me

⭒ To be in control of my health, mind, and body

⭒ To never wonder if Im being excluded because Im fat

⭒ To never be the one taking the group photo

⭒ To never make a boxspring creak

⭒ To never sweat

⭒ To walk slow and enjoy it

⭒ To breathe deeper

⭒ To love being outside

⭒ To never wondering if an outfit looks good or not

⭒ To train myself to never need to look at a nutrition label

⭒ To be able to wear everything I thrift

⭒To never be worried that im bring judged for what im eating

⭒ To always hurt

⭒ To never need makeup

⭒ To never need s*x

⭒ To never think an outfit would look better on someone else

⭒ To have my bones dig into everything

⭒ To barely raise the water in the bathtub

⭒ To never feel hot in the shower

⭒ To wrap my hands around my waist

⭒ To never drop a deuce lol

⭒ To say “do you want a cookie?” in an argument and someone get mad

⭒ To be on peoples minds

⭒ To shrink my stomach

⭒ To be so hungry that I dont know what it feels like to feel hungry

⭒ To always decline food

⭒ To be allowed to be picky

⭒ To never feel greedy

⭒ To save money

⭒ To make people kind to me

⭒ To make people think I hate junk food

⭒ To never need to step on a scale

⭒ To never purge

⭒ To never binge

⭒ To have more room on a plane seat

⭒ To never be judged for having a soda

⭒ To never need to be weighed at a water/amusement park

⭒ To never get stares of disgust

⭒ To never be though of as low brow

⭒ To be able to walk though a thin barred fence

⭒ To never worry if anything will break under me

⭒ To never worry that my old clothes will rip

⭒ To use less soap

⭒ To feel clean

⭒ To feel euphoric

⭒ To feel like who Im supposed to be

“Can I not be hungry” I ask my eating disorder. “FUCK YOU” said my eating disorder who was actually the fuck you guy.

i could've been at my goal weight by now

top five best female experiences:

1. ovulation

2. smelling good cologne that matches the face

3. tanning

4. seeing biceps

5. smiling at a girl and she smiles back