I Just Went To The Doctor Because I Need Some Blood Tests To Be Done

Just venting

I got a message that yesterday, i had contact to a Person who has covid. I was at the doctors office with my mum and later went to university.

So to decide where i had this contact, i went to my mum and asked her if she had gotten this message, too. My mum and my father were watching a movie when i asked. My mum immediately checked her Phone, but my dad just yelled at me for disturbing them and blamed me for leaving the house so often. Then He yelled at me to go to my room befor my mother could even answer me

Bruh i wish i could live on my own

So my father just forbid me to eat cake on Easter Sunday because it has too many calories

FIRST, I know the calories, he knows nothing about them

SECOND I am at a normal/healthy weight, he is oberweight

THIRD, I can make myself purge, ge doesnt

FOURTH, I will go for a long run in the evening

FIFTH I wont eat breakfast on Sunday

But well, i guess ill just watch everyone eat cake because now there is a 0% chance that i will eat cake in Front of my father

Lmao i wish i was dead

I have about 6 weeks before i have to go to the doctor for a general check-up

I better lose as much weight as possible before i get there

Bikini themed thinspo

Please keep in mind that this is my Personal experience

how to stay safe

okay so i am making this because even though i have bad days/nights (like today) recently i’ve been feeling like my goals can actually be reached! & i’m going to give my best three tips that i use myself to help you all not feel so crappy.

disclaimer: what works for me may not work for you, please don’t use this as the guide for losing weight. also i know it doesn’t have a huge effect coming from me since i literally said i use these tips but please guys recovery is always the best option. but if that isn’t happening right now i at least want to help some of you, this is being done with my very best intentions. so without further ado...

eat to lose weight: sounds dumb & i don’t really know why this works other than what we all hear (“depriving yourself for so long can lead to binges” & then you ruin any fasting/restriction yada yada) but i haven’t fasted in so long & i’ve finally moved down from being stuck on like a plateau of not losing weight. obviously fasting every once in a while can have benefits but most of the time i eat twice a day. i eat no less than like 700 maybe (i don’t know i don’t count calories often) and have been steadily dropping. plus a lot of energy goes to your brain & i want enough power for good grades. it’s hard to get past but you do not have to completely limit yourself to reach your goals. work smart not hard!

*veganism/vegetarianism: other than the obvious health benefits eating a vegan/vegetarian diet can make it a lot easier to eat a lot more food but not a lot of calories. feeling so full can be scary but knowing that you are putting good foods into your body can be rewarding and help you give yourself bigger portions and feel satisfied. i became vegetarian, not to cut out foods i simply just do not like meat, and my meals are just fine.

allowing leeway: probably the biggest “no no” in all of our minds. honestly this was hard for me too. but like i said, we know that being deprived of certain things makes us want it more & if/when we allow ourselves to have it we may over do it. so to avoid that i do a thing where in a certain situation where there’s a big fear food (lets take a birthday party with cake being served as an example) i ask myself “will i have access to more soon?” since my mother is vegan & i am vegetarian there’s not many sweets and such in the house so for me, the only time i would have cake offered again is at another celebration. so i most likely would allow myself a small piece, maybe only a few bites if i was getting to in my head, and i would just be done with it. it really has (kind of) helped to stop obsessing over all the goodies that are sold everywhere all the time.

*veganism/vegetarianism is more than a simple diet. they require some research on how to safely incorporate new and unfamiliar eating habits into your life. if considering please do it safely and correctly, if you don’t you can cause more harm than good so be careful.

please remember all of this was written with my best intention and i really do just want to help.

You can’t spell yummy without ‘umm’

Think before you eat.

4 months n 20 lbs later

Will cut off a pice every time I reach that weight

My parents act (especially fight) as if they were 5 years old

Yk, their behaviour is so dumb and immature like ....wtf?

I wish i was dead lol