I’m free! But at the same time, I feel like my purpose has been pulled out from under me. Knowing I don’t have anywhere to be today - or tomorrow, or the day after that...etc - is strange. At the end of Year 11 it was ok, because I knew that I would return to my school for sixth form after summer. Now I am only returning to my school to collect my results before I spread my wings and go to university.
I don’t have this pressure any more, but my subconscious is paranoid that I will get poor grades, even though I have worked consistently hard for two years, because I had disappointing exams. Indeed, my first night of freedom consisted of an unpleasant dream in which I only got a B in French (not bad at all but I consistently have been my teachers’ hopes for their first ever A* at A level) and C’s, D’s and E’s in my other subjects, so everyone was judging me. They were disappointed and so was I.
I do have some plans for the summer - I am going to London and Cambridge to do some work experience in July and I want to read as much as I can, get back into drawing and regain my love of chemistry ready for uni. I might find some cheap flights and go to... wherever for a weekend. A day trip to Dublin sounds fun. I might learn to drive.
If you too have survived the horrors of A levels 2019, I congratulate you and sincerely hope you get what you have worked so hard for. Now let’s go and find a social life 😂
I hate surprise tests but I know I need to start revising now so that’s what I’ve been doing all evening. Now I’m done I can finally sit down with the book I’ve been wanting to read all day!
I love that feeling of being so absorbed in a book you don’t want to ever put it down. I’ve finally found pleasure in reading again - something I lost when I found out aphantasia wasn’t something anyone else I knew had. I just read because I love words and can feel their nuances rather than see them in action in my head :)
Have a lovely evening!
I don’t use watercolour very often but I thought it’d look cute drawing a fawn :)
16/08/18 So studying languages is amazing but I also love sciences and there is an introductory lecture tomorrow about pharmacokinetics that I unfortunately am not attending. However, it looked like fun so I’m reading up on it myself and making some notes for something to do because it’s 22:14 right now. I’m not a person to specialise in just one thing 😫
12/8/19
3 days until A Level results day and I feel physically sick knowing that what’s on that paper is not going to be a reflection of my best work by a long shot.
However, I know that I will have plenty of opportunities to prove myself at uni. New chapter, new start. It’s all a learning curve and those results can’t hurt me. I’ve already got a confirmed place at uni; now I need to focus on that.
Good luck to any fellow A level takers of 2019. We will get out the other side x
28/06/19
Hi guys! I see I’ve gathered quite a number of followers since starting this account only a year or so ago. I’m so so grateful for all your support and interactions with me and my material and I love seeing all your posts too!
I’ve now finished Year 13, which means I am on a very long summer break until 1st October, when I start my course at university! As you can imagine, posting will pick up then. For the time being, I am relaxing and trying to focus on my mental health so I am refreshed and recovered for my degree.
That means, of course, that this account is hibernating until October - I have nothing much to study! However, I may update you guys every now and again on what I’m getting up to in my spare time - hopefully lots of artwork and reading and happy experiences of work experience!
Until October folks! ❤️
Rant incoming! I’m so tired. It’s been half a week and I’ve had so much work thrown at me. I’ve just moved into my second year house and am still finding my feet; I’ve got work from 5 modules on the go at the same time; there’s Zoom calls left, right and centre; and a ton of short deadlines. I’m trying to keep my chin up because the content is actually very interesting - it’s just very intense!
Anyway, have some proton NMR notes and remember to drink some water :)
Language is so important for bridging gaps imposed by geography. Proud to be trilingual!
I freaking love my French teacher’s accent. She’s lived in England for a couple of decades but that’s still a part of her and it’s gorgeous
you know what? accents are actually lovely. like you can learn all the languages in the world and you still have a part of your own with you. that’s cute
I started on the 13th June 2018 with Pure Maths. I finished Pure Maths on the 26th July. And I finished Stats and Mechanics today after taking a few weeks off to rest. This feeling is what makes it worth it.
Ok but do you ever get that one moment where you’re totally at peace and having the best time with no worries in the world, but all of a sudden you become aware of the imminent end of this perfect moment and you start thinking about it as a fond memory that you’ll recall on your death bed in (what’s hopefully) a very long time and get all melancholic and nostalgic for the present?
Lauren, 22 - England - chemistry PhD student - studyblr - English, French (fluent), German (B2) - original and reblogged content - nice to meet you!
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