Just Had The Worst Exam Of My Life... I Didn't Have My Calculator, And Nobody Had An Extra...

The train station is so beautiful when everything's in bloom...

Ah... I'm tired. Finals are over, and I'm worried about my marks now— but at least there's time to sit in bed and stare at the wall for a while.

I want to disappear...

" It's not dango, it's tongjyun!! 💢💢 "

My study snack today, I thought they would be cuter if I drew them faces ^^

Studying with my friend Julia ♡

Nothing beats a tiramisu to keep tiredness at bay

UR SO CUTE I LOVE YOU MORE MWAH MWAH

Omg....

So many plans made for after finals, but no idea how to get through said finals.

Can't I just skip to the part where I go to karaoke, skating, and cafe hopping? December 13th seems so far away...

My new friend group makes me so happy. We're all so cute together-- Four girls from different regions all over East Asia, somehow meeting in one class in Vancouver. Hanging out with them feels like I'm living in a webcomic. It'll be fun to spend more time with them, once we're through everything...

Good luck on ur examn !! 🙏

Thank you!!! Once this is all over, I can finally hole up in my room and play games forever...

Any recommendations on fun hobbies/things to do during the break? I want to start filling out my days so they don't blend together as much... (ŏ⁠﹏⁠ŏ｡⁠;) Hopefully...

New life, new motivations??

I feel like a new person. I don’t know what the mental switch was, but I really do feel like someone completely different. For the first time in so, so, long, today I got the urge to exercise! I’m saying goodbye to lying on the floor and never wanting to get up for the rest of my life, goodbye to my horrid self-isolation and unmotivated slugging around. I feel like I’ve stumbled upon something wonderful!

And even though I’m not living in my dream room or wearing my dream clothing, or even have dream grades- I feel so much better just living as a different person, crossing over through lives from a saggy, depressing one to a completely new and bright one! I couldn’t be happier for my personality of smoke and mirrors- after practicing, I can convince even myself that I have likes and dislikes now. I’ve started to enjoy actually doing things, and have been making myself a whole heck of a lot happier meanwhile.

After measuring myself, I can tell that I’ve definitely gained some weight from my prime. No worries, though- now that I’ve started working out again, and am enjoying it, I’m sure I’ll get it all off before my clothes arrive!

For now, though- it’s getting very late. I’ll be setting my alarm really early, excited for tomorrow for once. I honestly cannot believe how quickly I’ve started living in this personality! It feels so fresh to be productive and have the energy to do things now. I’m almost living my dream, I can tell! So, so close.

Goodbye for now, I’ll write tomorrow!

<3 Caramel

yukiko is so cute wouldn't you agree?

maybe a little

Not sure if this helps but I don't really believe that knowing we'll die in the end changes anything.

Do you listen to a song just because it ends?

Do you read a book just to close the cover in a few days?

Look, I'm no fully grown adult with a grip on life or a real job or anything, but I'm a bit of a believer in just trying to make the best of things while we're here. The time limit isn't really the end goal per se, but it's something to give our lives value.

What's the point in living forever anyways? With an ~80 year lifespan, these days matter!

Or at least, that's what I believe in theory. Might want to consult @aletheia-mou for more thoughts on life, since I've kind of reached a point in this line of thought that satisfied my need for knowledge in this area.

Hang in there<3

Caramel

☆ Meaningless? ☆

What's the meaning of life? I need an answer--not something along the lines of "it's all about self-discovery!" Discovering one's life is part of the journey, but if that's all there is to life, I don't want any part of it. If it's truly the case, then I discovered that my life is full of wrath and meaningless things. I use too much oxygen and produce too much carbon dioxide. My presence is negative even on an environmental level. My life is all about academics I swear. Although I love academia, it kinda sucks that I am 2 dimensional outside of school. Why should I even pity myself? Maybe everything happens for a reason. I'm gonna die anyway sooner or later.

I hope it's sooner rather than later.

(o´∀`o)

/silly <3<3

PFFF BAHHAHAA I REALLY NEED TO GET OFF THIS SITE AND FOCUS ON MY STUDIES

This made my day, thank you <3